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Dolores Vernacchio Obituary
DOLORES M. "DEE" (nee Fries), on Dec. 26, 2006, of Springfield, formerly of Colwyn. Beloved wife of the late Joseph; loving mother of Jacqueline Geriot, Maryann Siefert (Charles), Eugene (Janet) and the late Catherine Moncrief; also survived by 12 adoring grandchildren, 3 cherished great grandchildren; her dear friend, Thomas Foster; her brother, Robert Fries and her sister, Rita Forbes. Relatives and friends are invited to her Viewing on Saturday morning, 8 to 9:45 A.M., at THE ROBERT L. D'ANJOLELL MEMORIAL HOME OF BROOMALL, 2811 West Chester Pike, Broomall PA. Funeral Mass, 11 A.M., St. Kevin Church. Int. SS. Peter and Paul Cem. Contributions in her memory to Multiple Sclerosis Society, 1 Reed St., Suite 200, Phila. PA 19147, would be appreciated.
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Maryann siefert
May 8, 2010
Dear Mom, Another mother's day without you. I hurt so much still. I need you and want to talk to you so you can listen to what is happening and give advise and then I don't do it. ha ha!! No really mommy I wish I could see you one more time. I want you and Daddy to see my Grandchildren, Matteo and Joseph. They are my life. Mom you would bit them up!! My girls are very good mothers and I am so very proud of them. You would be proud too. Kiss to you on Mothers Day. Love to Daddy and Cathy. I miss all of you so very much..
Love Maryannn
June 11, 2009
Dolores!! What did you do? You sneaky old woman!! :) I wish you would've told me about all of this...but I almost like it this way b/c we can laugh about the things you are capable of even after you're no longer here!!
We always knew you had "super powers".
I love you so much and I forgive you for this.
Sending love bites
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX0
Love
Janine
P.S.- I can imagine what DaDa is saying to you right now!
May 13, 2009
Mom Mom and DaDa,
I wanted to write to you today because things will be hectic from here on out. I'm getting married in 2 days..can you believe it?? Mom Mom you knew Joey and I know you liked him! DaDa, you would've loved him too. He's a wonderful person and takes good care of me. He creepily reminds me of you sometimes. I would give anything in the world for you two to be there physically, but I know you can't. But I have come up with a solution so you are with me every step of the way...Daddy, you will be on my flowers, holding my hand..and Mommy, you will be pinned close to my heart. I can't believe you won't be there! But I know you will watch over me every step of the way from when I'm getting dressed, to walking down the aisle, to my first dance, to cutting my cake. It won't be the same without you or my family there but I'm not going to let it ruin my day. I will celebrate my new life with the both of you watching from above. I keep thinking about what you would wear, Mom Mom. Gosh it would've been glitzy!! And I don't want you to turn away when I dance with Chalie..he's a good man, Mom Mom and I know you know that now. You've had a chance to see how good he treats us the last 2 years. I want the 2 of you to be with me that WHOLE day...well maybe not the whole day, but for the celebration.
Oh and Mom Mom, I have decided to walk down the aisle to "Ave Maria" for you. It won't sound as good on piano as it does on your organ, but I wanted it. I will try my hardest not to cry that day for you both, but I can't make promises. But that's why I wanted to write to you today. Also, I wanted to share with you the memorial for all of our lost loved ones...
" For those who are in our hearts on our wedding day and always bless us in spirit as we begin our new life together. Although we can't see you we know you are here smiling down watching over us as we say "I Do". Forever in our hearts forever in our lives. And so we say our vows in Loving memory of you."
Guide me and bless me that day. I will miss you faces there, but I know that I will feel you with me.
I love you forever and always.
Sending Love Bites xoxoxoxoxoxo...
S.W.A.K.
Your Doll Face Baby,
Janine
Maryann Siefert
March 17, 2009
God, I miss you and Dad so much lately I feel like I'm going crazy sometimes. I really wanted you here for this very special time. It's not fair your missing this Janine's wedding and she is very sad at times. I know you will both be there in spirit but it's not the same. Just please help us through this and I pray you will show us a sign that you are there. I love and Miss you everyday and all the time. It gets intents at times. Lexi gets really sad when we talk about you, Mom. She just cries and holds alot in.
Love and Kisses,
Maryann
February 15, 2009
Okay, I'm going crazy here. I need a sign Mom Mom. What am I going to do? I'll take anything. It's coming down to the wire and I'm so sad.
I love you, just push me in the right direction.
maryann siefert
January 17, 2009
Sorry Mom and Dad, I couldn't write during the holiday's. It's still so hard to deal with your passing at this time of year. Well really any time of year but, the holidays will never be the same. I did have the family over for dinner and thought of you all day long. At the end of the day it was just me and you Mom. HARD! can't take it. I really had a less stressful time this year with the other side of the family now gone forever. Just normal Gene and I no drama nothing to be ashamed of we can hold our heads up high because we really Loved you. And most of all no regrets. You guys had the prettiest Christmas blanket in the whole place!! Well I think you had a hand in my most wonderful gift this year.
Please keep her healthy and all will be fine. Mommy I wish you could be here for this most special time. Your little Ling Ling's baby. I could just see your face and feel your joy at this time. I have to go this is hurting me too much. I love and miss you and daddy more and more each day.
Please pray between Janine's wedding and Denise's baby I keep my wits about me.(HA HA)
Love to all of you, Cathy, Daddy and Mommy.
Love, Maryann
January 1, 2009
My Daddy. It's been 13 years today that you have been gone. I still can't really celebrate the New Year with total excitement. You were my main man, DaDa. You were it. I miss you so much and it stills hurts today as much as it did that day. I love you with ALL of my heart and soul. "I love your guts" as I used to say.
Thinking of you today and always!
Your blue eyed baby,
Janine
xoxoxoxoxo..
December 29, 2008
Happy Birthday to you. Happy birthday to you. You smell like a Monkey and look like one too!!
That's something you would say! I love you and miss you with each passing day!
Happy Birthday, Mom Mom
Sending you love bites x0x0x0x0x
December 24, 2008
Well...it's Christmas Eve morning and I couldn't sleep last night. Yesterday was not a good day either. I miss you terribly and I'm not making this one a long one. I just wanted to tell you and Daddy I love you and miss you more than you could imagine.
Love Bites XOXOXOX
Maryann Siefert
December 3, 2008
Hi Mom, I'm having chest pains right this minute and I am not even doing anything. Well I go tomorrow to the cardio doctor and see whats going on. Thanksgiving was going really well until Lexi left the table with out eating a thing. She said she didn't feel good and went to her room. Joyce went up Denise went up but she didn't come down. I think seeing Chalie's Mom and Dad there and not YOU she just hurt too much. Dee Dee try's with the card thing you use to do but it's not the same. God this hurts soooo much. If only I knew you were popping the nitro's like candy this might not be. You could still be here where you belong with us your family. We all love you that it really hurts. Well say a prayer for all of use through this difficult time. And Mom please don't let them open my chest yet. I am not ready for this and the kids just couldn't take it.
sending hugs and kisses
your daughter,\
Maryann
November 27, 2008
Happy Thanksgiving in heaven Mom Mom! It's so much harder this year, I guess b/c last year we all just went through the motions. Nothing is the same nor ever will be. I know the answer to Mary's letter. You are definetely here at times and are most likely visiting everyone else also. I'm in your bed every night and smell you. I feel I'm close to you and you are still here protecting me. I miss you so much it hurts. If I could just have you back I would be so happy. I never knew how much pain I would be in. I never knew how much you really held this family together. It's so sad. Please continue to watch over me. I need you now more then ever at this sad time of year as does everyone else. I love you with all my heart. Your #1.
Maryann Siefert
November 23, 2008
Ok Mommy, They didn't post my letter to you last night. Thats ok because I needed to vent and I did and now its done. I love you!! Mom are you in Lawrence Park or Cambridge house... I know the answer to that. I touch all your things almost every day. Your shirts your PJ's everything. Yes mom even your dolls. They are all part of you and your life your smell your heart.
Tell daddy I miss him soooo much!! Tell granny to stop making my house smell like turkey. Tell Cathy alot of old friends think and pray for her. They write to me and tell me alot of Cathy I didn't even know. At least she is with you and daddy and not alone. I think granny got her first because she was granny's baby. I miss all of you and one sweet day I will join you guys up there and have a different kind of life...
Love to all,
Maryann
Janine
November 14, 2008
They didn't post my letter I wrote to you a few weeks ago. It wasn't bad, but I'm glad they didn't. I was in a depressed mood that particular day.
I miss you so much. I've been thinking about you A LOT MORE these days. The holidays are approaching fast yet again and I'm sure we are all dreading it. Especially since we are not just spending it without you, we spending it without each other. This year, for me, is more difficult than last year. But I will keep myself busy and try to get through.
I believe the day I last wrote you was the day I was at the florist and realized there will be a lot less flowers to order and I'm so sad by that. I've tried my hardest to do what I could and what I believed, but I have failed. It's like losing you and DaDa all over again, but the only difference is that you're NOT coming back. I wish you would. I wish that glue never did unstick. I wish a lot of things.
Getting upset now.
I love you more than anything.
Miss you even more.
Sending love bites,
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO...
October 15, 2008
Mom Mom, I haven't written in awhile. These past few months have flown by! Please stop spooking me...lol! I know your here, but please Dee~~my heart can't take it.
I know you were there when things were being sorted and packed up. Change is good I guess, but I miss that house so much. I stayed there until almost one in the morning alone cleaning and crying. It was a mess! I had no one to turn to or lean on besides myself. I did most of the work toward the end b/c it was too much! My body was aching and my heart was heavy!
What a job it was to pack up! I will never have to do that again. I'll never be in a house that was that big! It was an overwhelming task and a sad one.
We had alot of memories there. The couple that bought it are so young! That day in the driveway I almost fell over. Wasn't what I expected.
I am very baffled, as is everyone else. Funny thing that they came into my office the next day as new patients!
It was a beautiful house. It was all YOU. You decorated it and loved it! All that hard work and expense just to be torn down...makes me angry, but what are you going to do?
The babies are getting so big, I know you see them, I know your here. I went to psychic and she had alot to say.
I left crying! Well, still loving the job. I love that hospital. Never thought I could do it after you, but I'm doing it. I'm a survivor. Love you with all my heart. Missing you each and every day. It doesn't get any easier, you just become more numb. It still hurts and it always will. I am forever changed. Sending love bites...
July 14, 2008
Mom Mom, you would've loved to be here for yesterday. We finally met our brother!! He's great and he reminds me of me and his grandmother sounds a lot like you! In his words "the devil never sleeps". HA HA it was so funny to hear that. I know that you would've wanted to be here to know this and to hear the stories and see the pictures b/c you always wanted us to be in contact with that side of the family and now we do!
I love you so much. It's still so hard to go day by day without you here. And it isn't getting easier. It's hurting worse to know that everything you left behind will probably be sold off to auction. Doesn't that just make you roll in your grave to know that??
I love you and miss you and will try my hardest not to let your memories be tossed away like trash.
Sending love bites
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo.....
July 2, 2008
Oh Dee! I am loving work! I always wanted to be in a hospital setting but quickly changed my mind after you passed. I truly believe you worked your magic and I am fine.
I thought you finally sent me the boy of my dreams! I met him a week before darts and it was so unexpected. He was so sweet and genuine.
I had a short time with him (almost a month to be exact) and he was suddenly taken in a car accident. I was with him that night at darts and then hung out afterwards for awhile.
I am devastated beyond belief yet again. I can't let it go. No matter what I do, I can't stop thinking about it. I so know now that I am meant to be alone!
Please continue to give me the strength I need. Just when you think you've had enough grief, life throws you another curve ball. I love you with all my heart and know you met him and love him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
xoxoxoxo
May 26, 2008
NEVER HAD I IMAGINED LIVING WITHOUT YOUR SMILE; FEELING AND KNOWING YOU HEAR ME, IT KEEPS ME ALIVE...
I ASSUMED YOU WOULD ALWAYS BE THERE, I TOOK YOUR BREATH FOR GRANTED BUT I ALWAYS CARED AND I MISS THE LOVE WE SHARED.
ALTHOUGH THE SUN WILL NEVER SHINE, I'LL ALWAYS LOOK TO A BRIGHTER DAY. SORRY I NEVER TOLD YOU ALL I WANTED TO SAY...
May 26, 2008
Whether it is on the smile of a new found friend, on the edge of a waking dream, in the whisper of the wind, through wind and rain, across the desert...I'll be there.
Don't be afraid, oh my love, I'll be watching you from above and I'd give all the world tonight to be with you. I'm on your side and I still care, I may have died but I've gone nowhere. Just think of me, and I'll be there.
I send to you my silent prayer before I sleep at night, so you'll be alright.
* I hold a picture of a golden sunset, and I'll take your hand. Were going to walk down that promised road, just like we planned.*
Every breath I take I hope and pray, "let her be ok!". I send to you my silent prayer.
May 26, 2008
Hi Mom Mom! I am starting work earlier then I thought! I will be starting next week. Please continue to give me the strength I so desperately need. I think it's going to be harder than I thought walking into that hospital every day. I have faith that you helped me get this job and I am confident I will be fine. I love you and miss you more then you will know. I feel you all the time and smell your scent around the house. Love bites xoxoxoxo
May 13, 2008
I keep on thinking about you. I hope you had a Happy Mother's Day in heaven. I miss you Mommom. I miss our family. Things will never be the same and everyday it becomes more and more clear. I wish things were the way they used to be but I guess they are not suppose to for some reason.
Give Dada kisses for me. I love and miss you much!
Love, Denise
May 4, 2008
Hi Mom Mom! Thank you for being with me the other day at the hospital. That was a very hard thing for me to do and I did it!
I may be a permanent fixture there soon enough! Not sure how that's going to go. Just please continue to watch over me and give me the strength. It's tough Mom Mom, it doesn't get any easier. I'm still numb and have not accepted it. I just can't!
April 24, 2008
A bouquet of beautiful memories
Sprayed with a million tears,
Wishing God could have spared you
If just for a few more years.
It does not take a special day
For me to think of you,
Each Mass I hear, each prayer I say
Is offered up to you.
We cannot bring the old days back
When we were all together;
The family chain is broken now,
But memories live forever.
May she rest in peace, dear Jesus,
In Thy heavenly home above;
With the Sacred Heart of Jesus,
In his own eternal love.
Along the road to yesterday
That leads me straight to you,
Are memories of happy days
Together we once knew.
A silent grief that's in our hearts,
No human eye can trace;
For many a broken heart is hid
Beneath a smiling face.
This was on Peg's mass card from her viewing tonight. I know you all are safe from hurt and pain. Peg explained heaven and it's the most comforting thing in the world!!! I only wish we had this with you Mom Mom. I wish we had just one last conversation with you. I love you.
April 22, 2008
Hi Mom Mom! Well, the old crew is up there now. You have Peg who just joined you. You guys are probably all jitterbugging and dancing to the big band music! Take care of each other and please continue to bless and be around all of us. Peg described Heaven and what she seen. It was very comforting to know that your family comes to greet you and that it is paradise! I love you and miss you more every day.
March 19, 2008
Thank you for the sign the other day. Bel and I were driving to get lunch and we weren't even in the car for 5 minutes and heard a song that's been in my head. This one is from the early 90's. It never is played on radio these days and all of a sudden, at 12:06 p.m. it was played on one of the local channels. I could not believe it! All I could do is tear up b/c it was unbelievable. Thank you. I love you and feel you always. xoxoxoxo
March 6, 2008
Having a rough couple of days again. Some are worse then others! You were in my dream again last night and I finally remembered what you were saying. You were all dressed up in teal and sparkles and you said you were going to the beach! You said you listen to big band music up there! haha! Crazy, I know!
What strange dreams I have! Please continue to watch over me and give me the strength I need so desperately. I just take it day by day. That's all I can do.
That Anabel keeps saying the funniest things...she says things that only you would say! It makes us laugh though! She is something else.
Aidan is now potty trained--I guess you can see all of this! I know your around all of us. He really surprised us! So now they are both trained and are getting so big.
Well, I will talk to you later. Love and miss you. The longing for you will never go away. It's pretty lonely sometimes, but I keep my head up. I'm in my "fog" still, but I am going to be o.k.--You told me that and I didn't believe you, but now I can see that as hard as this grieving process is, I am making it. I AM strong! I'm Dolores' granddaughter!
February 19, 2008
Please come home. Enough is enough. I need you. We all need you. Has it really been a year? Unbelievable!
February 19, 2008
I almost forgot...this gets me through the toughest days or situations...Pia's words the morning of your funeral..."Your Dolores' grandchildren, you have her blood in you--your all fighters, your all strong!" Indeed we are and we will never stop fighting and will continue to be strong. All for one and one for all. We are family and are here for each other. Our bond through you will get us through all turmoil. Your blessings from above are never unnoticed either Dee!
February 14, 2008
Happy Valentine's Day, Mom Mom and DaDa. Right now I'm watching Ellen and there's a little boy whose voice is amazing singing the Beatles "Let it Be". I know you don't like the Beatles, but it's making me think of you. I miss you both so much it hurts. I sit here and cry b/c I'll never get another Valentine's Day card from you with your lipstick kisses inside. Or your multi-colored hearts stickers inside. Or the Teddy Bear you gave me that sings "Let me call you Sweetheart". I want you both back so badly. I wish I could have just one more day with you, one more hour. Just a hug, a proper Goodbye. I hate that we never got to say Goodbye to either of you. One where we tell you that we're going to miss you, and love you, and whatever was on our hearts and minds at the moment.
I love you,
Janine
xoxoxo...
Sending love bites!
January 19, 2008
Good morning Mom Mom! I can't sleep, so I thought I would write to you. Thank you so much for being in my corner and fighting for me--even though it's in spirit now. I know you are pulling alot of strings up there to help me out and I am getting all of your signs. I know that I can count on you. There were many this week. It makes me happy but at the same time sad b/c I want you here. It hurts so badly. Not a day goes by that I do not think of you. I just can't believe the holidays have come and gone. Time went by so quickly that I didn't even realize they were here! Well, please continue to send me your blessings and signs. Thank you again for all of your help and I love you with all my heart. My life has changed forever and I'll always feel this numbness, but I am making it with your love guiding me. I'll talk to you later.
January 9, 2008
Hey Dee! I hope you enjoyed your first birthday in heaven w/ all your loved ones up there:) I think the big E's b-day is coming up soon! I miss you more and more with each passing day. It hurts bad. It's so true what they say about what doesn't kill you makes you STRONGER. I never knew I was this strong! The road is NOT easy at all. "WHAT A LIFE TO TAKE, WHAT A BOND TO BREAK!" No one will ever understand what is was like to lose someone like you. Alrighty then, I think your presence is near right at this moment. Ok, little scared, LOL! So I am engaged again! Well, this time it's right so stop laughing. Don't worry about me, I will be fine. He takes good care of me. Always has, I just was so busy dealing with my own issues in the beginning that I was pushing him away. He stuck through my trying times. He is very special to me. I don't know what I would do without him. I probably would be going a little "Britney" right now. I know you were here with the babies the other day. Anabel had your aroma near her. It's funny that she sells me out to her mother! I get in trouble for giving her candy and tea. What are aunts for?! Anabel finds it hysterical that she blames me for everything! Her "language" etc...You would be having so much fun with her and Aidan. We all know your still with us. Please continue to send your love and blessings. I will talk to you soon. Good night.
December 29, 2007
I can't stand writing to you in the past tense. I will not accept that you're not coming back.
Happy Birthday, my sweet, crazy Old Woman. I was just at the cemetery and I left you a little present.
I'll see you guys on Tuesday!
Love you and Miss you unconditionally.
Sending love bites
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX
Janine
Lil Chris
December 26, 2007
well its a year today and it does not feel like it ive been thinking about you all day and yesterday too i miss you soo much and it does not feel like its been that long but ill probly be goin to see you tomarrow and were stayin up there for a lil bit but i miss you and love you and i wish you were here christmas wasnt the same without you .. i woulder if your tree is even up that tree was so beautiful well im thinking about you all the time and miss you .. i love you say hi to da da for me too it will be 12 years on my birthday .. o yeah im turing 18 wish u could be here for it ok love you xoxo
December 26, 2007
IT'S HERE, THE DAY HAS ARRIVED. This year was the fastest year--EVER! I didn't want this season to come. I didn't know how I was going to be. Christmas was the worst day ever! You would have never missed Christmas! You loved it so much. I didn't like it. The family was not together, and it was just so sad:( Your presence is always missed, every day, but Christmas was a sad, sad day. I am numb. There are no words to describe the feeling. No one or nothing can take away this pain or feeling of despair. I miss you even more now then I did the day you left us. Mom Mom, I hope you know how much of an impact you had on all our lives. You are sorely missed and I can't predict the future, but I know this pain is so great that it will never go away. The longing for just one more hug, one more kiss, one more talk, one more laugh will never go away. My life is changed forever. I am a different person. I can't do this. I won't accept it. I played the organ last night (well, I tried). As much as I complained b/c it would keep me awake some nights, I would give anything to hear you playing it just once. Merry Christmas in heaven and please continue to give us the strength and love we all need so desperately. I love you always and miss you!! Sending love bites...
Melissa Vernacchio
December 26, 2007
This is it. It's been a whole year since you've been gone. Mom-mom i miss you soo much =[ I dont like going up there anymore, because i know your not going to be there. It doesn't even feel like you been gone, and then i think about it.. and it just sucks. I just hope your happy up there in heaven with Dada.
I love you Mom-mom. and i love you too Dada.
i miss both of you =[
<3
December 18, 2007
It hurts so bad. I didn't want to do any Christmas this year, but I was talked into it. I put my tree where you would've liked it, I have singing trees you would've bought yourself, I have your cookie jar on my dining room table. But that's about it. I'm not in the mood, the spirit. I want you back. One year ago today you were here!! It's not fair. It's not! I want to hear your voice again. I want you to play songs on your organ and I want to hear you sing. I want to see your face. I want to smell you. I want to hold your hand. I want to sit next to you and put my head on your shoulder. I want to sit on your lap. It's NOT NOT NOT NOT FAIR!! One more day, Mom Mom, that's all I want. One more day! This year went too fast. I wasn't ready for it. I'm still not ready to accept the fact that you're not coming home. Please come home. Please. I can't do this.
Love Bites XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXo...
December 14, 2007
Little did we know one year ago that our time with you was limited. Never again would we see your beautiful face or hear your voice or words of wisdom. It's hard but I'm doing it. Somehow I am finding the strength and am just taking it day by day. It's a different world without you in it. I'm working on your blanket and it's going to be the BEST, don't worry. You always wanted DaDa to have the best (haha)and Dee, you will as well. It's a must! I'm trusting you to take care of matters pertaining to my job. Can you believe it? You know the phrase I'm thinking of right now, but can't write it...LOL. Work your magic. Please continue to give me the strength I need to carry on. I love you with all my heart.
November 23, 2007
Mom Mom, It's happening! I had no idea it would hurt like this. It's like I just heard the news! It's like this whole year really didn't happen. Maybe it's b/c you would never miss a holiday. Maybe suddenly It just hit me. All I know is, that I am scared of these feelings. I can't handle this at all. I knew this time of year would be tough, but never expected it to be like this. It hurts so badly. NeNe was there for me when I broke down the other night. I had another meltdown today, but I chose to mourn alone. You are in my dreams. You were in my dream this afternoon. They are so real. I am so happy your back and then your gone again. I can't deal with that reality. I never will. Life is certainly different. It just sucks! I miss you terribly. I would do anything to bring you back. Please send me your blessings and love. I love you with all my heart.
christy
November 22, 2007
hey mom mom happy thanksgiving im listing to elvis right now thinking about you i miss you so much dad told me when u heard he died u cryed haha he was good and so cute when he was in his young days -- i cant believe its almost gunna be a year since i saw u that last time not the way i wanted to see you but it just had to happened like that -- well im love you and im always thinkin about you i really miss you well ill be up there one day to see you alright love yaa
November 22, 2007
This time last year you were teaching me how to take cranberry sauce out of the can in one piece. And how to slice it. I would give anything to go back to one year today. It's going to be a weird day today. Usually I would be at your house, helping you set up, sitting next to you at the dining room table, and enjoying your gravy. I'm not sure how today is going to go. I'm predicting not so well. I will visit you shortly, I have a sparkly plant for you. I'm okay right now, at this moment, but who knows once dinner comes. I love you my Mom Mom. Have a great day with DaDa.
Sending Love Bites,
Janine
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox...
November 16, 2007
Mom Mom, I almost forgot, the babies were looking at pictures the other night w/ me and they got very excited when they seen you with them in the pictures! We also were watching a tape of a family bbq when you were rubbing Bink's belly and singing to them. They loved it! I know you see them and are with them always, but what I would give to see you laughing with us now at how funny they are and the things they say. I polished Bel's little piggies the other day for the first time and she loved it! SO DID SOMEONE ELSE! LOL! Aidan was hysterical until I painted his toes...hahaha! You would be in your glory with them. Please continue to watch over them. They love you Mom Mom and will never forget you.
November 16, 2007
Mom Mom I need your blessings right about now. I fear I'm having a huge meltdown. My body is fatigued and worn down and I'm not feeling very well these days. The breakdown is coming, I can feel it. I've come this far, this long and stayed strong and I just cannot do it anymore. This is so hard. Thanksgiving is coming up in just a few more days and it just will not be the same. Nothing is the same without you. I miss you more then ever. It still gets harder every single day. Who said that time heals wounds? They are there and will forever be. I can't remember a whole lot from last year. All I know is that I'm looking for you still. I'm waiting for you to come through that door. You would never be gone this long especially for the holidays. Right about now you would be clearing the dining room table off from all the junk piled (lol), getting the good silverware out, setting the table perfectly four days before the holiday. Then Thanksgiving eve would come and you and mom would be asking me where I'm going and then yelling and saying that you could use my help! LOL. What I would give to hear these words. What I would give to speak to you just one more time. What I would give to hear you ask me where I'm going every time I left the house. I miss the perfume samples, the holiday socks, the pj's, the stuffed peppers, the coloring books, the little trinkets, the bags of ketchup flavored potato chips you would pick up for me, the lectures, our talks, the laughs, the crazy stories shared...I could go on and on. I have a lifetime of wonderful memories that I'll cherish forever. I will never come to terms with this...never! I know your love is around us all always, but please, especially at this time, continue to send your love our way and bless us all. We need it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you with all my heart, as high as the sky and as wide as the ocean!
November 9, 2007
So, I missed your mass last night. I wish I could've been there. But I know you were with me last night. Thank you. Be with us tomorrow (me and Lexi). We need you to do some tricks!!
It's getting closer and closer to a year without you. Even though we survived it, we're hurting more and more as the days past. With Thanksgiving coming up, I don't even want to do it. Last year, I sat next to you and you brought out DaDa's JV ring that you just got cleaned and a few other pieces of your jewelry. Makes me wonder if it was a coincidence or a sign. And even though mommy wasn't there, it was the best Thanksgiving I'd ever had! Not to mention the last one I'd spend with you. I love you more than anything. I miss you more and more each day. I can't do this anymore. I'll talk to you soon!
Sending Love bites,
Janine xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo...
Janine
October 25, 2007
It's all coming out now!! I can't take it anymore. I miss you so much. I was sitting here watching T.V. and I just started crying. I can't stop. Why can't you come home?? Why can't you just come home for a little bit longer? It's a surprise to me that tomorrow will be exactly 10 months without you. 10 months! How? WHy? So much has happened in that time that you needed to be here for. And some things that never would have happened if you were. Everything is falling a part. And now I truly truly believe that you were the glue that held us together. And now it's all wrong!! You missed so much. Good and bad. My house, Me and Joey getting engaged, Christy's life, Denise life, Binky and the babies. You're missing them getting big. And frankly so am I. I hate that. I miss my family.
I need you to be by mommy. I know you already are. She sees you all the time, but really. I can't lose her too.
MomMom, I need you! I need to know you're okay. I need to know that you know that I love you. I need you to know that I am always thinking of you. Every day. I talk to you all the time. I can't do this anymore. I'm losing my mind. I love you and miss you so much!!
I'll talk to you soon.
Sending Love Bites.
Love, Me
Daddy, You're with me every day.
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX0
October 10, 2007
Mom Mom, I've had a bad couple of days. I didn't know that movie I watched the other day would be so upsetting. Not that I need a movie to remind me of you, but it didn't help matters, with the holidays quickly approaching and all.
The Halloween decorations are not right and I tried to make them right and just broke down. You loved shopping with me for all the gadgets and lights and whatever junk we could find. Then we would get yelled at! haha. I just am hurting so bad. Nothing can take this pain away...no drug, no drink, nothing. I grew cold and numb and I am so very afraid this feeling will never ever go away. I'm forever changed. Where did I go? I am so lost.
The babies are getting so big! Oh, how you would love them! They are hysterical, talking more and more every time I see them. I know that your here with them. They wave to you and Lukey when we pass the cemetery. They remember what we brought. Aidan just pointed to you in a picture the other day. They will always remember you, I will make sure of that. It's not the same. I need you here. Somehow the world was better and I felt so protected. I guess we all feel that way. It was a dark, dark day when you went away. I just still can't really fathom all of this. Please continue to watch over me and give me the strength I need to overcome this grief. Everything I do, I think of you. There is never a day that passes that you are not thought about. I love you with all my heart.
October 1, 2007
It's getting closer and closer to the day you were suddenly taken from us. I can't believe it's almost been a year!It doesn't feel like it. I guess that's because I spent most of it in shock! It still hurts so badly. It will never go away. The yearning for you will never end. I just can't believe your never coming home again, and that I will never see you or hear your voice. It sounds crazy, but it's true:( Things have changed and it's not the same since you left. Please continue to watch over all of us. We need you more then ever now. I don't know how I'm going to make it the next couple of months. This is so difficult. God grant me the serenity!
Maryann Siefert
August 21, 2007
Mom, Thank you!! I feel you with me and I hope you are guiding me to do the right thing. I can't believe I really feel you in me. Lexi smelled you last night and I knew you were hear helping me through this. Keep up the good work. I am still mad at you but I love and miss you so very much.
Love to Daddy too!!
Love your loving daughter,
Maryann
August 20, 2007
O.k. Dee! Not funny at all...I don't understand what you want me to do. Please be more clear without scaring me! You made it very clear you were here tonight. Tell me what you want.
Maryann Siefert
August 13, 2007
Mom, We really need you now! Please guide us into doing what you would have wanted. We are hurting all over again. It's not good.
Love you and Daddy so very much,
Maryann
August 7, 2007
Mom mom, please come home. Why why why do I still think your coming home? Why can't I accept this? When am I going to? Will I ever or will I just be numb for the rest of my life? I can't even begin to explain what I feel. All I know is that I miss you so very much. It honestly gets harder. My mind has just not accepted that your gone! I'm scared of that. What is happening to me? Am I losing my mind? What a loss we all suffered. I have not seen Maureen, but will look for her and bring her to Mary's house. We need to hear some stories! I love you w/ all my heart and think of you all day, every day. I can't do anything without being reminded of you. Your in my heart and thoughts forever. Sending butterfly kisses and love bites...
Maryann Siefert
July 28, 2007
Mom, I'm sorry. I miss you more and more each day. I wish you could come back and make everything alright again. Please help us all/
We need you NOW!!!
I love you and miss you and Dad so very much
July 27, 2007
Mommom, I need you with me right now.
July 13, 2007
She looks at the world through experienced eyes, and with wisdom she's gained through the years.
She helps you to see just how good life can be. She's there through your smiles and your tears.
She offers completely her help and support in everything you try to do. She's willing to share, to listen, to care.
She's never too busy for you. She enriches the lives of all those who know her. The kindness she shows has no end.
Her warm, gentle touch means so very much. She's my MOM MOM, my special friend.
I miss you terribly. I take it day by day, some are harder then others, but you never leave my thoughts.
I just don't understand why this happened? What went wrong? I have to know. You weren't ready to leave Mom Mom. I am waiting for you to come home. You weren't ready, we all need you. We miss you. Bel was looking for you the other day, peeking in your room calling out your name. She thought you were in your bathroom or the closet. Bink and I had to tell her you were sleepy. She just looked at us. She is too young to fully understand, but her and Aidan remember you and always will. I will make sure of that. I am not doing well accepting this Dee! I just cannot fathom it, I can't believe your gone and that I am never going to see you again. These months have gone by so fast. I stop and look around and just wonder where time has gone. You were called almost seven months ago! I love you with all my heart, as high as the sky and as wide as the ocean.
Maryann Siefert
July 4, 2007
Ok Mommy,. JANINE'S ENGAGED!!!!!!
Love, Maryann
Kisses for Daddy!!!
July 3, 2007
I'M ENGAGED!!! You would be so proud and excited. And it happened on one of your favorite holidays! I love you both so much and I thought of the two of you as soon as it happened!!!
Love bites
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.....
July 2, 2007
You would have called me today. And daddy would have sung to me!
I love you both.
love bites XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
June 28, 2007
Mom Mom, I can't believe it's been six months since you left us. Time is flying by, this is by far the fastest year ever! But it's not getting any easier. I still find myself almost saying that I can't wait to tell you a story, or asking where you are! We know you were with the twins on their second birthday. Aidan seen you! He says "Mom Mom sleepy!"
Oh I know your with them! How big are they?! Every week they are saying more and more. Anabel told me I was going "To the moon" the other day. It's funny b/c I find myself saying things only you would say. Sometimes thoughts pop into my head that I haven't thought about in years...something I see might remind me of you or just the silliest little things might bring a memory back. It's eery. I know it's you. I miss you terribly. Some days are harder then others, but the pain and emptiness are always there. I still don't accept what happened. I don't really know if I ever will Dee!I will talk to you later. Please be with my angel this week (and me). My baby will be four. Sending butterfly kisses and love bites. xoxoxoxo
June 12, 2007
Well, we got our new house! It's exciting but still very sad because you won't ever get to see it. Tom and Aunt Jackie have been over a few times already and the other night I almost asked where you were...then I remembered. I've been going through a lot of emotions lately and stressful periods. Please be with me during them, I know you already are or else I'd have broken already. I don't know what else to say except I miss you terribly. I love you, mommy.
Love Bites
Janine
xoxo
p.s.- please watch over Kristin, she was there a lot for me when you died and the past fews months, try to give her the strength to heal mentally and physically. I love you.
June 10, 2007
It's not getting any easier! Will it ever? I don't think so. I find myself still so very numb and without emotion. I received your other sign through the other psychic. A stranger,coming up to me and telling me not to worry, don't look back, it's all going to be alright. I'll be fine. She doesn't know me! She doesn't know what I have been through and am still going through. My mind is so warped right now, I don't know what I'm doing half the time! I just take it day by day. It's all I can do. Anyway, thank you for the sign b/c it did make me think...long and hard. I will be o.k. somehow, someway, someday.
May 15, 2007
I can't take it anymore! I'm falling apart. It's awful without you around. I cry everyday. I can't call you anymore, come to see you, hug you, sit on your lap, kiss you, smell you, hold your hand...it's not fair!! I need you here.
Denise Cancellarich
May 9, 2007
Alexis Victoria Gabrielle Dolores Siefert was confirmed on Monday. I know Dolores will not be written in the records but I presented her as Gabrielle Dorlores therefore that is what she was confirmed as. I know you were there, I swore I heard your voice at one point in the back of the church. How I wish I really did. Janine bought me, mommy and Lexi beautiful lockets with you and Dada inside of them, now I always have you right by my heart. I love and miss you so much. Love, Denise
Maryann Siefert
May 7, 2007
My Dearest Mom, Today 5-7-07 the day you brought me into this world my baby your last grandchild is making her Confirmation. Mom you were in the room when Lexi came into this world and when she took her first breath, when she was Christened, and Her first Holy Comunion, and I can't believe you are not going to be here today for her Confirmation. I can't imagin your not going to be there today. How will I get through this today. I want you here! With me and Lexi. Mommy you are missing so much. Janine just bought her first house and you would love it. You were also there when Janine took her first breath. I remember telling you to come with me in the delivery room but don't look at me. Stay up at my head. Then the doctor said grandmom look its got big dipples before we knew what she was. Just her head was out and you held her for 45 minutes in you loving arms. You finally said to the nurse to take her so you could call everyone to tell them it was a girl!! How happy you were. You were there for all three of my Jewels but I let you in on the most special day to share with you the joy of seeing two of the most blessed days of my life to see your daughter give birth to two of my Jewels. The only reason I didn't let anyone in for Denise is because I was so scared that she might be well.. never mind. She was perfect and I know if she wasn't you would have made me feel like she was. You nursed me to health for three long months to get ready to have her. Remember when I was in the back bedroom and you gave me a bell if I needed anything? I had to stay in bed to keep her alive. YOU WERE THERE! Mommy I want you now. I can't get through this day PLEASE HELP ME!!! Lexi is taking Dads middle name for Confirmation but they would not let her take your name too. So when Denise presents her to the Bishop She is going to I present this candidate Gabrielle Dolores to you for Confirmation. I love you and miss you more than you could ever imagin. Please kiss my daddy's sweet cheek and rub his nose for me. I LOVE YOU Mom.
Your loving daughter,
Maryann
May 3, 2007
I asked you for a sign and got it...two days in a row! Thank you. I know your here and I don't want you hurting. I talked to Maureen a few weeks ago. I knew what you were saying, but I can't! Mom Mom tell me this is a joke, please! I feel like I'm living in a nightmare that keeps getting worse and worse. I am totally out of shock and just can't seem to believe it's real...still. It's worse now then ever. You think of things more clearly for some reason and before, somehow I could put it all out of my mind. I could turn it off and now I can't. I can't stop thinking about how we watched you suffering on Christmas, never ever thinking that would be the last time we would see you. I'm sorry that I didn't get you out of there. They had no idea what was going on. You were the only person who was in discomfort on that entire floor! You better believe we had questions and wanted them answered and wanted you feeling better. You did. In a matter of hours you were back to your old self and talking! So we thought...right! We leave on Christmas night and promised we wouldn't celebrate until you came home. You said o.k. You didn't want to miss the twins opening their big presents. We promised we would wait! I can't help but think that if only I would have never started that job I could have taken off and been there on Tuesday. I would have been there in the morning, maybe I could have saved you. Maybe the answers could be more clear. We would have known what was unfolding, what was happening. Instead, we were at school, work, or at home anticipating our next visit w/ you. I was going to come up the hospital that night after work. I will never ever forget that phone call...ever! I went into complete shock and just sat there at my desk. It was not real to me. It couldn't be. You? Gone? No way! Your a fighter Mom Mom, why? Your time was not up, it's just not fair. What were your thoughts that day? We know you were scared and that doesn't sit well with me at all. What were you thinking as they were preparing you for surgery? You had the nurse stay w/ you b/f hand b/c you were so scared. Did you ask for us? Did they tell you we were coming? Did you feel the presence of your family there? Did you know that Binky was bringing Belly up to see you to make you feel better? Is this the way you wanted it? I heard echos of I'm so sorry for your loss, I'm so sorry. All I hear is that man from the emergency dept. and that tech that escorted me down the hall. I just remember feeling like I was walking on a treadmill and seeing bright lights and just feeling numb. I was in total disbelief! I had no idea you were in that room. I was not thinking clearly when I seen no one until the door opened. I was waiting for you to jump up and scream at us! I kept my composure b/c of Anabel being there. She had no idea what was going on. For the first time in my life, I didn't know how to act, feel, think. I couldn't feel anything. I just tried to hold it together for everyone as best I could. It's hard Mom Mom, it's really really hard. You were so much a part of my life and I am waiting for you to come home. The flowers need to be planted! You have to start shopping for the twins second b-day! You have to see G's house! I can't deal with this. I am totally having a mental breakdown...slowly, but it's happening. I need you. Please be by my side and know that you can tell me certain things through Maureen. You will not ruin my good time! What is more important to me? I love you with all my heart.
April 28, 2007
Mom Mom, it's been hitting me and hitting me HARD. I catch myself just crying throughout the day...out of nowhere. You weren't supposed to go like that! I wish I didn't have work that morning b/c you and I both know I would've been at the hospital early to see you. I didn't like you being there alone. I didn't want to leave you on Christmas Eve to watch Ralphie alone.
Please come back...please. You need to see my new house. You need to be there to stalk it and help me plant flowers. You need to just be here! It's not fair that you're never going to walk through my front door, you're never going to see me get married, you'll never hold my children. I find it harder and harder to go to your house, especially with the babies there. Christy and I asked Aidan yesterday where you were and he said you were "seepin". They are talking up a storm. You would have them cursing by now. They're getting so big. Sisters laugh is so funny and so real. It's great, and you're missing it. that's why you need to come back.
I love you so much.
I'm going to come and see you and Daddy tomorrow.
Love Bites
Janine xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxox
April 28, 2007
Two days ago it was four months! Where has the time gone? It still is a little foggy, but the fog is slowly lifting. It seems like you were here only yesterday. You were in my dream last night and then vanished! I woke up crying and confused. Was this nightmare really happening, or was it all a dream? Are you downstairs? Are you really telling us all stories about how this was all a joke?
Reality bites! It's getting harder and harder. I am struggling bad with all of this. Some days I really don't know how I get out of bed. Sounds crazy to some. I feel sorry for those people who would never understand our loss. They do to a degree, but they never will fully understand. They weren't blessed with a person like you, Mom Mom. You were like a second mother to all of us...our grandmama!You were good to every single one of us and your presence is sorely missed.
It hurts so much not being able to laugh w/ you and tell you my stories from work or from my crazy life! I just look around this house and think, how did this happen? What went wrong? Patients come into my office and they are in their early, mid, late 80's, some even in their 90's. Is this fair? Why were you chosen? You weren't done! You need to see the twins grow up, you need to see my children, maybe a wedding someday...haha, NeNe's children, G's children and new house. Little Christy driving...haha! Proms, graduations, celebrations! It's just not the same! I still think your coming back. I have to go...I'll ttyl
Melissa Vernacchio
April 26, 2007
Heey Mom-mom. i miss you so much. everythings so weird now. we always say are we going up to mom-mom v's this weekend to visit her and the family, but now i dont really know wat to call it. we still call it your house, but its jus so weird. going there without you being there wen we walk through the door. i havent been up there much since it happened. in fact i only been up there either once or twice without you there. its soo much different. i dont like going up there cause i cant really explain why. i guess im just like dad, i dont feeel right going up there. i jus dont like to deal with it i guess. the worst part about this whole thing besides the fact that you died at a young age and everything.. is that we were supposed to see you on christmas, but you were in the hospital and mom said shes gonna bring us up wen your outta the hospital and feeling better. but you never made it out, you passed away the next day. and before that i havent seen you for a good couple of weeks. i never got to say goodbye. and the viewing was the last place i was ever going to see you on earth again. it was horrible looking at my mom-mom in a casket wen she was still young, looking like she was just sleeping. these past couple of years we been loosing so much family, and it makes me regret it so much that we didnt go up there more and visit you. it feels like your still there, like none of this ever happened. but then everytime i look at your picture, tears comee streaming down my face instantly because i think about wat happened.. how i never got to see you before. =[. i jus hope your watching over us, and protecting us. and i hope that you and dada were reunited and happy. also i hope your with aunt cathy and uncle jimmy. its not fair at all, you should all be alive right now. i never got to fully meet dada because i was so young, but i have an image of him in my head of him on his rockingchair. its been with me for the longest time, and it'll never go away. and that image of aunt cathy wen she was dying is in my head. its the only image i can remember her by because i never really rememberd her face wen i saw her before. also uncle jimmy, he was a great person. i really miss him too, i remember going to his houses for those partiess and everything and him being there soo happy looking. and you, mom-mom, i have sosososo many images of you in my head. always being soo happy, soo crazy. i miss it. as sad as i am to see you not here anymore there is one ounce of happiness in my heart that your with your husband and aunt cathy and uncle jimmy again. tell them i said hii and that i misss them.
i miss you mom-mom and i love youu soo mucch, i cant wait too see you all again <3
loveee,
Melissa <333
April 9, 2007
Oh Mom Mom! What a day it was yesterday. It was one tough day, I'll tell ya! That was the hardest dinner I had to ever get through. That was one of the toughest days in my life, really. It was painful. It was our first holiday without you. It just wasn't the same, it never will be. You weren't there, you are really gone. Wow! Did that hit home yesterday. There was an empty chair to remind us. There was silence. There used to be laughter and yelling and shouting! That room used to be full of generations telling stories and now an eery silence fills the air. We try, oh Mom Mom we all try. We tried to carry on the traditions we all remember so well. I couldn't even dye the eggs right. I'm glad it's over. I was so sad. I was still sad today. I just can't believe it...still! I don't know if I ever will. It's real now and I'm scared. Please continue to be with me, I need you always. I miss you more then you will ever know. I am hurting so badly. It's so painful Mom Mom. Please stay with me. How I wish you were here! How we all wish you were here! Good night. Sending love bites...
Janine
April 8, 2007
This is going to be strange.
Love bites!
April 1, 2007
It's April Fool's Day and all I keep thinking is that you are going to walk through that door today and tell us it's all not real. This hell we have been living in the past three months is over and it was all a cruel joke! How I wish...I was getting dressed for work the other day and just glanced over on my shelf in the closet and there was a card from you. It was just sitting there, the envelope all covered with stickers and smiley faces. It was sticking out, angled underneath of a pair of pants. I didn't place it there. I have all my cards in bags or boxes. I don't know what made me look over, but I wasn't afraid. I guess it was a little symbol that you are still here with us. I know that you are, I feel you. I just want to see your face and talk to you. It's so quiet. I can't stand the silence. I am just lost. Please continue to watch over me. I need you now more then ever Mom Mom. You know why. Oh, these babies are so darn cute! I know you are around them, I know you see what they are doing. We would love for you to be here to share in the joy with us though. They are hysterical to watch these days. They are talking so much. Mom had just put them down for a nap yesterday when I came in. Bo Bo was sleeping, so I took Bel out of her bed b/c when she seen me peeking @ her, she was trying to climb out! I picked her up and we were chilling on the couch eating french fries. Oh, it was hysterical. The circus is coming to town in a few weeks, I can't wait to take them. I think they will enjoy it! They have no choice w/ me right? Well, I am off to work. I'll ttyl. Miss you, love you and longing for you always.
March 31, 2007
MomMom, I'm scared. Easter is next Sunday. It will officially be the first holiday without you.I'm nervous for everyone. Be with us, mommy.
Love you and daddy.
Love bites
janine
March 19, 2007
I still think she's coming home. I still can't believe it. What is wrong with me? I clearly seen her laying there. I felt helpless, there was nothing I could do. I would have given my life for her. Not one of us could do anything. We would have gone to the ends of the earth to keep her here. We weren't ready to give her up. Are we selfish for thinking that? I had 34 incredible years with her. I can't cry, I feel nothing. I am numb. I don't understand this kind of grief. Am I still in shock? Am I going in and out of shock? What is going on? I cried once. I had one breakdown. I teared up a few times. I think of her every day. I think of her all day. I still think she's coming home. I don't know where I think she is, but in my mind, she's coming home again. I can't accept the fact that she is gone. Will I ever? Life without her is just not the same. Where is she? What is she doing? I see her in my dreams, I feel her and am not afraid. I watch tapes to hear her voice and it still doesn't effect me. I just shake my head in disbelief. No! She's not gone, it's just not possible. She has to be here to support me in everything I do, just like she always did. There wasn't a time in my life when she wasn't around or didn't help me with whatever it is I needed. She was always there to listen, to talk to, to give out advice, to laugh with, to love. Maybe I am somehow controlling my emotions and not letting myself feel the pain and truly grieve. Perhaps I'm afraid of totally losing it. This is enough to drive me to that point. Just when you think life has thrown all the curve balls at you that you can take...suprise! surprise! Always something waiting around the corner. It cuts a little deeper and hurts a little more each time, but somehow you pick up the pieces and move along. You are definetely stronger. I must be strong. I am stronger then I thought. I keep busy. I don't know, I just don't have answers. Only the man upstairs knows the answers. God grant me the serenity.
Janine
March 19, 2007
Mom Mom. Did you climb in my bed this morning? I think you did. You knew I was sad and I felt you climb into the bed and when my alarm went off I felt you climb back out. Was it you? What should I do? See, if you were here you'd have an answer for me. You would and I know it. And I think I know what you would say too. Please be with me Mom Mom. Please let all of this work out somehow. I love you.
Give Daddy kisses.(on the nose)
Miss you both like you never could imagine.
Sending love bites!!
Love,
Jeanie Me
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Janine
March 18, 2007
All i could think of yesterday was you. I think of you everyday,but yesterday there was so many things that reminded me of you. You would've had your ham and cabbage made and would've called me up to see if I wanted some. Almost all day I heard "When Irish Eyes are Smiling". It was tough to get through. I miss you so much and it's starting to sink in now that you're not here anymore. I love you, my Mom Mom. Give Daddy kisses.
Love Bites
Janine xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo...
Denise Cancellarich
March 15, 2007
I was very emotional last night after finding all of those cards from you. I can't believe I forgot that you sent me a card from "Big E" one year. I miss you so much, more and more everyday, I thought it is supposed to get better. I still say on Sunday's that I am going to Mommom's house, it will never be anything but. I was proud of myself Monday, I thought I was going to fall to pieces when I walked into Riddle but I did good. I guess because I wasn't anywhere near the wing you were in. I just thought it would be hard because that was the last place I ever saw you. I am thankful that I got to tell you I love and kiss you before I left Christmas night. Just know that I love and miss you more then words can express. Give Dada kisses and hugs too.
Love you, Denise xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Janine
February 26, 2007
I didn't think I'd smile today, Mom Mom. This is so hard. Thank you so much for the sign. It's such a relief. I opened my drawer to get a shirt out for work (that I just put away Saturday night) and right on top of it was a Valentine's Day card from you from last year! I didn't think I had it. It says "Dear Janine, well it's about time for me to write you a note because you are my sweetface darling and I love you a lot. Luv Me." And it has 4 lipstick kisses from you!! Mom mom you made my day! Thank you!
I love you much!
Sending love bites!
Love, Janine
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo..
February 22, 2007
Thank you for the songs today. They came at a time when you were on my mind. You are on my mind several times during the day of course, but especially at that moment today. I am going to be fine Mom Mom, you can count on that. If I can make it through this, I can make it through anything! Getting no Valentine's card was very strange. No parading around on Mardi Gras (Fat Tuesday), but the twins enjoyed Tuesday! Ha Ha! You would have loved it. You would totally dig Idol this year. All this Anna Nicole drama would have had you glued to the t.v. 24/7. I can't believe two months have gone by. It seems like yesterday you were here and gone the next day. You weren't done here! You should have had many more years Mom Mom. I just can't fathom that you are never going to see my children. I trust that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but also believe that part of you turns hard. Cold too! No emotions, maybe it's temporary. I don't know. Everytime there is tragedy, I just shut down and am more numb. It's part of life I know, and no one ever said it was fair. Please watch over all of us as you always did here. I miss you, I miss our conversations and our laughs. I miss everything about you. It's so hard coming home. I HAVE to keep busy or I am going to snap! I try, I really do. I am trying to keep my cool. We are continuing the fight for you as you know. We'll never give up until we have strong answers and facts. I can assure you of that. Thank you for all the signs and clues you are giving us. We'll do it Dee! Talk to you later. Love and miss you more and more every day.
February 20, 2007
Hi Mom Mom! Sorry I haven't been on here in a few days. I just can't handle it anymore. It's just not acceptable at all to me. I am experiencing the most difficult days in my life. I don't know whether I'm coming or going. I feel like a zombie! I am totally out of that "fog" stage and reality is HERE. I am so numb and have no feelings. I want nothing or no one. I just am here. Please continue to watch over all of us. Is it going to get easier? I wait for you to get up at noon, and I wait for you to be snacking at midnight and I wait for you to be there when I come home. You would absolutely be loving these babies these days. Oh, are they funny! They are talking up a storm and just interacting w/ each other. It's so cute. I know your here and see them. I am losing my patience w/ everyone. I am turning into a monster and have to calm down. I have so much hurt and anger inside. I pray, oh how I pray so hard every day and night. My favorite, as everyone knows...God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Amen.
Janine
February 13, 2007
Mom Mom, you were in my dream last night. I know it wasn't you coming to me but it was so good to share that experience with you, it felt so real. But I wish you could actually be here to witness it and share it with me when it happens. And, was that a hint in there?
I'm on my way to work now in the snow.
I Love You Mom Mom and DaDa.
p.s. Be with Ne Ne tomorrow, she's really going to need some strength.
Love Bites,
Janine xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
February 11, 2007
Mom Mom, I'm sorry I haven't been on here in a few days. It's really nuts now! I had a meltdown last week and it's getting extremely diffucult. I am trying my best to take it day by day. Binky told us about the babies at bath time on Wednesday night!! That was awesome. Thank you for sending the people to me this week. Yes, I'm getting the messages! I will never give up on the fight for you and the answers. I know you know that! I love you with all my heart and miss you terribly every passing minute of every day! Sending love bites and butterfly kisses. Remember you used to call me your #1 (b/c I was your first grandchild), well you always were and always will be my #1.
Brighter days await you even though things seem so grim. Right now there's no solution for the situation that your in. The best of friends can fail you, when your in dire need. And when times are bad and your alone, there very bad indeed. But take heart and hear my words and try not to cry. As a thunderstorm may linger, it surely passes by. The love you've shown to others and the goodness that you share, will surely all come back to you, of that I am aware.
Love, Christy Marie xoxoxoxo
Janine
February 8, 2007
Well, it's been a week since I have written and I don't have much time right now to talk to you. I'm going for my final root canal in a few minutes.
I love you and miss you so much, it's starting to sink in now and it stinks. I wish I could go back to just thinking you're still here. Or even just you still actually being here. I can't do this right now.
I love you and daddy too.
Sending love bites.
Love, one of your Sweet Faces
xoxoxoxoxoxo.....
Janine
February 1, 2007
Mom Mom, I can't stop thinking about you. It's so hard and it's starting to hit me now. I tried going to sleep last night but every time I closed my eyes I saw you and I'd cry. I keep replaying that day in my head and it's almost like a dream. Like it didn't happen. I'm thankful that I was there and not still at work b/c I never would have made it to see you. And then I keep thinking about Binky, Ne Ne, and Christy getting the phone calls and how that must have been for them, to hear it over the phone. No one ever thought that this procedure would have had the result it did. Not one of us. So I can just imagine their reactions. I sure remember mine. I felt like someone punched me in the stomach and I remember hitting the floor yelling your name.
Why? Why Mom Mom? I need you here. You don't understand. It's time to come home. It's so empty without you. You would've loved Idol this season. It's a good one. Last night I was watching and imagining your reactions to some of them.
It's not fair, Lady. You need to be here. So much is going to happen and you're not going to be with us. Why did you have to go? Why did you give up? Did you know that we were with you? Did you know that we were at the hospital? And that we were all with you, hugging you, and kissing you, and I was holding your hand. Aunt Jackie put your kitty cat socks on you. Binky, Bel, Christy and Ne Ne came too. We need you. You're our Mom Mom. It's never going to be the same without you. Never. I want to feel you. Come to me in my dreams, I want to see you and know that you're with me.
I love you so much.
Daddy, you take care of each other, okay? I love you and miss you more than you could imagine.
Sending you Love Bites!
Love, Doll Baby xoxoxoxoxoxo
January 31, 2007
Mom Mom, you did it again! One of my patients today lives in Wildwood Crest and brought some newspapers from the shore. Which one did I take home? The Sun of course. This is the one you would pick me up every time you were there visiting Aunt Cathy. This is why it was sent to me today...
Words written by others can hit so close to home, that I know I do not suffer alone. When you lose a loved one, the only forgiving sense that prevails through all of the others is shock. Shock is your body's way of softening the blow somewhat, and it is vague and temporary at best. The dreamlike, numb, robotic manner which now sustains you also keeps you from going over the edge. Then that fog lifts, the dream is over, and you are in a full blown nightmare. Reality can be harsh, but it is necessary. It forces you to make choices. One would be to climb into the Grand Canyon of grief, that without doubt will never allow you an easy escape. The other is to face that reality and embrace it; step up and contend with your new destiny. Believe me, the former sounds as easy as closing your eyes for a long nap, but it's not. Denial and regret will always be laying right beside you. So you step up, and continue to do so every single day for the rest of your life. Some days may seem unbearable; the suffocating feeling of loss can consume you, but at the end of that day, you have become stronger. This is how it will be, one day at a time, for a long time, and soon it gets easier. It's not that you're hurting any less, it's that you now have the fortitude to confront and cope with it. Your life as you knew it is now irrevocably changed forever.
There are many stages in the grieving process, and when people are given the choice of fight or flight, they will react in different ways; attack, fleeing, denial, confusion, analysis, action, appeasement, and anguish. Remember the Grand Canyon of grief that I had referred to? Our family is lucky enough to have the strength to sidestep it, and climb, as we continue to do so, one step at a time, every day.
Mom Mom's spirit is in all of us and she will live within each and every one of us forever. We will find a way to bring happiness and smiles to others in her name. We will find a way to keep something so unspeakable, so memorable. Her memory will ALWAYS be alive. She lives within our hearts. She is still here with us. I love you Mom Mom. Please keep us strong. Everyday is a new challenge. Day by day...
Love Always, Chrisy Marie xoxo
January 30, 2007
Since Heaven has become your home
I sometimes feel I'm so alone;
and though we now are far apart
you hold a big piece of my heart.
I never knew how much I'd grieve
when it was time for you to leave;
or just how much my heart would ache
from that one fragment you would take.
God lets this tender hole remain
reminding me we'll meet again;
and one day all the pain will cease
when He restores the missing piece.
He'll turn to joy my every tear
and when I wear this necklace near
it will become my simple way
to treasure our Reunion Day.
Love Bites xoxoxoxoxo
January 29, 2007
When I left this world without you
I know it made you blue.
Your tears fell so freely.
I watched; I know this is true.
While you were sleeping,
Days after I passed away,
While all was silent within me.
I saw you kneel to pray.
From this wonderful place called heaven
Where all my pain is gone,
I send a gentle breeze to whisper,
"My loved ones, please go on"
The peace that I have found here
Goes far beyond compare
No rain, no clouds, no suffering--
Just LOVE from everywhere.
You need not be troubled
Just stay close to GOD in prayer
Someday we'll be reunited
My love, HIS love surrounds you always, EVERYWHERE!
I love you Mom Mom and miss you terribly. I can't say it enough how tough it's getting. It's really hitting home now. We all need all the love and support we can get, especially right now. I can't come to terms that your gone. As people say, sorry for your loss...what loss? I go blank, I stare and just can't believe what I'm hearing! My Mom Mom...gone? No way! She's too head strong to give in to anything. We read the papers, we know you were in distress. I hope you know we knew what was going on and I hope you know the family was there. Maybe they were lost on purpose, maybe if they were ten minutes sooner they could have seen you going into the room. Maybe you wanted it this way. All I know is that you wanted your mask for your headache. I left a note for Mom to take it to you the next morning. I was going to work and would see you that night. Little did I know I would get that dreaded phone call. WHAT? IMPOSSIBLE! I just couldn't believe it. I don't remember how I drove to the hospital, all I know is that when I saw you laying there, I just couldn't believe my eyes. It was so not real. You were right in front of me and I couldn't do a thing to save you. You were already gone. I kept my composure b/c Bel was there. I didn't want her to be scared. I could have lost it, but I didn't. I guess maybe part of it was b/c I didn't believe it. I was in total shock! You were the strongest woman I ever knew. Tough, but a heart of gold. You were one of a kind! I miss our chats, I miss our midnight snacking. I miss waking up to the sounds of the organ playing in the wee hours of the morning or hearing your voice through the floor while getting your snack and watching t.v. in the kitchen. I miss the yelling and screaming...haha! Tom is like a lost little boy. There is nothing but silence in this house. It's cold, so very cold and lonely without you. This is YOUR house, it will always be. My phone still has your name registered on it. It's sad when I see it light up and I know it's not you calling. I'm trying Mom Mom, I am. You told me it would be o.k. I don't know what to believe in anymore. This is strange. I have nothing, no one. If it weren't for these babies, I don't know how we would be doing it. They keep us strong. Maybe that was God's plan. I know your enjoying all your little angels up there w/ you. Please send us a sign that your o.k. I know that you are from Maureen, but I have not seen her. Need I remind you not to scare me?! Just give a sign...btw, I still can't find that pin that you borrowed when you had your test done. You said I needed to find it b/c it got you through the one test you had done. Please help me find that too! I love you with all my heart. Sending you love bites and butterfly kisses...xoxoxoxo
TT
CHRISTY MARIE XOXO
January 29, 2007
Do not stand at my grave and weep: I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamonds in the snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush, I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight,
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I AM NOT THERE, I DID NOT DIE.
Denise Cancellarich
January 29, 2007
It is supposed to be getting easier so why is it getting harder. It feels like everyday it is becoming more and more real and as it is sinking in it is hurting more and more. It is all just a blur still. I still feel like I am going to walk into your house and you are going to be sitting on the couch. Oh how I wish it could happen. It wasn't your time, you should still be here. It's not fair! I miss you more then words can express everyday. I love you and Dada and miss you both so much. Please help us heal. Love, NeNe xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
January 26, 2007
I hear you G! You didn't have to live here to miss her so much. Even though my life and habits have changed and there is a void in this house, even if I didn't live here, it would still be so very painful.
Even when I didn't live here, I saw her all the time, she was always here for us. It just hurts so badly I know. The pain is just unbearable. Everything reminds you of her. EVERYTHING!! It just gets harder and harder.
Oh, she sent me a rep. alright! There was a little man standing in the doorway to my office building today...o.k. how funny was that?! I was cracking up. Although there is this rep who passes by once and awhile going to the office down the hall...he's some eye candy! haha.
She said I was going to meet a rep. We just found some pics that she wrote on. One was of you and me in the pool and it says sweet faces! haha.
Another was you, Ne, Bink and me. It said bride-to-be, sweet faces, and mommy-to-be. How funny is she?! I am thinking that she is coming home again, it's just not good I know.
I go in and out of consciousness, it's what it feels like. I have an empty, numb feeling inside. It's amazing how you do what you have to do and don't remember it. Your sad and upset and all cried out, and you carry on and your strong.
A while later, you feel like it was a dream, that it's so not real. It hurts more and more to think about it. It just can't be! I'm sorry, it just can't. This was not supposed to happen. We still had many years w/ her. She wasn't ready. They did it! They had no idea what they were doing! I have to go. TTYL
Janine
January 24, 2007
Hi Mom Mom, it gets harder everyday. I was thinking the other day and I think I know why it hasn't really hit me but it seems to have hit everyone else. I didn't see you everyday like Aunt Jackie, Tom, or Christy. I didn't get to wake up and see you, or have you waiting up for me to get home, or worry about where I was all night, or eat dinner with you every night, or watch T.V with you. But they did. And I know how empty that house seems now to everyone, not just them. I mean, think about it, there were 4 people in that house, now only 3, but it's emptier than just having 1 person gone from it. I'm rambling I know. But, I want to call you all the time. Everytime my phone rings now and "Mom Mom" comes up I get excited then I get upset b/c it's not you on the other end. It's not you calling me! And I can't change it. It will always be "Mom Mom", I will always say "I'm going over Mom Mom's house." That's all I know. It used to be "Mom Mom and DaDa's" then DaDa was taken away. I can't take you away too! This isn't fair! I was sick today..where was your soup?? You should've been in your kitchen making it for me to feel better. I cried all day b/c I wanted your soup, or you call me to see if I was okay. Be with me tomorrow Mom Mom. They are pulling another tooth. I asked them if they can just take them all out and give me dentures like you and mommy. If I did I would take them out like you did with the babies and us when we were little. You were so funny. I'll never forget at Binky's wedding when you took them out and Joey's face was so horrifying! He didn't know what to do! I remember asking him what was wrong and he replied "Your grandmom just took out her teeth". Then mommy, cousin Joey...it was good! I'll miss that! I hear songs all the time that remind me of you. I try not to listen to B101 anymore b/c the last time I did I was on my way to the hospital to see you and "Tears in heaven" was playing on the radio. Then at work a few weeks ago Kristin turned on the radio and "Tears in Heaven" was playing again. I hate this. Come back, Mommy. Come back and bring Daddy with you. You guys are missing so much! Daddy's missed everything important in our lives and now the both of you are going to miss the important ones in mine! My wedding, my new house, my babies, my life. You are supposed to be there! Don't you know that?
I love you both unconditionally! Please come back!
Sending you love bites!
Love, Janine xoxoxoxoxoxo...
January 22, 2007
Hi Mom Mom. I'm sure you are fuming about the circumstances w/ my old employer! I know you are! You'll handle it, I'm sure of it! Ha Ha!Thank you for the song, yet again and the little sign at work--mom witnessed it. We know your here. I love you with all my heart.
I am not doing so well these days. I'm hurting bad. It just seems to be getting worse. It's sinking in that you are not coming home and it's killing me. I just wanted to share this poem with you.
Go ahead and mention my Mom Mom
The one that passed you know.
Don't worry about making me cry
I'm always crying inside.
Help me heal by releasing the tears that I try to hide.
I'm hurt when you keep silent pretending it doesn't exist.
I'd rather you mention my Mom Mom knowing that she is sorely missed.
You asked me how I'm doing and I say pretty good or fine. But healing is something on-going.
I feel it will take a lifetime.
You can't stop the rain, but you can hold an umbrella. I hoped you like this one. I know you will! You love the poetry. Please stay with me Mom Mom. I need you more then ever now. Talk to you soon.
Love Always, Christy xoxo
Janine
January 20, 2007
Well, you were definately with us today! My girls are now GRAND CHAMPIONS!!! I'm s o proud of them. I wish you could've seen their uniforms, you would have loved them. All the sequins and shiny bodysuits, they are surely your style! Thank you for being with me. I love you.
Daddy, I prayed to you today, thanks for coming through. I know you'd be proud of me too.
Sending love bites.
Love, Janine xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo..
Janine
January 19, 2007
Mom Mom, I know I haven't written to you in a few days, but it gets to be so hard. Please be with me and Lexi tomorrow. And guide my girls to a 1st place win, they deserve it! Oh, and Lexi's team too, I guess...just kidding Lex. I miss you extremely and love you even more.
Daddy, you are always in my mind.
Love you both.
Sending you love bites.
Love, Janine xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox...
January 19, 2007
I wrote a beautiful poem for you Mom mom and I don't see it on here...I'll try again!
Three weeks ago, no farewells were spoken, no time to say "goodbye". You were gone before we knew it and only God knows why. Our still are aching with sadness and tears flow. It broke our hearts to lose you but you did not go alone. A part of us went with you that day God called you home. Our family chain is broken and nothing seems or ever will be the same. But as God calls us one by one the chain will link again.
It's been three weeks and I cannot go on. I cannot be strong. I think of you and shed many tears. I wonder who will still my fears. All the memories remain inside my heart, my soul...it seems to be torn apart. You told me secrets, I hold so dear, I only wish you would be near. I miss and love you Mom Mom, can't you see? I wish to hold and talk to thee! So many things I could not say, and now you've gone so far away.
You taught me many things and said it would all be o.k. and it's not, it's just not fair. Take my hand and guide me there. Save a place for one day us to share. Death leaves a heartache no one can heal. Love leaves a memory no one can steal.
You were so unexpectedly taken from us. There is not a day that goes by that were not reminded that you're gone. You'll never be forgotten. When you left you took a piece of our hearts. We miss you very much.
If tears could build a stairway, and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.
We knew little that afternoon that God was going to call your name. In life we loved you dearly and in death we do the same. It broke our hearts to lose you, you did not go alone, for part of us went with you, the day God called you home.
You left us peaceful memories, your love is still our guide. And though we cannot see you, we know you are always at our side. Always and Forever in our HEARTS...LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH!
Jackie, Maryann, Gene, Tom, Chalie, Janet, Dee, Christy, Binky, Denise, Gene boy, Jimmy, Janine, Jamie, Joey, Lil' Christy, Melissa, Gina, Lexi, Vincent, Anabel and Aidan, and the little angels that are with you now.
Maryann Siefert
January 17, 2007
Mom, It's me again. Will you please let me see you in my dreams? I want to dream of your face. Did you push me today when I got out of bed? If so please stop! I hurt my head. I guess you were mad that I did nothing yesterday. I wanted to go see the babies but I was stuck to the clock. I Love and miss you so very much. Tell daddy to come to me!!! He never does. I will be okay! Just come to me!! One of you please.
Love your daughter: Maryann
January 17, 2007
Oh Mom Mom, it's getting so hard! Please help me. I can't do it. I really can't! It's starting to hit me and it's not good. It's getting harder every day. I'm starting to lose it. I cannot talk about you as past tense. It is just still so unbelievable to me. You would be sitting waiting for me to come home from the bar and I would tell you all the latest gossip. I came home just now and your not there. It's a dark, lonely house. It kills me to see the babies changing in these past few weeks, you would love it. Just like NeNe said. I can't grasp that I'm never ever going to see you again. It's so surreal to me. This is by far the toughest thing I had to go through! I think of you all day every day. I can't see it getting any easier. I won't believe it. I can't visit the cemetery anymore b/c I don't believe you are there. It's all like some bad dream. I went through the motions and now reality is setting in and it's horrible! Please help me and give me the strength I need to get through this. Continue to watch over us. I know your here. No more scares please Dee! I just need to feel your love. Thank you for the song today. I won't let you down. Thank you for everything. I can never stop thanking you for being the woman that you are, the sacrifices you made for us all and the unconditional love you gave to each and every one of us. You called me your #1, your my #1 and always will be. I am so lost right now. I love you forever, with all my heart. As high as the sky and as wide as the ocean! Love Always,
Christy Marie xoxoxoxo
Janine
January 16, 2007
I hate Tuesdays!! This is not fair! Why aren't you here? I'm not understanding this and I can't seem to believe it! Is something wrong with me or is this normal? People keep telling me that it's okay to feel this way, but it hurts to know that I can't accept this. I don't want to accept it! It's not fair!! I want my Mom Mom back! I went to call you the other night again. I hate this! I want to hear your voice! I still smell you EVERYWHERE!! Even when I'm not wearing your perfume. Today I asked a lady at work what scent she was wearing and she replied Beautiful. I started to get upset, said nothing and as she was leaving she handed me a tube of Beautiful lotion and told me to keep it. You come to me in so many different ways and I believe that now! I love you so much and I miss you too much. Even though I seriously don't believe your gone, I still feel like your around but that I just haven't heard from you.
I can't do this anymore!
I can't!
Sending you love bites!
I love you Daddy!
Love, Janine XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXo....
Denise Cancellarich
January 16, 2007
All right Mommom, enough, it's time to come home. It's gets more real every week now it seems. When I see the babies and how much they change from week to week it hurts because I know how much you loved them and would be loving every minute of seeing them. I was taking down my Christmas cards and yours was the one I took down and I just fell apart knowing that that is the last card I will ever get from you. Then when I opened up the container to put stuff away your card from last year was right on top. The note you put in there was to keep as my first christmas card as a newlywed. I will keep it and treasure it forever and ever along with everything else you have given me. I don't know how to get through this. I am dreading my birthday. You always made a big deal out of it and it just will not be the same. I just want it to come and go. I am trying to be strong for everyone but it's not easy. I miss you and think of you every minute of the day. I love you. Love, NeNe (S.W.A.K.)
January 15, 2007
Hi Mom Mom! It's been a bad night. I just lost it when I was cooking my burger and cutting up my garlic. You weren't here to yell at me b/c it stunk up the house! LOL.
It started to sink in a little that you are not coming back! I have not faced this yet and I can't speak of you in the past, can't do it. If my thoughts start wandering, I shut them down! I don't want to think of what you are going to miss. It seems like every day something sneaks into my thoughts and my mind starts going...things I haven't even thought about...I just have to stop them and start thinking of other things. I don't know how it happens, but they leave my mind. I know it's not a good thing, but I just won't accept it. I couldn't let myself go, I stopped the tears and started typing. It makes me feel better. Aidan was telling me about you tonight and how he gave you the "ish," meaning fish!
Bel was looking for you too. Aidan said "Shh!" b/c he knows when he seen you, you were sleeping. Bel sat w/ me and looked at pics for about 15 minutes on the couch. Pics we never even seen b/f that you had in one of your albums. That is what started this funk I'm in. I just block it all out and don't know when it's going to hit me. I'm so scared. I am doing fine at work, the new job is going great. The people I work w/ are amazing! So helpful and fun. I don't like not being able to talk or laugh w/ you. Please continue to somehow give me this amazing strength. Lord knows, I need all the strength I can get. I'll talk to you soon.
Love Always, Christy Marie xoxo
January 14, 2007
Very funny Dolores! Your a real comedian! Thanks for scaring the pants off us! We just dropped and fell down those stairs. It was insane! I couldn't stop shaking and my heart was pounding out of my chest. Careful what you wish for right? Maureen said you wouldn't contact the ones who are frightened...boy, I'd say you proved her wrong. Now, we know your here, no more please! I fear I'll be in the E.R. next time. Love ya! Christy Marie xoxo
Janine
January 14, 2007
Mom Mom and DaDa,
Lexi, Mommy, and I want to thank you for being with us today! We know you were there with us! As you know my girls received 2nd Place at todays competition and they were up against some great squads. And Lexi's squad received 1st Place. What a thrill!!
Thanks again for being with us and make sure you're there guiding us through next Saturday!
Love you both more than you could ever imagine!
Sending love bites!
Love, Janine xoxoxoxoxoxo...
Janine
January 12, 2007
Well, you finally did it! You have scared the 2 granddaughters that are afraid of their own shadows!! It was not funny! We smelled you. Not just your perfume, but you deodorant and the smell of your hair and it freaked us out. Actually it didn't at first but once Christy started screaming and freaking out I started screaming and freaking out! No more, lady! Do you hear me? No more scaring us. I love you so much!
Talk to you later.
Sending love bites!
Love Janine xoxoxoxoxoxoxo...
Maryann Siefert
January 12, 2007
Mom
I can't take this anymore! you were more to me than I even knew! I want to pick up the phone when something funny comes on and then I stop. Your not there anymore. When will the pain stop! Mom when I go somewhere I seem to be better and then boom something I see will remind me of you. I took Denise to the UofP yesterday and we went into the gift shop. There was so much in there you would have liked and here we go sad again. Please help me. We have cheerleading compitition on Sunday and you know how I enjoy that, well this time I dread it. You didn't get to see Lexi and Janine in the last one on DVD. I miss you more than you could ever know. Please kiss Dad for me I miss him too.
Well bye for now. Mom come to me in my dreams please.
I Love You and Dad too!!!
Your daughter
Maryann
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