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February 11, 2022
Hey Derrick,
You are remembered and spoken of every single day. You live on in our stories, and your kindness, love and light have touched the lives of so, so many. Thank you for everything.
I miss you and love you, friend.
- T.M.
MARK JENSEN
November 12, 2018
Hello Derrick,
It's been seventeen years since your accident. I had you on earth for 17 years watching you grow up. A lot of things have changed. God I miss you. I had open heart surgery in August and I know you still watched over me. I'm doing better but nothing can stop the pain I feel for not being able to talk to you. I love you Derrick
Dad
Cyndi Boales
June 26, 2013
Dearest Derrick,
I just read the message to you from T.B. You two were so alike and had so much fun together. I miss you as she does and I will never forget you and always love you.
November 3, 2012
Hey Derrick,
The last time we saw each other, you were about twelve years old and I was ten. We had been drawing that afternoon, and I had asked what you wanted to be when you grew up. You responded, "I just know I want to make a difference." Though years have passed, not one day has gone by that you and your words have not been in my heart and thoughts. You were my friend, my brother, an inspiration, and I miss you. Your presence made a difference in my life, and I thank you for that. I regret not sharing these thoughts while you were still with us, but I hope, maybe, you can hear them up there now...
Always,
T.B.
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June 19, 2010
I met Derrick during my fourth grade year at Sheehy. His mother was both our teacher. I moved to Sacramento after my 6th grade year and have not seen any friends since then. I wanted to see if I could find any of my classmates and friends back in Merced. Derrick is one of very few people I still remember after 14 years. My heart goes out to all those who loved and remember Derrick. He was truly an incredible person and friend.
Wedding Day 4 September 2001
James Bobb-McGee
March 10, 2010
Now that I am one with the Lord;
I'm topped with grace. I am fully restored
and blessing this place.
As I would like to forget the past,
stop to look ahead, recover the vast,
and always remember what God said!
Mark Jensen
March 11, 2009
Hi Derrick,
It's been awhile since I've checked your website. Life still goes on here but miss you as much as ever.
Clouie passed away right before Christmas last year so I hope you have all your four legged friends around you now. Her and Coggs were the most fun and loving dogs to have and care for.
Your feathered friend Bud is still strutting his stuff in the henhouse. He's going on nine years old this year. He has another turkey we named Roadkill to keep him company.
Please keep watching over all us mortals down here as I know you will.
Love,
Dad
susan sprayberry
December 28, 2008
hey,,i am sorry it has been so long since i signed your book,i have been thru alot going thru a divorce,,but i just wanted to say all of you are in my prayers,,God bless you...
Aaron Self
June 15, 2008
dear derrick, im sorry that you were taken away so young please watch over my friend tina shnieder, she cares for you alot and i care for her so very much, im going to pray to my grandma ruth to come visit you may god bless you and keep you derrick i look forward to meeting you some day sincerely Aaron Self
Mark Jensen
June 3, 2007
Hey Derrick,
It's about that time of year again with your birthday being tomorrow.
It is still a quite time for me when this time comes around. You still fill my head and heart with all that we did in the time you were here on earth.
I remember you last birthday when you wanted to build that "SUPPER COMPUTER"! I ended up storing it out in the old milk house for about 2 years. My Laptop died on me just recently and I decided to give that one of your's a try. It took me awhile to figure out all that you had done with it and your friend Art had left it all in pieces. I could have just started with buying a new one but all the time you and I had on it was to much to pass up. I reloaded a new operating system on it that has since come out after you were gone.
As I started to load it up I could feel you in the room with me walking me through the installation and laughing as you did when I would do something real dumb and have to start all over again!
Well it's been about a month now and what lessons I've learned. I can take it apart and put it back together the same day. I really enjoy working on these machines and fixing problems that come up or maybe helping someone else fix a problem.
I always remember how you would go way out of the way to help someone that had a problem or just a little advice. You always were polite and not act like you were to smart.
I enjoy helping someone and feel a little closer to you in the process.
Thanks for teaching your old man all the things you did!
I love you Derrick and keep looking over my shoulder when I'm about to do someting "DUMB" with a computer and keep sending me all the help.
Love,
DAD
Brenda Saxe
September 28, 2006
It is funny how life works. My son birthday is today, he is now 24. I was looking for peoms to maybe send to him when I found this. I lost my only brother in a car accident when he was 17 yrs old. ODDLEY enough I am looking at what would have been his graduation picture and I have all I can do but to keep the tears from rolling. Derrick looks just like my brother except Adam has a little more brown in his hair. I am not sure how old Derrick is in this picture but how bizarre!! My heart feels for you and your loss. Take care of yourself and the ones you love.
Mark Jensen
September 6, 2006
Hey Derrick,
I thought I'd write you about your dog Cogs, He passed away on Monday and I hope he's back at your side. I want you to know how much of a privlege it was to have taken care of him the last four years. He was abit shy at first after your Mom brought him and Clouie out to my house in LeGrand. He really took to the country life over here in Los Banos.
He was such a gentle and loving dog. You did a great job in caring for him and I know you and him are happy to be together again.
I will miss him as will Clouie but we will be OK.
Love, Dad
Our Last Trip Up The Hill Skiing
Mark Jensen
July 12, 2005
Derrick Jensen Poultry Farm
Mark Jensen
July 12, 2005
Hey Derrick,
I was up in Canada for your 21st birthday and I sure was filled with many memories.
I remember how we had planned to go to Alaska for your graduation. I so wished we could have made that trip along with many others. All I have now are the memories of other trips we made and I'm greatful for those.
I have been slowly going through your old photos and scaning them onto my computer. I thought I'd add a few to your collection here since it's been awhile.
Keep your eye on all us mortals down here. Love Ya, Dad
Mark Jensen
September 8, 2004
Hello My Son,
It's been awhile since I've written you Derrick. A whole lot has changed. The dogs and I have made a new home here Los Banos and we are all enjoying it greatly. Cogs and Clowie are adapting well to the country life with all the interesting things to chase or roll in! They have a new partner in crime named Cozmo who has the personality you would love.
You and I used to talk about me making this move one day and if you could be here to see things I know you'd be happy. I had to get a new laptop and sure miss all the things you could make look so easy with computers. I miss so much of all that you were and still look back and wonder where you have gone.
Keep up the eye you have on all of us and I'll keep it going down here. Love, Dad
Katrina Flores
February 5, 2004
MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS GO OUT TO THE FAMILY OF DERRICK. I AM SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS I KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO LOSE A LOVED ONE I LOST MY MOM ON 1-27-03 AND IT HAS BEEN SO HARD FOR ME CAUSE SHE WAS MY MOM AND MY VERY BEST FRIEND! SO I KNOW EXACTLY HOW YOU ARE FEELING AND WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH. PLEASE REMEMBER THAT DERRICK IS STILL WITH YOU IN SPIRIT AND THAT HE IS A PRECIOUS ANGEL THAT WILL ALWAYS BE WATCHING OVER HIS FAMILY AND FRIENDS. HE WILL BE WITH AT ALL TIMES CAUSE YOU CARRY HIM IN YOUR HEART! MAY GOD BLESS YOU!
WITH LOVE, KATRINA
PLEASE FEEL FREE
TO VIEW MY MOM'S
GUESTBOOK!
Deanna Fernandez
November 26, 2003
MY PRAYERS AND THOUGHTS ARE WITH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY.I WAS WRITING IN MY SONS GUESTBOOK(JASON RAMIREZ.AZ)AND I CAME ACROSS THE STORY OF DERRICK.OUR BOYS HAD ALOT IN COMMON,MANY FRIENDS AND THE GREAT SMILE.IT WILL BE AYEAR NOV.28,WE LOST HIM THANKSGIVING LAST YEAR IN A CAR ACCIDENT.IT IS THE HARDEST THING TO TRY AND LIVE WITH,AND IT SOMETHING YOU CANT EVEN EXPLAIN.BUT JUST KNOW YOUR SON IS ALWAYS WITH YOU IN SPIRIT AND IS YOUR ANGEL ALWAYS.VERY HANDSOME YOUNG MAN.GOD BLESS
Arturo Cota
October 27, 2003
hey there derrick....
Its Art here... Its been another year again.. I really wish you were here... I havent forgotten to post my poem for you on my site.. every year i do.. you know... when i said goodbye the last time i saw you... I never knew it would mean forever... Forever seems like such a long time... i shall always keep you in my heart and memories derrick. I looked for you in the stars again last night... dont know if you hear me... but i miss you allot.
you'll always be number one derrick.
cia again my friend.
October 27, 2003
These peoms are beautiful peoms from mother to son. I got them from Jason Ramirez's legacy from his mother. We love you Jason, thank you Deanna.
Now i share them with Derrick and his mother.......
Four Candles for You
The first candle represents our grief.
The pain of losing you is intense.
It reminds us of the depth of our love for you.
This second candle represents our courage.
To confront our sorrow,
To comfort each other,
To change our lives.
This third candle we light in your memory.
For the times we laughed,
The times we cried,
The times we were angry with each other,
The silly things you did,
The caring and joy you gave us.
This fourth candle we light for our love.
We light this candle that your light will always shine.
As we enter this holiday season and share this night of remembrance
with our family and friends.
We cherish the special place in our hearts
that will always be reserved for you.
We thank you for the gift
your living brought to each of us.
We love you.
We remember you.
REMEMBERING
Go ahead and mention my child.
The one that died, you know.
Don't worry about hurting me further.
The depth of my pain doesn't show.
Don't worry about making me cry.
I'm already crying inside.
Help me to heal by releasing
The tears that I try to hide.
I'm hurt when you just keep silent,
Pretending he didn't exist.
I'd rather you mention my child,
Knowing that he has been missed.
You asked me how I was doing.
I say "pretty good" or "fine".
But healing is something ongoing.
I feel it will take a lifetime.
He is not gone
Ease your grief, he is not gone
For in your heart he lingers on.
His smile, his laugh, his special way,
MEMORIES OF MY SON *********************************** *****
Pictures of yesterday, happened upon,
Sweet, precious pictures of you, my son.
They're from a time that can't be erased,
And my heart fairly breaks as I gaze on your face.
Stirrings arouse in me....words can't explain,
I want to go back, but I can never again.
Such a sweet, pleasant child, how I wish you were here.
To reassure me with hugs and your own special cheer.
To see the beautiful smile just one more time,
And hear that you love me, would make everything fine.
Though I yearn for all this, I know it can't be.
Oh God, why on earth did this happen to me?
The pain of losing you is so hard to bear,
I hurt so badly, does anyone care?
This is not what was supposed to be,
I want and need my son; can't you see?
I want to love him and care for him and have lots of fun.
And I'm sad, because those days will never come.
Instead, a precious life was cut short,
Eighteen years of memories are my moral support.
Playing With the Angels ************************
Got a job at the cemetery lawn
Just trying to make ends meet
I was trying hard to avoid her
To respect her privacy
But I couldn’t help but be drawn
To the teddy bear on the lawn
And the tear stained smiling picture
Of the little one now gone
And now he’s
Playing With the Angels
Up in heaven
Mama he’s alright
Don’t you worry
Cause someday you’ll
Have an answer
To the question why
But until that day
Mama it’s okay to cry
It must cold here without him
But here’s a little something warm
The Lord still plans for you to join him
And he’ll fill your empty arms
Can’t give you a reason why
Can’t give you a because
But he knows now angels love him
And he still knows mama does
And now he’s
Playing With the Angels
Up in heaven
Mama he’s alright
Don’t you worry
Cause someday you’ll
Have an answer
To the question why
But until that day
Mama it’s okay to cry
Did you know that God made you a promise
And you’ll see him after a while
But until then just know that he laughs each day
And he still smiles that same little smile
While he’s
Playing With the Angels
Up in heaven
Mama he’s alright
Don’t you worry
Cause someday you’ll
Have an answer
To the question why
But until that day
Mama it’s okay… to cry
I'm trying to live --- day by day.
How can I do this? I wish it weren't this way.
This love for you is mine to keep;
Pain is the price for the love so deep.
You're with me every day --- you live in my heart
And none of this will ever depart.
I'll look at your pictures, and remember with love,
Because you're at peace now....with God above.
Will comfort you from day to day.
You'll feel his presence in the breeze
That dances gently through the trees
And its his face that you shall see
when you're in need of company.
At anytime you can recall
the love you shared... you saved it all.
And really more than anything,
You'll find peace in remembering.
Rest with our heavenly father now.
andrea stockwell
October 25, 2003
You will never truley understand how much you really are missed and loved.
GOD LOOKED AROUND HIS GARDEN,
AND HE FOUND AN EMPTY PLACE.
HE THEN LOOKED DOWN UPON THIS EARTH,
AND SAW YOUR PRECIOUS FACE.
HE PUT HIS ARMS AROUND YOU,
AND LIFTED YOU TO REST.
GOD'S GARDEN MUST BE BEAUTIFUL,
HE ALWAYS TAKES THE BEST.
IT BROKE OUR HEARTS TO LOSE YOU,
BUT YOU DIDN'T GO ALONE....
FOR PART OF US WENT WITH YOU....
THE DAY GOD CALLED YOU HOME.
October 25, 2003
you will always and forever be in my heart and prayers. god bless.
you were a gorgoues person inside and out.
October 15, 2003
Derrick
Another year has come and gone. Your Mom has had another birthday. I know she spent her birthday with you heavy on her heart. You were such a joyful child. The 2 year anniversary of your death is approaching us. It just seems like yesterday that we received that dreadful call that you had left this earth. We think of you often and the kids say a prayer for you each night before bedtime. Missing you dearly...Missing your Mom too...Until we see each other again...
Raquel Rey
September 4, 2003
Hello Mandy and Bradd and Hunter: And first things first; HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUNTER.................you are such a special spirit and such a strong one too! I know that it is kind of hard to know when you are ONE, that your life is quite significant: not like any other one but just as every other one. I'll tell you why:::: there will be tons of ballons, and WET KISSES (UHGHS) from aunts, friends and specially grandmozz; there will be cake, and gifts and stuff you probably won't even noticed............but your life is special because it is YOUR LIFE: Unique, different, new, novel, distinctive, AWKSOME!!!!!!!!!!! because of all of that, some one up in heaven, who is also your brother, will be smiling and saying: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO">>>> you tell 'emmm.
ANd just because of that, because you are just a part of a wonderful family: Mandy, Brett (I know I cant spell), Hunter, PArker and ..........in a different dimension but still family: Derrick.......
No: we will never forget you honey! your life was very significant, and that is why today we are saying YOUR FAMILY HAS ONE MORE CHILD:
HAPPY FIRST BIRTHDAY HUNTER COVISH!
LOVE YOU:
Milton, Raquel, Tamara, Marcel:
Merced California
September 1, 2003
Derrick tomorrow is Hunter's first birthday. I can still remember your birthday's as a young child. There was so much love at all those birthday parties. You will be dearly missed tomorrow but never forgotten..Please watch over all of us and take good care of your friends that are there with you....Much Love
Andrea Stockwell
August 29, 2003
All I want to say to Derricks family is how incredibly sorry I am your son seemed like an amazing person. Derreck its truley not fair what happened to you but i guess our Lord only takes the best. From what I read 2 other friends of yours died with you give them all my love too please. And to the family of the other boys god bless your in my prayers always.
R.I.P Boys.
August 27, 2003
It seems like just yesterday that your radiant smile left us. Not a day goes by that I do not think about you. Knowing you was such a joy and what an honor it was to be your friend. We keep your picture on the piano and the kids and I talk about you often. If my children turn out to be half the person that you were...I know they will prosper in Life. Derrick you were such an amazing individual. Sometimes it doesn't seem real that you are no longer with us. It seems that you are away at College, because that is where you would be if you were still on this earth with us. There is so much I want to say but I just can't put the right words into place. You know how important and special you were to me. We may have not spent as much time together during your teenage years, but that doesn't matter. We shared such a special bond...I dearly miss you....
Stephanie Mann
July 13, 2002
Hi Derrick...we never really talked in high school but i remember we used to back in 6th grade at Hoover. I always saw you everyday at GV and for some unknown reason I wanted to come up and talk to you, but I never had the guts to. I regret that now. The fondest memory I have of you was way back in pre-school at Futureland. I had to show you how to eat your eggs with the fork! Recently I found some pictures of you, me, and the other kids dressed up in our halloween costumes there. I think you were a tiger, and I was a witch. It was so cute. I miss you...after reading all the other entries I felt I had to sign this too, for closure. Rest in peace Derrick...you will always be missed.
Susan Sprayberry
June 25, 2002
Derrick...
I know I hadn't signed your page in a while but I have been going thru a really rough time but i have still thought about you and your family,,,God bless you all,,
susan
Adam
June 6, 2002
Hey Derek happy belated birthday.hope you are enjoying yourself up there in heaven.We all sill miss u very much and we think about u in are everyday routines.So untill we see you again.We love you very much.
Mark Jensen
June 5, 2002
Happy Birthday Derrick !!!
Hey Derrick, This is not how I thought we would spend your 18th birthday as we did today nor your class graduation last week. I miss you so much and wish you were here to tell me all that was going on in your life as you used to.
Aunt Kirsten and I went to your resting spot today and she had brought you some balloons but the wind caught them and sent them up your way. We both had a little laugh over that. It also seems the birds have found you feeder as it was empty when we got there. We'll keep it full.
I love you, Dad
June 4, 2002
Derrick-
Just wanted to wish you a Happy 18th Birthday!!
Karen
May 29, 2002
Hey Derrick
It's me!! I know it has been such a long time since I have written to you. There are so many things I want to say, but I just can never put them into the right words.
I just talked with your Mom, she misses you dearly. Tomorrow night is your high school graduation. It is so hard to imagine you not being there. If anyone deserved a diploma, it was you.
Your Mom and I spend alot of time together and talk on the phone as often as possible. You are always a part of our conversation. We spent so much time together when you were young. Some of those memories are the fondest and I will always hold them close to my heart.
Month's have gone by and it is not the same. I guess one of the reason's I never told you how lucky I was to have you in my life.
There will always be an emptiness in my heart.
Keep an eye on your Mom and Brett, and I will do my best to help them in any way I can.
Until we meet again....
Love ya,
Karen
Patricia Hanson
May 22, 2002
Dearest Mandy,
I am so happy to hear of the upcoming birth of your little miracle. You do not know me but through Legacy I have had the honor of meeting your family and your beautiful son Derrick. I can tell by the entries from all of his friends and family and was quite a unique young man. Now he has proven his ultimate love for you by asking our precious Father to to touch you and fill your life with renewed hope and love. I wish you and your family all the love and warmth you deserve.
TO ALL PARENTS:
"I'll lend you for a little while, a child of mine" He said
"It may be six or seven years, or twenty-two or three,
But, will you, till I call him back,Take care of him for me?
He'll bring his charm to gladden you,
And, should his stay be brief,
You'll have his lovely memories, as solance for your grief.
I cannot promise he will stay,
Since all from life return,
But there are lessons taught down there,
I want this child to learn.
I've looked the wide world over,
In my search for teachers true,
And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes, I've selected you.
Now will you give him all your love,
Nor think the labor vain,
Nor hate Me when i come to call,
To take him back again?"
I fancied that I heard them say "Dear Lord Thy Will be done,
For all the joy the child shall bring,
The risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter him with tenderness,
We'll love him while we may,
And, for the happiness we've known,
Forever grateful stay.
Bit should the angels call him,
Much sooner than we've planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes,
And try to understand."
by Edgar A Guest.
This little poem helped me trememdously when I lost my baby brother 18 years ago and an adpoted child to suicide 7 years ago, I still carry the tattered copy in my billfold and when I feel down I pull it out and read it. I hope it helps you as much as it did me.
Love in Christ
Pat Hanson
Raquel Rey Barboza
May 21, 2002
May 22, 2002
Hi Derrick: This is Raquel!
I once heard that in the world of the good spirits little words are needed 'cause everything is known.
So I guess that you already know what I am about to say: That's right: I am going to say how sorry I am that it has taken me so long to open this wonderful webpage.....the legacy...a tribute to your life.
I guess you know, that I have had a hard time accepting that your are gone.
I guess you know how much I have struggled with my own faith, in sort of a theological battle with the Big Guy up there. But since you talk to Him all the time, I know you can put a good word for me.
I guess you have seen how much we have been praying for your mom, and everyone else who felt empty after you left.
I guess you have seen how we lite up a candle in front of your picture at home since your smile fills up the entire room...hope you like the rose scented one. We figured since it is one of Mandy's favorite flowers, you would like it as well.
I guess you have seen us praying as a family for a miracle: the miracle of Life to happen once again for your mom.
I guess you already knew it was going to happen.
I guess you had a lot to do with dispatching those angels to help that miracle: a new baby
Last week, when Mandy and I were at the house, I felt the baby kicking for the first time! And the miracle felt real!
I guess you now that your mom and I made plans to see you and Marcel graduate together.
I guess you know this is a sad time for us.
So: Marcel wanted you to know that when he accepts the diploma next week, he will be thinking about you.
So, with all this said here is what the "Class of 2002" invitation reads inside.
You will recognize his name, he was called home early also...he was a cool guy....wanted peace...wanted people lo love each other...just like you!
"Imagine all the people...
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man...
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one"
Imagine, John Lennon
Happy Graduation Derrick
Love
Raquel, Milton, Marcel and Tamara
Jennifer Headley
May 1, 2002
Life was flying by and then I got an e-mail that said there was an updated entry. I guess its your way of saying slow down, huh? I'd rather not slow down because when I do I being to see that this friday is six months after the accident, that you guys are going to be picking up your senior stuff in the SBO, the you wont be getting your cap and gown, all our graduation pratices will be without you, our trip will be without you. It's just no fun when you stop and slow down. This friday will be very odd. I wonder how the school is going to react. I guess its not that big of a deal because everyday is a struggle. ... I'm off to take my senior pictures this morning. It's hard to believe I've... we've made it this far.
Irene Shotts
April 30, 2002
Just wanted Derrick to look out for the Willis family. I am sure you were all friends in the community and in school. Please look out for little Michelle. Thank you.
Susan Sprayberry
March 25, 2002
To Derrick's family,,,
I know i hadn't written in a while
but it's been really hard on me
my mother-in-law passed away Feb.19,
and my brother passed away Feb.24,
but i have still had all of you in my prayers and in my thoughts,,
my brother's legacy page is
under ;;Michael Eugene Dover;;
if you are interested,,
GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU..
SUSAN
denver lewellen
March 25, 2002
LATE FRAGMENT:
And did you get what
You wanted from this life, even so?
I did.
And what did you want?
To call myself beloved, to feel myself
Beloved on the earth.
---Raymond Carver
Derrick, I will remember you.
Derrick, I’m sorry that it’s taken so long to write. I think about you a lot, usually at night when the lights are out and people are sleeping. Every morning I wake up thinking about you. I remember the last time I saw you. I’m so glad that you and your mom drove out to Seattle and paid me a surprise visit. I wish I’d taken the opportunity to tell you how great I thought you were.
I just wish that we’d had more time.
Your accident has been really, really hard to deal with Derrick. But if there is anything good to come from it, I think it is that you have given us all a tremendous wake-up call. It’s time for all of us to be happy with who are and what we have now, and to take advantage of every day that we are lucky enough to be here.
I’m sorry that we didn’t have more time Derrick. I always thought you and I would someday have a chance to really get to know each other.
Thanks for the wake-up call Derrick. And thank you for gracing my life and the lives of everyone you knew. Please know that I loved you. We all loved you.
Please know that we are going to be all right. We are trying to turn the page, but we are not forgetting you. We are simply trying best to follow your example of a full and loving life.
Uncle Denver.
Debra Burden
March 14, 2002
Hi Amanda,
It's Debra.
I am starting to get worried about you. I have not heard from you or Karen. SO I hope this finds you doing as good as you can. I know the walk you are on. I just wanted to let you know that I am still here for you when you need me. And the same goes for Karen.
When you feel up to it drop me a quick e-mail so I will know you are doing the best you can.
Your friend in grief.
Jerry Williams's mom Debra Burden
Barbara Link
March 11, 2002
Dear Mandy,
I am a long time friend of your parents. Your mom and I were in the Bag Ladie's Writing Group and I was there when you married Mark.
Some years ago my daughter had a serious brain injury. Although she lived, she is disabled and forever changed. So I understand just a small part of your grief.
I found that there was so much love in the world when my daughter was hurt. I know the love is coming to you and I hope you are finding some comfort. I also know that nothing compensates for the loss you all are experiencing. But today I was thinking that you had seventeen wonderful years with your son and nothing can ever change that.
I think of all of you every day hoping that I can take some of your pain and sorrow.
Barb Link
Patricia Hanson
March 8, 2002
To the family of Derrick:
I have written before, but for some reason seems compelled to check on Derrick by reading the entries, by doing this I feel as though God has allowed me to meet a very wonderful young man. I live in Oklahoma, I have 4 children living (2 boys ages 21 and 28, 2 girls ages 25 and 9). I just want to let you know how honored and pleased I am that you have allowed me to become acquainted with you and your beautiful child through these legacy entries. As I read about Derrick I realize God had a very SPECIAL plan for Derrick and needed him to come home. These entries also made me realize Derrick was a very lucky child to have the love and caring of a family like yours. Again, thank you for allowing me to meet you and Derrick, it is an honor and privilage to have gotten to know you and your son Derrick.
Mark Jensen
March 7, 2002
Dear Derrick,
It's about time I write you. It seems like my life is starting to slowly get somewhat back to the way it was before your death. All that happened the first few weeks after your accident at times seems like a it didn't happened. Maybe it's my mind's way of helping me to come to terms of being without you around anymore. I still have people coming up to me and giving their condolences. I tell them that I'm doing ok rather than telling them I'm fine.
I'm greatful that I have a belief in God and all that he has done for me. I know that I wouldn't be where I'm at today if it wasn't for his help.
Your friend Arturo and Scott Sousa's son are goi`ng with me over to Monterey for some deep sea fishing. Oh how I wish you could be coming with us but I know you'll be watching over us all.
Next week is my skiing vacation and Celeste and I will be at the cabin for 5 days. Some of your friends will be coming along that weekend. I hope that there is one of them that can ski on your level so I will be challenged to ski my best.
I think about you all the time and feel your presence with me when I need you the most. whenever I hear my voice it reminds me of your own.
I'm greatful to have so many good memories of all the wonderful times we spent together. Though your life was cut short you lived it to the fullest.
Keep an I on all of us down here and I would love it if you help Arturo and Scooter catch a big fish.I remember the first time you went fishing and you caught that big Link Cod.How proud you were and how good it made me feel to see that smile on your face.
I Love You,
Dad
Susan Sprayberry
February 16, 2002
Amanda,,
how are you all doing i hadn't wrote in a while because i have been going thru a pretty rough time,but i just wanted to write and tell all of you know i'm still thinking of you and i'm praying for you...a friend,,,susan
GOD BLESS!!!!!!!!!!!
Phyllis Arambel
February 13, 2002
Mandy,
Oh my, it's been awhile. I want you to know that I think of you quite often. Sharon Mello and I have talked so she lets me know how you are although I am sure it's not how we imagine. I am so very sorry for your loss. I remember when we were in school and had no cares. Life was sure different then, huh? I have a 16 yr. old at LBHS and we have talked about you and Mark, since he was such good friends with my brother, and Derrick several times. She has a friend, Nico Gomez, who used to go to L.B. but now goes to GVHS. He lives out by the crash site and I have had to take him home after confirmation class. It is very surreal for me. Thoughts of Adams street, you and your beautiful, long blond hair, Kelly and the fun things we did. It seems like a lifetime ago. I still visit Jean so we reminisce often. I have been meaning to send a card and am so sorry this has taken so long. I live near you now and wanted you to know that you can e-mail me or whatever anytime. I would love to see you or talk if you want. Your entries to Derrick are very touching and I can just think what a joy he was for the time god let you have him. Please know I am thinking of you.God Bless.
james sandoval
January 31, 2002
derrick was the best friend a kid could ever have iam sorry mark i'cried just as much he tought me alot if i had to have any brother in the world i'd pick derrick i've alway's thought of derrick as my older brother he always used to tell me that pep was goin to not bite but eat me not a day goes by that I think about derrick he'll be missed. love jimmy
Christine
January 28, 2002
there was no way for our paths to meet here. i hope you introduce yourself to me when i get there. and keep an eye, if you can, on us at the meetings you didn't want to go back to. we could use an angel like you smiling on us.
Debra Burden
January 27, 2002
Hi Amanda,
I posted yesterday, but it didn't show up. Any ways. I was wanting to give information on a Conference being held this August. Husband and I are going. And from what I have been told it is a wounderful thing to attaned. Any ways if you can find out how to e mail me I will tell you more about it.
Debra
Debra Burden
January 25, 2002
Hi Amanda,
It's Debra Burden.
Did you ever find out what your e-mail address is? If so, please send it to me. Just write down my e-mail address and send me an e-mail and from that I will get your address.
I have been thinking of you and Derrick and wondering how you are doing.
Talk with you later.
Jerry Lee Williams Mom From Florida
Maureen (Lyden) Peeler
January 24, 2002
Dear Mandy, Carol and Jim,
Cathy told me about your awful loss. I'm so very sorry. What a wonderful way to remember your son with all these beautiful entries. It's so hard to think of you with a grown son. You will always be my little sister's friend and next door neighbor.
I will put you in our prayers and hope the coming weeks and months bring you comfort and healing.
Debbie
January 22, 2002
Mandy:
As I sat and wrote this poem, 35 years of memories flooded my head. Memories from the day I met you in first grade til today. All the things that we have been through together brings both laughter and tears. The greatest gift of our friendship is the love that we share for each others children. So many memories of Derrick I see just as if they were yesterday. The day Derrick was born our friendship changed for he became part of our bond as friends. Never do I have a thought of you without Derrick right there next to your side. He is a part of you which makes him a part of our friendship that I hold so dear and will for eternity.
MY FRIEND
My friend, my dear friend
A friend I hold dear to my heart
That will never part.
Years of friendship that continues to grow,
Supporting one another
Always being there for the other.
From the dreams of children to dreams realized,
We have shared our joys and sorrows
And our hopes for tomorrow.
Now, I share your grief and tears,
For dreams have been shattered
And tomorrow's hopes tattered.
I cry for you, I pray for you,
I give you all of my strength and courage
As life turns its page.
I am holding you tightly, never wanting to let go,
Feel my presence for I am there
Know how much I care.
For the boy whom we loved and adored,
For the loss that is felt so deep
Memories in our hearts we keep.
--dm
Jennifer Headley
January 16, 2002
Hey Derrick! I went out to the crash site yesterday to visit you guys.. it was so different going there, nothing like i remembered it. im thinking about make a necklace of stuff i collected. for instance, i got some glass from thr car and then i got some of the burnt rubber jerry made in memory of steve. so i was thinking of making those into a necklace of some sort. next friday we order cap and gowns, i wish you could be here. i wonder if for graduation you guys ( well your pictures ) can be up on stage with us, just for a memory thing. i really wish you guys could share the moment with us.
Amanda Covish
January 13, 2002
Hi Derrick,
It's me mom. I'm cleaning out your room today and really not having a very good time. I try to work on it a little bit each week, but it's just so hard. I can't believe all the papers & things that you had stuffed in your drawers! I don't know what to save and I don't know what to throw out and I seem to moving things from one side of the room to the other. Then I start to cry so I must leave and shut the door. Just as I was getting ready to close the door today, I found something that you had written in one your many stacks of papers. I think you might have written this last year, but I'm really not sure as there is no date on it. I thought I would put it up on your site. I especially liked the part about the above average car that runs well. I think you might have had too many experiences with your mom's cars breaking down over the years.
THE AMERICAN DREAM ESSAY
by: Derrick Jensen
When a person gets out of high school, they should hopefully go on to college where they can get a degree of some sort and then go on into the work world in which they will try to succeed. That is what I want to do when I grow up, and I plan on doing exactly that.
After my high school years, I plan on going to a college or a university where I can get my degree. I will then go out into the work world, get a job and make money to live my life. I plan to go to a nice college or university where I can get a B.A. degree in computer graphics.
The job that I plan to do is computer graphics of some sort and I will be able to start my own company that is made just for designing graphics and video for commercial purposes. Throughout the day, I will design good quality graphics and edit images for people who need them. I will work in a team for large projects and independently in small projects.
If I am successful in my job, I will be financially safe and secure and I will buy a large house in San Francisco or maybe even New York. I would like to start a family when I am able to afford it and do not have to worry about money. A good thing to do is to go on vacation a few weeks a year. I would buy 2 or 3 cars. I would like to have an above average car that runs well and has pretty good speed. I would also like to have a winter cabin and a boat.
A good education can lead to a good life. When I achieve my goals, I hope to live a good life and not have to worry about my financial status. My parents will be very proud of me.
I was always very very proud of you Derrick. I would have been proud of you no matter how much money you had made. You were such a great kid, the best I could have ever asked for.
Mom
Karen
January 10, 2002
Hey Derrick,
I have been trying to write to you for some time. I just haven't had the right words to say. There are so many fond memories of your life, I just wasn't sure which ones to share.
I can still see you walking across the high school parking lot with that "BIG SMILE" on your face. I remember telling your Mom, How will I spot Derrick among all those kids? Now that I look back on that day I realize, how could I have not, you were the only kid in that crowd with the biggest SMILE.
What a fun kid you were!! I can still see you sliding across the hardwood floors in those feet pajamas. Remember all the times you drug me down to the basement to play with your toys. And how can I forget "OREO" how your dog truly loved me. Everytime I called to talk to your mom, I would tell you I was the doctor calling, and you would always play along with me. For all those memories, and so many more, I am so thankful to have been a part of your life. My only regret is that I didn't spend enough time with you in your teen years.
Everyone has done a great job capturing your life here. As I read along, your smile and gentle laughter come to me over and over. Thanks for letting me be a part of your life. I am truly one of the lucky ones to have had you in my life from your infant days. I see your Mom often and check in by phone frequently, she misses you dearly. Your smile is what keeps a lot of us going, it gives us hope that you are smiling down at us, and your beautiful mother. Protect your Mom keep her heart full and her legs strong. Missing you dearly too....Karen
Tina Schneider
January 9, 2002
Hi Derrick....it's Tina. I was just thinking of you. I got a card from your Mom yesterday. She told me about Yukon. Although I know he's up there with you (probably begging for milk bones) & that your taking good care of him, I miss you both alot & wish you were here. I went by the house a few weeks ago to check on your Mom. She misses you so very much Derrick. Please watch over her. Actually, I know I don't have to ask you that because I'm sure you're right there with her....just as always!
Jennifer Headley
January 6, 2002
Derrick,
This is the first time since your funeral i've been able to look at your picture. I happened by accident. I was going to finish my scrapbooking because I was feeling good today, I needed to say goodbye to you. You were the only guy i had left to put in. Derrick, this is so hard on me. I miss you so much. I have been regreting this day for so long, but i cant put it off anymore. I'm going to miss you so much, muy alto. I will never have another spanish class that will be nearly as much fun as you made my two years. Derrick, this new year is so hard to start without you. Tomorrow we go back to school... and I just wish you were here. I wish i would have taken every chance i had to hang out with you. Oh derrick i miss you. I wish i could touch you, hug you.. see your smile. You were a one in a million type of guy. I wish i could have had my life taken that night instead of yours or steves or ryans. You are forever missed Derrick. When i get to heaven, we are so going to hang out. Derrick... the death of you guys changed us all. It made us see. I'm never going to see you guys again on earth, and that hurts me and others so badly. I'm sorry its taken me so long to put you in my scrapbook, its just been hard. help me derrick, please. Meet me at the gates when i come... okay? I love you kid! Thanks for sharing three and a half great years of high school. I'm going to miss you so much come graduation, we all will. Thank you Derrick, for just being you.
Mark Jensen
January 5, 2002
Hey Derrick,
It's been a while since I've written you. I have so much to say but it still hurts alot.
I was up skiing over New Years up at Lake Tahoe with Vince. It's just not the same without you. I kept waiting for you to ski along side of me and tap me with your pole as you went by. I saw so many young people out there and I kept thinking it was you.
We went to Squaw Valley this time and I wish you you could have been there. Last year at Heavenly with you will always be with me.
I've gotten to know your friend Arturo and I'm going to take him deep sea fishing this March. I know why you two got along so well. He's a fine young man and I look forward to our trip.
I so wish that I could talk to you as we use to but this will have to be our only way for now. I want you to keep an eye on all of us down here and I want you to know that you will forever live in my heart till the day we meet again.
Give Granny and Pop a hug for me and I hope that Bob has told you some of the stories of when we were your age. I hope you and Boyd are playing cards up there and both laughing out loud the way you two did.
I love you Derrick,
Dad
(The Old Man)
Karen Kelly
January 5, 2002
Hi Amanda:
My name is Karen, I am the mother of Mikey & Buddy Kelly. I have been reading the entries on Mikey's, Joel's & Derrick's Legacy everyday. Each time I am filled with so many emotions. Mostly, my heart is filled with warmth because of all the love & compassion. I myself have not been able to write to my son since "the letter" I wrote for Mikey's funeral. God has not yet given me the words.
Amanda, thank you for your concern about Buddy. He is fine when there are alot of friends around. It is the quiet moments that tear him up. I am sure you understand because those are the moments when I feel the termendous void myself. I just want to curl up in a little ball. Sometimes when I go into Mikey's room that is exactly what I do. I pray alot. For the family's who have lost children. There has been so many. We all are going to start therapy. I hope Buddy follows through. He misses his brother so much. I have been telling him how much I love & needed him. How important he is. He does not feel worthy. It is so sad but we will get through this. God is with us 24/7 and he will not leave us. Amanda, have faith in God and allow him to carry you during your time of need. Go ahead and cry, mourn for your son. Let it all out, stomp your feet if you must. It is all part of the healing. So they say! My heart goes out to you because you lost your only child. I still have another child. I am so sorry for you and your family. I am so sorry Derrick's dog died. It must have been like pouring salt on an open wound.
Derrick is (not was) a wonderful young man. Just like my Mikey, He had dreams and appeared to be very bright & energetic. Mikey played tennis for Freedom High, taught Gymnastics and wanted to be a Doctor. He loved children and had a great passion for the ocean. Loved to surf! We spent many hours in Half moon Bay but his favorite place was Mavricks. He & I would go there to clear the cob webs from our head. I miss him so much. It hurts so bad. Someday I would like to meet you. You can talk about Derrick all day long. I will listen to you. I will even cry with you if you want. Even give you a hug if you'd let me.
You are in my prays every morning & night.
God Bless you!!!
Carly Becerra
January 4, 2002
Mandy,
I stell remmber when you and my mom Marta worked together and Derrick and i went to school together. We all became close over thows years. I smell when i think back to when Derrick and i would play with his collection of Legos. We had lots of fun. I just wanted to say with my mom passing away three years ago I know that she is taking care of Derrick with all her love. I know how it feels to loss a loved one and all the pain you go threw but i hope you know that they are both looking down on use and gidding us threw it all.
Susan Sprayberry
December 31, 2001
To Derrick's family,,
I wanted to write and wish each and everyone of you a happy new year,GOD BLESS YOU ALL,,,I know it is going to be hard on everyone of you starting a new year without Derrick. I will keep you all in my prayers,,,Susan
buddy kelly
December 30, 2001
it does not even feel like christmas this year just remember they might not know each other but i know my brother and he is up threre with your son, they are watching over the both of us, it has gotten so hard to go on in life i don't know what to do, every thing i do reminds me of my little brother. we will see them again if you need n e thing e mail me k. \
Barbara Mitchell
December 30, 2001
I just read the story of your son Dereke I used to live in Merced,Ca.
I have familly still there.
I've moved to Oklahoma.But I go into Legacy to read and saw your sons picture I'm so srry I feel like my heart has been rearranged my prayers will be with you all God Bless you to...
Barbara Mitchell
Evette Hutchins
December 28, 2001
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this holiday season. May you find comfort and strenght in your friends & family.
Beth Kenny
December 25, 2001
Mark & Mindy, On this first Xmas without your special angel, I am praying that you remember all of the wonderful Christmases that you have been blessed to have Derrick in your lifes!! (I know we are!) Love ya my brother, Beth XOXOXO
Kris McCrory
December 25, 2001
Mark and family:
Thank you for allowing me to know your special earth angel. Today, being Christmas, seemed like the right time to visit his Legacy site.
I truly feel as if I've met him. May your memories always bring forth a smile.
Sam Areias
December 24, 2001
Derrick,
I didn't see you as often as I would of like, because we lived far apart. When ever I would see you it was as if we spent everyday of our lives together. You always had a smile on your face and a joke or story to tell about something fun you and your dad did. I will always remember going to the baseball games with you and afterwards when we would just walk around the San Fransisco and look at all of the funny t-shirt. We would pick one out that would fit each of our relativies perfectly. We would look for an hour for a bathroom and the whole time it was right were the bus left us off. You always had your unik laugh with you. You were never a sad person. If I have a son one day and he turns out the way you did I will know I was a good father and that you were right their helping me. Though your life was short lived you lived it to the fullest. You we be missed but not forgotten.
Claire Yates
December 24, 2001
Dear Derrick ,
its hard to belive that your gone when it feel's like yesterday you where teaching me how to play poker I know that your probably having a blast in heaven right now I'll keep praticing playing poker so that when we meet again I'll stand a chance against you I'll miss you a lot and big family trips wont be the same with out you but I know that well meet again some time and I look forward to that day
-Claire
carolyn
December 22, 2001
I just read of you loss in the paper last month, as i live in a nearby community. i lost my brother last month and he is posted on legacy.com for a short time more, i was checking his listing when i came across your son's. I just wanted to send on my love and prayers to you, i just can't imagine losing such a shining star as yours, but remember please, you now have a special angel in God's galaxy and perhaps that will give you some special comfort. Every day, i know, our children are just on short loan to us, but it is so very hard to let one go way before we feel they should. My God continue to bless you and comfort your hearts. Carolyn Farrell My brother's listing is under Lloyd Dale Dupire )
ravi shankar
December 21, 2001
I pity for jensen's life and pray to god on behalf of him
Marsha Wise
December 20, 2001
Dear Family & Friends of Derrick,
I just happened across Derrick's tribute. I lost my Godson Shane three years ago on December 1. He was 10 years old and died in a car accident. A day doesn't go by I don't think of him. The only advice I can give is don't let the memories be a sad moment in your day. I have learned to tell myself that I am keeping him alive by thinking of him daily. Sometimes it is hard. I don't understand why God takes children. I think it will be the first question I ask him when it is my turn to face him.
Beth Kenny
December 20, 2001
To Derricks Family, I know there aren't words that can ease your pain, but I too feel blessed to have Derrick in mine and Niques life. I will always remember them as little tykes, running around the Alano club, jumping to the beat of a song, (calling themselves dancing, lol) and just being the happy kids that they were. I do so wish that Mark and Derrick were physically in our lives more, but I am so so greatful to have them both in our hearts! Love you both, Beth
Patricia Hanson
December 20, 2001
For the family of Derrick Jensen, I know this is a very hard time for you in your life and it seems as though the sun will never shine again, but it will. I live in a very small farming community in Oklahoma and how I came upon Derrick's legacy book, I don't know so I know God had a hand in it. I lost my baby brother in 1984 to natural causes but lost an adopted daughter to a suicide 5 years ago, so no matter how you lose them the pain is always still there. I would like for you and your family to know my hear and prayers are with you at this time. You had a beautiful, talented young man for a son. Always remember that the sprinkling of rain is his tears of joy for you and the snow is the cookie crumbs he's dropping on you. God Bless You All
Debra Burden
December 20, 2001
Hi Amanda,
This is Debra Burden, Jerry Williams mom.
I looked to see if what I posed for you the other day was here. I noticed that I messed up.
When I copyed the 2nd poem in for you, I copyed it in the middle of the first one. Sorry about that.
I guess I need to watch what I am doing.
Any ways, sorry about the mess up and write when you can.
Your friend in Grief.
Debra Burden
Sara
December 20, 2001
I happened upon this site by chance and Derrick's story was the first thing I read, now I know that it wasn't an accident. When you are 17 you never think that one day you'll wake up and somewhere else one of your friends won't be doing that very same thing. Two years ago I lost my friend David, he was very much like Derrick and I know that if the two of them had gotten together they would have created some memorable moments for the rest of us. My life has been made better just by knowing David as I am sure that many other people's lives have been made better just by knowing Derrick. Thank God for people like him, even if they are with us for only a little while, there is never a time that you can think of them and not smile,even through the tears. May God continue to bless your family as he did when he brought you to them.
Sharon(Blondie) Rodhouse
December 18, 2001
Dear Derrick,
It's still so hard for me to believe that you have left us so soon. I watched as you grew from a seven year old little cherub with his chickens and his dogs, especially Pepper. To a handsome, intelligent young man. You were always a joy to be around.
I have always had a special LOVE for you and your Dad. But I was just beginning to watch you and your talent with computers and Love for life come out. You are and always be a very special guy.
From now on I will see your bright eyes in the twinkling of the starlight and your smile in the bright sunshiney days. I'll remember you always and look forward to seeing you again one fine day. Just remember my name---"When I see you in Heaven."
I Love You,
Sincerely,
Sharon(Blondie) Rodhouse
P.S. Keep smiling down on us, we need all the sunshine we can get!
Bob Kane
December 18, 2001
Mark,
I can not say, "I know how you feel, because I pray that the good lord doesn't take my boys too soon. I'm not done with them yet and god can't have them yet. But since Derrick had left, it has open my eyes to watch my two boys, play more, tuck them in twice, read two books instead of one, to have them get on my nerves more, to watch them argue with each other, to kiss them more, to hug them more, and no matter how tired I am, to stay up and play with them more. Mark, your unfortunate lost has taught me too. I lost my brother 19 years ago, not by mistake or unknown, It was going to happen, But I think about him all the time. I want to show him how well I have done. But he is in the lords hands now. Your family is in our prayers.
Bob & Michelle Kane
buddy kelly
December 18, 2001
amanda,
we don't know each other just wanted to say that if you ever need to talk i am here, on nov 20th my 17 year old little brother was killed in a car accident allong with his best friend. it is hard to deal with i understand that and sometimes i look and wounder how life can go on but you always have to be strong think what would he want you too do? well i just wanted to say i'm sorry for your loss and if you want you can sighn my lil brothers legacy his name is micheal patrick kelly of oakley ca. thank you
Michael Amato
December 18, 2001
Dear Covish and Jenson family,,especially Amanda, Mark and Brett, dearest mom, dad and stepdad, I want to let you know that you are not alone in your grief and pain, I lost my son Anthony last Oct 22, 2000, at age fifteen. That was the saddest day in my family's life. In addition, my only remaining daughter, has bone cancer and is responding terribly to the chemo. The pain of a loss, especially of a child, is beyond pain. It is an empty, lonely and a feeling of despair that never leaves you. It will improve with time, although, you never think that it will. It really does get much better with time, prayer and you will learn to dwell on the great memories of your beautiful boy. You will have many people and family members offer advice and say innapropriate things. If they only knew, they would just keep quiet and offer you a fruit basket instead of trying to make you feel like they understand what you are going through. Derrick appeared to be a sweet and very bright boy that I couldn't help relating to my son. The smirk, the smile, the talent and the life cut short. I'm at work now typing this, or I would be crying uncontrollably now. I would hope because of our connection on Legacy.com, there is a connection with Derrick and Anthony in heaven. If fact, I'm sure of it. I just want to wish you peace, comfort, and innerstrength. Talk to Derrick, and I promise he will come to you often. Anthony does. He talked to me for the first time in a dream last week. My one of many visits from him. He asked if I was coming to his party. Maybe I will soon. God bless Derrick and all of his remaining family. Love and support, Michael Amato
Debra Burden
December 18, 2001
Dear Amanda,
Yes, I am the one that posted "A Letter From Heaven".
I have another one for you.
MY FIRST CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN
I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below,
with tiny lights like heaven's stars, reflecting on the snow.
The sight is so spectacular; please wipe away that tear,
For I spent Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
I hear the many Christmas songs, that people hold so dear,
but the sounds of music can't compare to the Christmas choir up here.
I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring,
for it is beyond description to hear the angels sing.
I know how much you miss me; I see the pain inside your heart.
But I'm not far away, we really aren't apart.
So be happy for me dear ones, you know I hold you dear,
and be glad I spent Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
I have about 160 poems I am found and saved to share with others.
Jerry is also my only child. And you are right, there is nothing in life that is worse than losing your only child.
Here is a poem for you. When I first read this one, I thought "DANM RIGHT".
"PLEASE, don't ask me if I'm over it yet. I'll never be over it. PLEASE, don't tell me he's in a better place. He isn't here with me. PLEASE, don't say at least he isn't suffering. I haven't come to terms with why he had to suffer at all. PLEASE, don't tell me you know how I feel. Unless you have lost a child. PLEASE, don't ask me if I feel better. Bereavement isn't a condition that clears up. PLEASE, don't tell me at lest you had him for so many years. What year would you choose for your child to die? PLEASE, don't tell me God never gives us more than we can bear. PLEASE, just say you are sorry. PLEASE, just say you remember my child, if you do. PLEASE, just let me talk about my child. PLEASE, mention my child's name. PLEASE, just let me cry."
I send you each a special gift, from my heavenly home above;
I send you each a memory of my undying love.
After all "love" is the gift, more precious than pure gold,
it was always most important in the stories Jesus told.
Please love and keep each other, as my Father said to do,
for I can't count the blessing of love He has for each of you.
So, hope you had a Merry Christmas and wipe away that tear,
Remember; I spent Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
I have more that I would like to share with you. If you know how to send a e mail, send me one and I will get your e mail address that way.
You are so new in your grief and as the waves hit you, you will need some one to vent to. Please if you need to, vent to me for I will not judge any of your feelings for I do understand them all.
Your friend in grief
Jerry's mom Debra
Amanda Covish
December 17, 2001
Hi Derrick,
It's me, mom. Yesterday was Aubrey's wedding. I can't believe that you missed it. She was so beautiful and everything was just perfect, aside from the blatant fact that you weren't there. It was so strange. Last month I sat in the front of the church holding Aunt Lynn's hand staring at your coffin. Yesterday, I sat in the front holding Aunt Lynn's hand and watched Aubrey get married. Life is weird. It just goes on as if nothing has happened. I feel like I'm walking around in a heavy fog that just won't lift. I love you honey and I miss you so very much.
Mom
Irene Shotts
December 17, 2001
Amanda,
I am so sorry for your loss. Your grief is unmeasurable to what i can say. I am the mother of 4 young daughters and i cried at your letter to your son. I cried like he was my own son. If you ever want to talk or cry with a new friend, please email me.. Take care Irene
Susan Sprayberry
December 16, 2001
To:Amanda
Thanks alot for signing my neice's
legacy page it means alot...
GOD BLESS YOU,,
Susan
December 15, 2001
~*~ LETTER FROM HEAVEN ~*~
To my dearest family,
some things I'd like to say.
But first of all,
to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven.
Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness;
Here is just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy
just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I am with you
every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you
when my life on earth was through.
God picked me up and hugged me
and He said, " I welcome you.
It's good to have you back again;
you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family,
They'll be here later on.
I need you here badly,
you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do,
to help our mortal man."
God gave me a list of things,
that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list
was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night
the day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you ...
in the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth,
and all those loving years.
Because you are only human,
they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry:
it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers,
unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you all
what God has planned.
If I were to tell you,
you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain,
thought my life on earth is over.
I'm closer to you now,
than I ever was before.
There are many rocky roads ahead
for you and many hills to climb;
But together we can do it
by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy
and I'd like it for you too;
that as you give unto the world,
the world will give to you.
If you can help somebody
who's in sorrow and pain;
Then you can say to God at night...
"My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented...
that my life was worthwhile.
Knowing as I passed along the way
I made somebody smile.
So if you meet somebody
who is sad and feeling low;
Just lend a hand to pick him up,
as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street
and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps
only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go...
from that body to be free.
Remember you're not going....
you're coming here to me.
Debra Burden
December 15, 2001
Dear Mrs. Covish,
I am so sorry to read of your loss.
I also lost my son this year. He was only 14.
Please know that some one does understand what you are feeling now. If you need some one to talk to please feel free to e mail me anytime. I know how hard the "should haves,could haves" are on you. I know what kind of things you are wishing you could have done better or different.
If you would like to know about my son, he has a guest book in legacy also. Hi name is Jerry Lee Williams and we are in Florida.
I also know how important it is to find some one to talk to that you can say anything to with out fear of being juged.
Your friend in grief
Debra Burden
Keith Dennis
December 15, 2001
Derrick man,
its Keith, no one could have known this would have happend except for one man and you are with him now. i still remember going out to lunch with you man, damn i must have really wanted to leave since i had to get in youre trunck to leave. i still remember that at least you had a lot of room in there, and then you stopping at the gas station to let me out and people passing by giving me that look like i was being kid napped and i was trying to escape, that wqas classic man and i will never forget it, or you for that fact. another thing i will never forget is programming, you sat right behind me, and all i would do is turn around and screw with your mouse or turn your monitor around lol. we all knew you were the smartest programmer in 2 including orchard, but do you really think he was going to believe you made that computer game lol it was a good try though man. you wont be forgotten, neither will Ryan or Steve. you will live on in everyones heart that knew you, Love you man, and i cant wait till the day that i see you all again.
stacy putman-jones
December 14, 2001
Mark, this is stacy chrissy niece. I am so sorry to hear about derrick. He was such a pleasure to be around when we would all go camping and such. Please know that in you and youre families time of need you are in our prayers and will remain there a lifetime.
With lot's of love and prayers,
Stacy
Joe Miranda
December 13, 2001
Derrick,
Hey buddy, how's it going up there? I can't wait til I get to see you again. I think about you and Ryan and Steve every day. I miss you guys horribly. I always look to the seat in front of me in programming, hoping you'll be there one of these days. I hope I get to see you guys soon. I just wanna see your smile and hear your unique laugh. Love you man, see ya around :)
Aubrie C
December 13, 2001
To Derrick Jensen's family..
I am sorry to hear about the loss of your son. I am 15 years old and lost my 17 year old friend on November 3, 2001.. not to a car accident but a different reason. He liked to party and I guess it got out of hand and he died in his sleep. I know Matt is taking care of Derrick. Derrick also looks alot like Matt... alot.
Josephine
December 12, 2001
TO THE FAMILY OF DERRICK:i know its hard to loose some one you love and adore so very much. my bestfriend died last year in a car accident so i'm sure Josh will take good care of Derrick from reading his life story he sound s like he would get along great with josh, to help you all i have to say is don't try to forget him just go on but always remember him i talk to Josh every night before i go to bed, and every moring when i wake up just to get clouser i know its hard to take advise from someone who is only 16 but trust me i have lost 4 friends in the last year and a half so i do know what you are going through but i will pray for you and i hope you will do the same for me.
Pat Mize
December 12, 2001
I had not the pleasure on knowing Derrick, or his mom, but I have known his dad for many years. He and my baby brother Bruce hung out together. Imagine seeing Mark in Le Grand when I started working here. It was like seeing "family", what a wonderful surprise, to share stories of friends from Los Banos from long ago. Mark asked me to come to this site.
Seeing his picture reminds me so of Mark at that age. I know what a wonderful kid Marks was, and Derrick's Mark's shining star. And to his Mom, you must be one great mom...Kid's need more than just one parent, and I'm sure that child knew how much his parents loved him. How could he not? What a waste....My sympathy to both of you and your families. You were lucky to have him, but he was lucky to have you.
Pat Mize
Brenda Richards
December 12, 2001
To the Family of Derrick Jensen:
I never met Derrick, but as I was reading his life story on Legacy, I couldn't believe how much he reminded me of my son Joel Richards. Joel was 17 when he was killed in a car accident on November 20, 2001. He was an excellent student, planning to attend Cal Poly to become an architect. He too was a ninja turtle fan and began taking karate lessons at six years old. He continued on to become a second degree black belt. He was a devoted son who was very close to his family. He had a special relationship with his grandfather. He had a 12 year old sister that he was very proud of. He always looked out for her. Our family has been devistated by this tragedy. The huge amount of support and compassion from friends and family has helped us a great deal. Although we miss our son terribly, we talk about what a great child he was and what he meant to so many people.
I just wanted you to know that we are thinking of you and that your son Derrick sounded like he was a wonderful person.
SUSAN SPRAYBERRY
December 12, 2001
Hey it is me again i just thought i would tell you all my neice's legacy is under;;
TOSHA DARLENE COLLINS
If anyone is interested in looking at it or reading it,,,GOD BLESS,,
SUSAN
scott
December 11, 2001
you dont know me but i would like to send my heart out to the family of derrick i lost my little brother in june of 2001 from a bike accident he was going to be 22 in july and a new born this winter i lost the only perrson i loved but know i have his little girl to keep me in line so i just wanted to say i hurt with you
Susan Sprayberry
December 11, 2001
To Derrick's family,,
It is so sad to read all the stories about such wonderful people,
I was on here looking at my neice's page she was killed instantly in an
automobile accident on OCT.27,2000,
she was killed 1 week before she was
suppose to be married,she left behind a beautiful 2 year old little girl named Kara,,and she was only 18 she was on her way to work,,
but the hurt never goes away it's been a little over a year and it still just as bad as it was then,,her little girl is 3 now her birthday was NOV.16,,she sees pictures of her and she says ohhhh,
mommy and you can ask her where is mommy and she say mommy's with Jesus
it makes you just want to cry,,so i really feel for you all,i have a 17
year old son and i couldn't imagine
not having him around,,,so my thoughts and prayers are with you all,,i pray GOD gives you comfort in this sad time,,GOD BLESS YOU ALL.
a friend thru Jesus Christ::
susan
Megan Miller
December 11, 2001
On October 26, 2001 3 of my friends were involved in a car accident, where the right side of the car got stuck underneath a flatbed truck. Keegan Starr, 17 (junior), died that night. I was about to go to his gb when I saw Derrick's picture on legacy.com's main page...so I thought I'd see what it was for.
It's still hard to say the right thing...even after just recently experiencing it myself. Derrick sounded like a wonderful guy...someone who I would have been great friends with because, like him, I am so very easy going and friendly. From just reading the gb, he had a great, supportive family and was loved by so many. I am again amazed by the love coming from a legacy web page. Keegan is still very very sorely missed, and his family is sometimes the only strength that me and my friends (we were all in marching band together) find some days. In fact, we try to spend a few hours, once a week/two weeks over at the Starrs house...it gives Keeg's family some time to talk about the accident and about Keegan's life. His parents and his younger brother need to be around teens, his parents say. It also helps us to be with his family...and though the pain lessens a tiny amount every day...I am sooo thankful that we have had so much support through all of this. Please...those reading my message...stick by each other...stay close and love one another with all your hearts...Derrick will be remembered through stories and your own love for each other. Keegan and he sounded like they would get along really well...maybe they're friends now...and our watching over us all with an awesome amount of love :)
God Bless. Merry Christmas.
Derrick communing with Radar the Rabbit in Richmond, Virginia.
Ted and Jan Lewellen
December 10, 2001
In memory of Derrick
As distant granduncle and aunt living across the continent, for us Derrick grew up in four or five year spurts. Each visit we came away saying the same thing: "Neatest kid we ever met." He seemed to combine an openness and sincere friendliness with an interest in everything about him. Several years ago, Derrick came to visit us in Richmond, Virginia, with his grandparents, Jim and Carol. The high point of his trip here was two rabbits we keep in the living room. His enormous empathy with animals was reciprocated; the rabbits loved him, too. Our key memory of that visit was of Derrick lying on the floor having a conversation with a gray bunny as if they were old friends. That's the way Derrick will live in our minds always; a happy image of a really neat kid.
Ted and Jan Lewellen
December 10, 2001
[email protected]
December 10, 2001
My friend Carly will take care of Derrick. shes been up there for alittle over a year (november 13 00') she'll make sure he gets along up there...
Arturo Cota
December 10, 2001
I just wanted to say that i am thankful that i am able to share my thoughts with everyone and i again cant say how much i miss derrick.
He was an awesome friend.
And i thank mark for posting my words here. I hope that derrick, werever he is, is doing great and that he knows that we all miss him.
Ben Marsh
December 8, 2001
Derrick was definately the most happy person I've ever met in my whole life. I don't have any memories of Derrick angry. The guy was always smiling, every room he walked into he brought joy with him and passed it on to everyone else. Out of our group of friends Derrick probably lived the most out of all of us. He loved skiing, the ocean, computers, family and his car stereo. He has made a permanent scar in my memories and I will never forget him nor Steve and Ryan. Looking forward to meeting up with you again Derrick, Rest in Peace.
uncle BJ Jones
December 7, 2001
little dweeb as i"ve so afectionately called you for quite a while now, I watched you grow up from a tiny baby to a great young man,even as a 7 or 8 year old you displayed qualities that mature adults could be envious of, your easy and pleasant demeanor towards life and people, We never got to have that rematch at salmon fishing but thats alright as I know you probably would have caught another 20 pounder and beat me anyway, I lol when I remember that big old salmon taking you all the way around that big fishing boat and all the fisherman raised there poles and lines as you and that big old salmon went by, only to get back to your spot where you hooked him and finally brought him in what a thrill it was watching the look on your face when you saw the size of him, I knew then that you were a blessed child, An earthly angel,I will deeply miss teasing and wrestling around with you, when you and your dad come over or I stop to see you guys, I will always remember and love you, Hey its pretty cool that we have computers even in the swamps now huh lol.watch over your parents and grand parents in this rough time and alway, as I know in my heart that you already are, the lord has certainly received a wonderful angel in you loving memories B.J.....
Arturo Cota
December 7, 2001
In memory of Derrick,
Words can't express the pain I feel for his death. It's hard sometimes for me to except what has happened to a dear friend and I know I am not the only one.
People tell me that it's God's choice of who dies, but if it were my choice.. I would give my life, my every last breath to him so he could live and be whatever he wanted to be in life.
Derrick was so smart and could haven taken any dream that he wanted and turned it into a reality.
The possibilities there for him had no limit. Sometimes I wish god had made a mistake somewhere and would correct it by bringing him back. But.. there's nothing we can do to erase what has happened. The only thing we can do is prey for him and say our last goodbyes. I will miss him dearly and I know that he is in a better place now. He will always be in our hearts forever. We'll miss you Derrick. You'll always be number one.
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