Keith Bruce McCarthy

233 months . I know you've been taking good care of me this past month with my health concerns and I'm so grateful but I think to myself how great it would be if you were REALLY here . Its all sad . One month away from your 40th birthday and as usual I think of you constantly. 20 years gone,20 years with us . I miss you so much,I ache . I so wish you were here . Keep watching over me,I need you . You know I know . Love Mom

232 months . I looked at your picture this morning and just found it so hard to believe you left us at only age 20. I cannot accept it . Gosh,Keith i miss you desperately. With everything I am ,I am lost without you . I so wish things could be different . I will continue to share your story and our memories and I hope I make you proud .you know I know. Love,Mom

231 months. The time goes by so fast,yet i never stop not believing what has happened. I understand it to be true,yet i just can't accept it. Never seeing you again is brutal. I don't know how our lives took such an ugly turn. Life goes on and on and on. The truth is,i miss you so much and am so heart broken,i can't recover . I have so many memories yet they don't take the place of a living,breathing Keith. What we had,you know. I miss you endlessly. Continue to watch over me ,Daddy and...

230 months. We are almost at 20 whole years since you left us . This is inconceivable. This August, somewhere you will be turning 40. Who would you be ? Gosh,i miss you . I miss you so much,i almost can't think about it . Know that,as long as I am able ,i will spread your message and continue to make you proud. You know I know. Love,Mom

228 months ,19 years today.How have we gone 19 years without you? How did time go by so very fast ,yet so slowly at the same time ? I don't know how we've done it .Today,Daddy and I went for wings,your favorite....except we didn't smash them in our faces lol. Then,we went to the BMX race track which turned out wasn't open.as posted,but it was beautiful and reminded us of you. Afterwards we went and watched a spectacular sunset .what I wouldn't do to have you here with us . If love could have...

227 months. We are one month away from your not being here 19 whole years. How i survive is an absolute mystery. I just continue to put one foot in front of the other and make it thru my days. My mind shuffles thru memories of you,always. I miss you MORE lately. Now,im just sad again. My emotions go back and forth. I can tuck them away to keep myself safe,but sometimes,i am just plain sad. I miss you more than you know and love you forever. Mom

226 months. The same exact amount of months now since your actual passing date,Feb. 26th. The day after Christmas. We were lucky enough this year to share Christmas with Randi . We havent been together at Christmas since we lived in Conn. Good for my soul. You saw we had a great time, we always do. But,you were missing. You're always missing. It's heartbreaking. I wonder,what would i buy you ? Would you have your own family ? Would you still be struggling ? I don't have any answers,but i...

Merry Christmas Keith . 18 whole Christmases without you here .Boy did you love Christmas. You and Randi both,actually. You both were fortunate, and usually I was able to find what you asked for . This Christmas, our 7th in Florida,Randi finally was able to make it out here for so that's very exciting for us .I will have your chair ready and waiting by her Christmas gifts ,only very much wishing you were seated in it . I couldn't miss you any more than I do . I will never get over this...

225 months . Almost Thanksgiving . We have much to be grateful for. Daddy is doing so much better,and I just know much of that is your doing .how does a man have a massive stroke,2 blood clots and one month later is back to working and playing golf??? A miracle .thank you for watching over Daddy and all of us,really . I so wish you were here to help me ,yet you ARE here helping me . I miss you more than ever .You know I know . Love forever, Mom