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Jason Gregory Rubin

Jason Rubin Obituary

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Rubin, Jason Gregory, 34, of Wellington, died Saturday. Menorah Gardens and Funeral Chapel, West Palm Beach.

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Published by The Palm Beach Post on Mar. 22, 2006.

Memories and Condolences
for Jason Rubin

Sponsored by Robbie Rubin (Mother).

191 Entries

Robbie

March 2, 2025

My dear Jason,

I cannot believe March 9th would be your 53rd birthday. Although gone nineteen years, it seems like just yesterday. Every morning I wake up to a large picture of you with Nanny which is one of my favorite possessions. I often have conversations as if you were actually hearing me. I pray I could start over being the mother you deserved. I wish I made you my priority, told you often how much I loved you, hugged you constantly, had more patience, read you bedtime stories and fulfilled all your needs. I always loved you with all my heart and since your passing I still feel the pain and emptiness.

June 16th will be Larry and my 20th anniversary. If you had the opportunity to know him better, you also would have loved and respected him. I always think of my second bedroom as yours and Nanny´s and although often think of changing it to a den, it remains the same. I miss you more than words cannot express and will never be the same. Hope you, Nanny and Pa Pa George are together and someday I will also be with you.

Last weekend visited Aunt Elayne. David is not well and cannot drive. I only get to see them about twice a year. Larry drives me as I am not comfortable driving that distance. I do keep in touch with Jeff and Lindsay but unfortunately not Aunt Terri. Uncle Steve is also not well and Jeff´s African Grey Frédérique passed away. He has so much love to give so am hoping he gets another bird.

My life is very quiet and look forward to seeing Larry on weekends. Occasionally go out with friend but basically am comfortable staying home.

Staring at your pictures on my bedroom wall which makes me smile. You re always in my heart and thoughts.

All my love forever, MOM

Robbie

March 3, 2024

Robbie

March 3, 2024

Robbie

March 3, 2024

My two favorite canvas pictures of Jason and Nanny.

Robbie

March 3, 2024

Robbie

March 3, 2024

Robbie

March 3, 2024

Attached are my two favorite canvas prints of you and Nanny.

Robbie Rubin

March 3, 2024

My Sweet Jason,

Happy upcoming 52nd Birthday! I know I did not show or express it enough, but I loved you with all my heart. If only I could do everything over again. I would have more patience, praise you more, express my love both physically and mentally and always make you my priority. It was such a difficult period for me and my self-esteem was very low. I think of you and miss you every day.

I have enlarged canvas prints of you and Nanny on my bedroom wall. First thing I see when I wake up, relax in my room and go to sleep. These pictures bring a smile to my face but also remind me how empty I feel without you. I always hold on to and treasure the beautiful memories, although I do not think I will ever reach the acceptance stage. My heart will always be empty.

During the week I basically relax, eat out with friends and on weekends I am with Larry. I wish you had the opportunity to share more time with him. He loves me very much and lifts my spirits.

Hopefully I can plan another trip with friends as Larry is unable to travel because of health reasons. I really enjoy traveling except for flying. England and Switzerland are still on my bucket list. Last year took a European Viking Cruise with Larry´s daughter. We had a wonderful time visiting several countries and the weather and food were great.

Sending all my love,

MOM

Robbie Rubin

March 3, 2023

Dearest Jason,

I have attached some family photos I thought you would enjoy. A recent picture of Aunt Elaine, Brett and family, Larry and me in Europe several years ago, Aunt Terri and Uncle Steve, Lindsey and Jeff and a heartwarming picture of you and Alyse.

All my love,
MOM

Robbie Rubin

March 3, 2023

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Robbie Rubin (MOM)

March 3, 2023

Dearest Jason,

Hard to believe that March 9th you will be 51 and have been gone 17 years. The emptiness in my heart still remains. I look at your pictures daily and imagine how would life be if you were here today. Would you be happily married with children? I really cherish the happy loving times we shared. I hope you know how much I loved you.

The Coach Diner is where I met Larry and also where I received the news of your passing. Larry mentions going back there but it would only bring back those devastating memories. I wanted so much to bury you in our family plot in New Jersey where I had a reserved spot for you. In respect for Grandma Lotta and dad, I agreed on a Florida burial.

I rarely see Aunt Elaine as since her cancer she does not travel and David is now on daily dialysis. Thankfully, she has been in remission over 8 years. Larry and I did visit her a few weeks ago and we speak daily.

I love my home and find enjoyment in decorating, although all areas are now full. The second bedroom was for you and Nanny but remains empty.

Miss you more than words can ever express and your pictures are everywhere. They are my most valuable possessions.

Love, Hugs and Kisses,
MOM

Robbie Rubin

March 4, 2022

Dearest Jason,

Happy upcoming 50th Birthday. Cannot believe it has been sixteen years since your passing. I never stop missing you and hope you know my love was unconditional. Life has to go on, but there will always be a big hole in my heart.

This past year at Sloan has been very hectic: Four operations, biopsies, lab work, blood clot, follow-ups, etc. Although the doctors surmised worse, fortunately the masses were not malignant and clot has dissolved. I am now scheduled to have my cataracts removed. All part of getting older but grateful for good health.

Thankfully Larry is very supportive and I can always rely on him. In addition, I have some good friends in my building. My second bedroom remains the same. I refuse to re-decorate as it was created for you and Nanny and holds dear memories.

My European Viking Cruise is now questionable as my friend backed out leaving me with almost a $7000 voucher. She took out cheap Viking insurance which left me with too much of a loss to cancel. Presently I have nobody with whom to travel but have two years to reschedule. Larry is going through his own health problems, so I cannot depend on him. The person who planned the trip met a boyfriend and that took preference over her obligation to me.

The COVID pandemic is improving, but we are still cautious and wearing masks. In addition, there is now a war going on between Russia and the Ukraine. The death toll and destruction is climbing and I feel so sorry for the Ukrainian civilians. I honestly do not know when it will be safe to travel.

Do not know what happens when we pass, but hope someday we will connect. In any event, you will always hold a dear place in my heart and I was so blessed and proud to be your mom. My insecurities and lack of patience prevented me from being a better mom, but under the circumstances I did my best. Love you more than words can ever express.

MOM xoxoxo

Robbie Rubin

March 9, 2021

My dear Jason,

Happy 49th Birthday in Heaven. Unfortunately my original writing was not displayed so wanted to update you. This morning I read a beautiful heartwarming post on FB from Cousin Jon. It brought tears to my eyes.

Due to COVID, I had to cancel my European trip. The past year has been very difficult for everyone. I have barely left my home and we are mandated to wear masks and encouraged to constantly wash or sanitize our hands. I know several people who have passed due to this horrific pandemic. I have already had my first vaccine and second is three weeks apart. Looking forward to better times ahead.

In addition to COVID, after a bad fall in my kitchen, a CT revealed two masses, thyroid and neck. I feel great so the accident was a blessing. I will have to have my right thyroid removed but the doctors are more concerned with the neck. This Thursday I am scheduled for a biopsy so a little stressed. I have a lot of confidence with the doctors at Sloan; in fact, they saved Aunt Elaine’s life when she had aggressive leukemia. It has been six years and she is doing great.

Nicole has been a real blessing. She is the one who registered me with Sloan and did the legwork. She also drives me to all doctor appointments and accommodates me during appointments and procedures. She does it out of her heart and expects nothing in return. I am so grateful for her guidance and assistance.

I am still with Larry and he has been very supportive. I am so happy you had the opportunity to meet him. I cannot believe we have been partners for sixteen years.

Wish I could be with you to share your special day but you are always with me is my heart and thoughts. ❤❤❤

Love, MOM

Robbie Rubin

March 5, 2021

Dearest Jason,

A few days ago I posted on your guest book wishing you a Happy Birthday and keeping you updated. To date I have not seen my memory posted but just wanted you to know I would never forget your special day. You are always in my heart and thoughts and I miss you now as much as the day you passed.

Love, MOM ❤❤❤

Jason and mom

Robbie Rubin

March 1, 2020

Dear Jason,

It is Sunday afternoon and staring at my family wall. I am going to take pictures and try to post.

May 11th, I leave for my European tour. Right now there is an epidemic of the Coronavirus which is affecting the travel business. I certainly hope by my scheduled departure there is a cure and everything is back to normal.

Happy upcoming birthday. If here, would you be happily married, children, living back with me? Just wish I could hold you tight and tell you how much you are loved. Hope you are together with Nanny, Pa Pa George, grandma, Buddy and the rest of our family. I keep in touch with Aunt Darlene and Jon on Face Book. Kellie had twins (girl and boy) last year so now a family of seven.

Love and miss you so much, Mom

Mom, Dad and Jason

March 1, 2020

Jason and me

March 1, 2020

Mom and Jason

March 1, 2020

Beautiful memories

Robbie Rubin

February 27, 2020

Dearest Jason,

I would think with time the loss of you would get easier but the pain always lingers. I recently blew up 11 x 14 pictures of Nanny, Pa Pa George, you and me which are hung in my bedroom. Every morning upon arising my eyes focus on these canvases with pride and love.

March 9th will be your 48th birthday ❤ and I wish you were here with me to celebrate. You are always in my heart and thoughts to the point of sometimes being obsessive. I pray for a vision or some connection too help fill the hole. I was not the best mom but am happy we parted on loving terms. Unfortunately, we do not get a second chance.

I recently finally ended my 15 year relationship with Larry. We had different definitions of love and he was not fulfilling my needs. I realized You find your worth within yourself and then find a man who's worthy of you. If not for making new friends and occasionally sharing time with Aunt Terri and family, I think I would be in a constant state of depression.

December was five year that Aunt Elaine has been cancer free. Since moving away, I rarely see her but we do try to speak daily. I am close to both sisters but unfortunately they are still not on good terms. Alyse and her husband recently bought a home in Ocean City to be closer to family.

I only hope some day I will be reunited with my family. I am lost without you.

Your loving Mom

Robbie Rubin

March 1, 2019

MY DEAR JASON,

HAPPY UPCOMING 47TH BIRTHDAY TO MY PRECIOUS SON. ALTHOUGH I HAVE SLACKED OFF IN WRITING, PLEASE BE ASSURED YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART AND THOUGHTS.IT HAS BEEN 13 YEARS SINCE YOUR PASSING AND I AM STILL BURDENED WITH MIXED EMOTIONS: SADNESS, ANGER, GUILT. I CONSTANTLY SEE FRIENDS POSTING THEIR CHILDREN AND GRANDCHILDREN ON FACEBOOK. ALTHOUGH I AM TRULY HAPPY FOR THEM, IT REMINDS ME OF MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU AND SETS ME BACK.THAT EMPTINESS WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ME.

ABOUT 4 MONTHS AGO, COUSINS JON AND kELLY WERE BLESSED WITH TWINS, A BOY NAMED SIMON AND A GIRL ROSIE. ONE OF THEM IS NAMED AFTER YOU AS JON LOVED YOU VERY MUCH. I WISH YOU COULD BE HERE TO SHARE IN THIS HAPPY EVENT.

I AM SO THANKFUL THAT I HAVE LARRY, AS I WOULD BE LOST WITHOUT HIM. WE BROKE UP FOR 15 MONTHS AND IT WAS AN EXTREMELY DIFFICULT YEAR. JUNE 16TH WILL BE 14 YEARS WE ARE A COUPLE AND I HAVE ENDLESS BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES. I RARELY SEE AUNT ELAINE SINCE HER ILLNESS AND UNFORTUNATELY I HAVE NOT SEEN AUNT TERRI AND HER FAMILY. MY FRIENDS ARE BUSY WITH THEIR OWN LIVES, SO LARRY REALLY LIFTS MY SPIRITS. DUE TO HIS HEALTH PROBLEMS, WE HAVE NOT BEEN TRAVELING, BUT WHATEVER WE DO, WE ENJOY EACH OTHER'S COMPANY AND I CAN ALWAYS RELY ON HIM.

JASON, DUE TO CIRCUMSTANCES, I WAS NOT THE BEST MOM, BUT I ALWAYS LOVED YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. YOU WERE THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY LIFE. EVERY TIME WE GOT TOGETHER, MY HEART WAS OVERWHELMED WITH JOY AND PRIDE. OUR VISITS WERE WAY TOO SHORT, BUT I KNOW I LEFT YOU FEELING LOVED.

YOUR LOVING MOM

Robbie Rubin

March 9, 2018

HAPPY 46TH BIRTHDAY MY PRECIOUS SON WHO I LOVE AND MISS MORE THAN WORDS CAN EVER EXPRESS. WISH I WAS WITH YOU TO SHARE THIS HAPPY OCCASION. YOU WERE ALWAYS MY WORLD AND I WILL CARRY YOU IN MY HEART FOREVER.

YOUR LOVING MOM. XOXOXO

Best days with family.

Robbie Rubin

February 26, 2018

Dear Jason,

Happy upcoming 46th Birthday! This past year has been very difficult. I ended my 12 year relationship with Larry as he was not honest about his future intentions and I was not happy being a weekend companion. In addition, I lost a dear friend of cancer and another is fighting the disease. I lacked motivation and even writing was an effort.

I harbor so much guilt and anger for ever allowing you to move to Florida. I was so over- whelmed with my own insecurities and lack of self-esteem and feel so ashamed and saddened that I was not a better mother. Whatever I said in anger was never true as you were a true blessing.

I wish I had a second chance. I would give 100% to support you emotionally, show more patience, display more affection and love. You are always in my heart and thoughts and I will never stop missing you.

I do not have many single friends but have been spending a lot of time with Aunt Terri and her family. I have not been dating as still need more time to recover. I speak to Aunt Elaine daily but since her cancer, she does not drive to Hackensack. Thankfully she is doing well.

I would give up everything to have you and Nanny back with me, but hopefully in the future I will see my family again.

It comforts me to have your pictures throughout my home. I even have one of your t-shirts that a girlfriend mailed me shortly after you passed. When I put it on, it warms my heart.

Love you more than words can express.

MOM

Robbie Rubin

March 9, 2017

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY HANDSOME, INTELLIGENT, LOVABLE SON WHO IS MISSED EVERY DAY AND LOVED MORE THAN WORDS CAN EVER EXPRESS!

Robbie Rubin

March 2, 2017

My Dear Jason,

I think of you every day and hold you dear in my heart; in spite of my lapse in writing.

First, I want to wish you a happy upcoming 45th birthday. Although you have been gone 11 years, it seems like just yesterday and the pain still lingers. Under the circumstances, I was not the best mother but always loved you unconditionally with all my heart. You and Nanny were my world and my life feels so empty without you (especially losing you both a year apart). I thought you would be better off in Florida attending a private school, in a more disciplined household and near Nanny and Pa Pa George.If I had been financially secure and able to deal with your needs, things probably would have been different. Yes, I still struggle with guilt.

Aunt Elayne is doing well, but it is still a battle for her emotionally. Larry and I saw her and Dave a few weeks ago, went to dinner and had a lovely visit. Looking at her you would never know that she was very ill.

I see Aunt Terri, Uncle Steve and her family at least every other week. Terri usually stays over and I really enjoy her company. Lately I keep busy redecorating my place. I still refer to my extra bedroom as yours and Nanny's and basically it has stayed the same.

Larry and I are doing well. We have not yet planned our yearly vacation. It is Larry's decision, so Europe is definitely out of the question. Probably it will be a cruise but still have to decide on the destination.

I have pictures of you, Nanny and family throughout my home and they are my prize possessions. I am happy for my friends and family on Facebook who brag about their children and grandchildren, but at the same time it makes me miss you more. I will love and miss you forever.

All my love, MOM xoxoxo

Dani and Aunt Elayne

Robbie Rubin

March 2, 2017

Ryder and Reese (Brett's children)

Robbie Rubin

March 2, 2017

Lindsey and Jeff

Robbie Rubin

March 2, 2017

Drew and Corinne (Sean's children)

Robbie Rubin

March 2, 2017

Larry and me

Robbie Rubin

March 2, 2017

Ethan, Eliza, Nicole & Eric. Ethan is now attending Syracuse University

Robbie Rubin

March 2, 2017

Aunt Elayne after recovery

Robbie Rubin

March 2, 2017

Brett, Terri, Alyse and Sean

Robbie Rubin

March 2, 2017

Aunt Terri and me

Robbie Rubin

March 2, 2017

Larry and me in Vienna

ROBBIE RUBIN

July 28, 2016

Dearest Jason,

Please do not think that because I haven't written that you are not in my heart and thoughts. You are always with me and even though it has been 10 years, it feels like just yesterday. I still feel empty and often lack motivation. I wish I could turn back the clock, as I certainly would have been there for you more physically and emotionally. It was such a stressful period and I was so absorbed in my own insecurities, but you were always my world. The hole in my heart will never heal and you are missed and loved more than words can ever express.

Aunt Elayne is doing well and looks fabulous. She now has over 90% of her donor's cells, a good appetite and will be starting her inoculations. It has been a long journey with several setbacks, but finally we can see a light at the end of the tunnel. She is such a fabulous sister and I love her with all my heart.

Larry and I really enjoyed our European Viking Cruise. I certainly would consider another river cruise. Prague, Hungary, Austria and Germany were beautiful and I compiled a lovely album. The picture posted was taken in Vienna where Larry and I took a horse and buggy ride. Cousin Eileen and Don joining us even made our vacation more enjoyable.

June 16th marked Larry's and my 11th anniversary. If not for him in my life, I would be totally lost. I met him so close to the loss of you and Nanny and I am so blessed for his love, friendship and support.

I have pictures of you in every room; several of you and me during your younger years and some of you and Nanny. These family pictures are some of my prize possessions.

Love you, MOM

Robbie Rubin

March 3, 2016

My dear Jason,

Holidays and special events are the most difficult. Wednesday will be your 44th birthday and I wish I could pick up the phone and say "Happy Birthday my sweet Jason; Mom loves you very much". I pray for the hurt and emptiness to go away, but it still lingers.

I am now friends with cousin Jon on FB. He asked me for Brett's phone number as he knows that you two were very close and just wanted to touch base. Darlene now has five beautiful grandchildren and I follow Jon's children on FB. It would be nice if sometime in the future we could all get together.

Aunt Elaine is doing much better. Last week she and Dani were in the area and stayed overnight. So happy she is finally seeing a light at the end of the tunnel.

Our Viking Cruise is coming up quickly. We and cousin Eileen and Don will be leaving May 10th. It has been a difficult year and I am really looking forward to our vacation.

Larry has been wonderful and I cannot believe June 16th will be eleven years we have been together. He is such a blessing and his love and support gives me so much strength.

Of course, my life will never be complete without you and Nanny. I love and miss you every day and will always carry you close to my heart.

Love always, MOM xoxoxo

Mom and Aunt Elaine

Robbie Rubin

December 21, 2015

My dear Jason,

I know it has been a while since I last wrote, but you are always in my heart and thoughts. Although Larry is wonderful and I am blessed to have such a loving partner, it does not diminish the hole in my heart since the passing of you and Nanny. My life lacks purpose and motivation and time does not seem to heal my pain.

In addition, Aunt Elaine's illness has added more stress. She is doing better, but I still worry about her every day. Now that she lives in Monroe Township, I do not see her very often but we do speak daily. Thankfully, she lives near Dani and they are very close.

Sunday was the 8th anniversary of Nanny's passing and Larry and I stopped at the cemetery. This is another reason why the holidays are difficult.

We will be spending Christmas Eve at Larry's house with his family. So happy you had the opportunity to meet him. He is such a kind caring person and I know you would have become very fond of him.

I keep in touch with Darlene on FB and just accepted a friend request from Jon. He has such a beautiful family and I know he also was very upset with your passing.

On the brighter side, we will be vacationing with cousins Eileen and Don in May. We will be taking the Viking Cruise and touring Amsterdam, Germany, Austria, Budapest and Prague. Now that Aunt Elaine is doing better, I feel more confident about leaving the country.

I pray that the future will reunite me with you, Nanny and my loved ones. Jason, you were always the highlight of my life and forgive me for the times I failed you.

Love you, MOM

Mom and Larry at Local Union 164 Christmas Party

Robbie Rubin

December 21, 2015

Cousin Nicole's family (Ethan, Nicole, Eliza and Eric)

Robbie Rubin

December 21, 2015

Me with Brett's family

Robbie Rubin

December 21, 2015

Cousin Sean's family (Corinne, Drew and Susie)

Robbie Rubin

December 21, 2015

Nicole's children Ethan and Eliza

Robbie Rubin

December 21, 2015

Mom, you and Nanny

Robbie Rubin

December 21, 2015

Mom and Aunt Elaine

Robbie Rubin

December 21, 2015

Bretty's family

Robbie Rubin

December 21, 2015

Cousins Reese and Ryder (Brett's family)

Robbie Rubin

December 21, 2015

Robbie Rubin

December 21, 2015

Robbie Rubin

June 9, 2015

Dear Jason,

Sorry I have not written sooner, but Aunt Elayne is going through a difficult recovery and I am still emotionally overwhelmed. Last few weeks she has been experiencing shingles besides dealing with other issues. I wish I could be with her during this difficult time. I feel her frustration and pain and hope she sees a light at the end of the tunnel soon.

Mother's Day is never special without you and Nanny. I went to Nanny's cemetery and wish you also could have been buried in our family plot. I miss you both every day and the emptiness in my heart will never heal.

Larry and I are meeting for dinner tomorrow night to discuss rescheduling our Viking Cruise. Because of Aunt Elaine's illness, we are aiming for mid 2016. Hopefully by then she will be recovered and able to lead a normal life. In any event, she will always be my first priority.

Everything is well with Larry and me. June 16th will be out 10th year anniversary but we are holding off celebrating because I have other commitments. I have mixed emotions of whether I want to take the next step as our relationship presently suits both our needs. He is very loving and supportive and I feel blessed to have him in my life.

Memorial Day weekend Sean and Susie invited us over for a barbeque. It was nice spending time with family and playing with the children. Aunt Terrie is so blessed to have four precious grandchildren. I want them to grow up knowing their Aunt Robbie.

I will write again soon. Love and miss you with all my heart.

Love, MOM xoxoxo

P.S. Attached is an old picture I found of you, Nanny and me.

Caring for my beautiful sister at Hope Lodge

Robbie Rubin

March 1, 2015

Dearest Jason,

March 9th will be your 43rd birthday and I cannot believe it has been nine years since your passing. Wish you were here so that we could celebrate together. You are always in my heart and thoughts.

Sorry you have not heard from me sooner but most of my time has been spent in the city as Aunt Elaine's caregiver. I know she is so thankful for my and Aunt Dani's help and support. I love her unconditionally and it warms my heart to be able to participate as her caregiver. At this point I do not know when she will be able to return home, but her stats are good and most of the time seems in good spirits.

I would have stayed longer but have some doctor appointments and Larry's son moved up their wedding to March 14th, as they are expecting a baby July 24th (Aunt Elaine's birthday). If Elaine is still at Hope Lodge, I will definitely return at the end of March.

This has been the worst winter. It seems to snow constantly and the temperature is bitter cold. In fact, It is snowing now so am happy Larry picked me up in the city early this morning.

I will never get over the loss of you and Nanny and Aunt Elaine's illness has added more emotional stress. She has a long road ahead, but I am looking forward to her recovery.

Aunt Darlene sent me a picture of Lotta in bed holding Buddy. It really touched my heart.

I always carry pictures in my wallet of you, Nanny and Pa Pa George and am so proud to share them with friends and family.

Goodby for now my precious son,

Love you, MOM

ROBBIE RUBIN

November 14, 2014

My dear Jason,

Sorry I have not written sooner but have been so emotionally overwhelmed with Aunt Elayne's illness. She is doing well but treatment is a long process. At the end of this month she will start testing for bone marrow transplant, then chemo followed by month in hospital and then 90 days in special housing in city requiring supervision. Family members, including me and Aunt Terri, will take turns staying with her.

I wanted so much to be a donor but did not qualify due to recent melanoma diagnosis. Aunt Terri was a match and offered to donate but was denied due to past blood clots. I have not seen Aunt Terri since Sean's wedding but do miss her and our happy times together. We have our differences but she has a good heart and I do love her very much.

Larry and I cancelled our Viking Cruise due to Aunt Elayne's illness and cousin Eileen was diagnosed with blood clots. We will reschedule when Aunt Elayne has completed her treatments and is in good health.

Larry's son just got engaged and the wedding is June 26, 2015. We were suppose to take the next step in our relationship on June 16, 2015 (our 10th year anniversary), but have to put it off a little longer. I am so thankful to have Larry in my life as he is a wonderful companion and has so many admirable qualities.

My heart will never heal completely from the loss of you and Nanny. I thought things could not get any worse and now I am completely devoted to Aunt Elayne's recovery.

Miss you with all my heart.

Love, MOM

ROBBIE RUBIN

November 14, 2014

Aunt Elayne

Robbie Rubin

August 19, 2014

Dear Jason,

I recently completed my visits with the wound specialist as my melanoma incision has finally closed. I am now trying to catch up with all the doctor appointments that I had to put on hold.

Shortly after Aunt Elayne's 73rd birthday, she was diagnosed with AML (Leukemia). She has been in the hospital undergoing treatment and will not be able to return home for a few weeks. She is not only my sister but also my best friend and I love her with all my heart. I wish that I could stay with her but she needs her rest and is very susceptible to infection. It makes me very happy that Aunt Terri and her family have called her in the hospital.

My trip is two months away and I cannot even look forward to our vacation. Right now Aunt Elayne is my main focus and it depends on the progress of her recovery. I have always been able to rely on her and she was with me when I had the pulmonary embolism and melanoma. Larry and I try to visit with her weekly. I also speak with her every morning and evening as she is exhausted from the chemo and I do not want to disturb her rest.

Last weekend we got together with Larry's family to celebrate his birthday. It is nice to share in happy occasions, but my heart was also focused on Aunt Elayne.

Of course I will never stop missing you and Nanny as family is everything to me.

Love you with all my heart.

MOM

Sean's family (Susie, Corinne and Drew)

Robbie Rubin

June 22, 2014

Dear Jason,

Attached is a picture of Sean's family.
Visited with Larry and me a few weeks ago and we had a great time. Corinne was very active and inquisitive, but I enjoyed bonding with her. Of course Drew is also adorable but still much too young to interact. I can see a strong resemblance with you and Sean. Wish you were here to also bond with your great-niece and nephews.

Miss you everty day.

Love, MOM

Sean's wife Susie with Corinne and Drew

Robbie Rubin

June 22, 2014

Robbie Rubin

June 22, 2014

Dear Jason,

Miss you every day. Often wonder what I could have done differently, but rehashing is certainly not healthy. I try to concentrate on the happy memories.

I spent a few days with Aunt Elayne while David was in Englewood Hospital having an operation. I always treasure our time together. David is now home and doing well. Hope by now you have forgiven him for the punisment!

Larry and I just returned from Caesars in Atlantic City where we celebrated our 9th anniversary. We had a great time inspite of our losses. On the way home we stopped at Larry's cousins' summer home and went out for a delicious dinner (pretzel coated salmon). As Nanny always said "feed her and she is yours". Think you took after me in that category.

I am still seeing the wound specialist and my incision is about 95% healed. I always try to remember to use sun block and stay out of the sun.

I am really looking forward to our Viking Cruise. It is only four months away and the time is going quickly. This time I will be prepared with warmer clothing and an antibiotic in case I become ill. I am always apprehensive about flying, but will take a sedative and probably sleep through most of the flight. I know you visited Thailand and that is also on my future agenda.

Love you with all my heart.

MOM

June 22, 2014

Reese and Ryder Tushingham

Robbie Rubin

May 5, 2014

Dear Jason,

Sunday is Mother's Day which is always difficult for me. Nicole invited us to her home and, of course, in my heart you and Nanny will be with me. She and her family spent the last year raising a lab, Beulah, for the Seeing Eye. They had to return Beulah after a year, but being she did not pass her test, she is now back home with them. Elisa and Ethan are thrilled. In addition, they are getting another lab to train and I am already wondering what happens if she also fails.

I will also have the opportunuty to share time with Aunt Elayne, Dani and Lexi. Cannot remember the last time I saw Jeff and have not even met Sean's son Drew. I do keep in touch with Brett, Kim, Sean and Susie on FB. I enjoy that they share pictures of their family and daily browse the site. When I see Sean's family in the next few weeks will send an updated picture. I attached a recent photo of Reese and Ryder. Ryder looks exactly like Brett.

I have not done much the past six weeks as I had to have surgery on my leg for melanoma. Unfortunately I needed a few operations to get all the margins and the wound did not heal. Actually looks like a shark bit my leg. I am now seeing a wound specialist a few days a week and am slowly on my way to recovery. I have to see the oncologist twice a year for the next few years but better to be safe. It has been stressful but I am now in much better spirits.

We finally booked our two week Viking Cruise. We will be leaving October 20th and are traveling with cousin Eileen and Don. Larry and Don get along very well so we have been getting together monthly. We will be touring Amsterdam, Germany, Austria, Prague and Budapest.

The loss of you and Nanny still weighs heavily on my heart, but at least you are both at peace. I could never stand to see you and Nanny unhappy or in pain and would give up everything to have you both back. Still miss my family with all my heart.

Love you, MOM

Robbie Rubin

March 9, 2014

My dear Jason,

Today would be your 42nd birthday and in my heart we are celebrating this special day. I have saved several of your correspondence when you were away at camp. Recently while reading your cards I could not help but chuckle. For example, "Toobrush fall down toilet. Need new toobrush." Your counselor wrote me that he made a deal with you that you could eat all you want but had to limit your candy. "He can really put down the candy". You certainly take after your mom! Another time when you had pink eye, you wrote: "Hope you are ok. I am not too good here". I felt your sadness. You also made me a beautiful Mother's Day card. You were always my adorable precious Jason and I treasure the memories.

Dani stayed over last month. I really enjoyed her company. My friend Sharon also stopped by and we had a blast. I have not laughed that much in a long time.

Cannot wait for spring. This has been a bad winter so a good portion of the time just stayed home and pampered myself.

Elayne and David have returned home from Florida. I miss her so much and looking forward to getting together in the near future.

Have A Great "B" day.

Love and miss you.

MOM

Great-nephew Drew Tushingham

Robbie Rubin

February 12, 2014

Dearest Jason,

Happy Valentine's Day to my precious son. Cannot believe the 8th year of your passing is approaching as well as your 42nd birthday. Just posted on FB my favorite picture of you and Nanny and expressed how the pain still lingers. I so wish I had the opportunity to grow with you, especially since I had the time to share after my retirement. Although we both did not always make the best choices, I know you are aware of how much I loved you.

I have not yet had the opportunity to visit with Sean's family since the birth of Drew, but I have attached a picture that I took off FB. Poor Drew has had some medical problems, but last time I spoke to Sean, Drew's health was improving.

I have not been going out much lately. The weather has been miserable. This is one of the worst winters in years - extremely cold and constant snow.

They are rennovating our lobby, but it seems like it is taking forever. The electric doors are expected beginning of March, so the decorating will probably not be completed until sometime in April. I wish that the construction was started earlier, so we would not be rennovating in the cold of winter. Cannot wait for the finished results and hopefully this will improve the value of our building.

Dani has a doctor's appointment the end of this month, so she will be staying overnight. Wish she could bring Lexi, but no animals allowed in our co-op.

I really miss Aunt Elayne and hope she will visit shortly after she returns from Florida. If not, Larry and I will take a ride so that I can share some sisterly love.

Yesterday I called the travel agent to get information for our vacation on the River Boat Cruise to Austria. I love traveling abroad, although Larry isn't as enthusiastic; he rather travel within the states.

I love and miss you more than words can ever express.

Love, MOM

Me with Brett and Family

Robbie Rubin

December 16, 2013

Dearest Jason,

Cannot believe Christmas is just about a week away. This is always a very difficult time for me. Aunt Elayne and Dave just left for Florida for three months and in the last year two very dear friends moved away.

I spent a few days at Aunt Elayne's while Dave was away with friends. We also stopped at Dani's. Lexi is so adorable and loves to get dressed in dog outfits. Of course she is spoiled, but this is Dani's baby.

Enjoy staying at home when the weather starts getting chilly. We had snow this past weekend and are expecting more tomorrow. Larry gets me out on weekends as he prefers to keep busy.

Thanksgiving Brett and the family stopped by and I really enjoyed bonding with Reese and Ryder. The boys are so adorable. Attached is a picture of me with Brett and his family.

October 2014 will be a busy month. Besides Larry and I getting married, we are looking forward to taking the River Boat Cruise through Austria with Cousin Eileen and Don. In fact, we will be seeing them this coming Sunday and I will have the opportunity to bond with their gtrandchildren.

I have not yet seen Sean and Susie's new son Drew. Things are a little hectic with two babies, but I am looking forward to an invitation after the holidays.

The lobby of my co-op has been under rennovation the past few months. Hopefully the decorating will be completed by the end of February. I really enjoy living here and my place is now completely updated.

Never stop missing you and the rest of my family.

Love, MOM

Eliza's Bat Mitzvah

Robbie Rubin

November 28, 2013

Dear Jason,

The picture I posted is from Ethan's Bar Mitzvah, so I am re-posting one from Eliza's celebration. You can see that they both grew into beautiful young adults.

In my next correspondence to you, I will post Sean and family. Corinne looks exactly like Sean; I have only seen pictures of the baby, so it is difficult to tell at this early stage. Sometimes when I look at Sean, I can see a resemblance to you. Others have also commented that you resemble each other. Goodlooking and smart like you!

Will write soon again.

Love, MOM

Eliza's Bat Mitzvah

ROBBIE RUBIN

November 28, 2013

Dear Jason,

Happy Thanksgiving. I miss and think of you, Nanny and Pa Pa George often, but the holidays are extremely difficult. Today we are going to Larry's house and his son and girlfriend are sharing the cooking. She is a gourme cook, so the dinner should be great. Brett and the family are in New Jersey, so I am hoping to see them and Sean's family. Their son, Drew, was born October 30th and I am looking forward to bond with my great-niece and nephews. I am so grateful I had the opportunity to be a mother and have Nanny for over 92 years, but the pain and emptiness still lingers.

Eliza's Bat Mitzvah was beautiful. Nicole and Eric did such a great job in raising their children. They are busy with friends, studies and their activities, but I cherish any time I can share with them.

Many of my friends are retired and moving away. Although I wish them the best, I will miss them very much.

Cannot believe my 70th birthday just passed. Larry threw me a little surprise party and bought me a new HP 23" all in one desk computer. My best friend Mary, who moved from Paramus to York, treated Larry and me to dinner at Mohonk Mountain House in New Paltz. Cannot believe how quickly the years fly, especially as we get older.

Sunday Aunt Elayne will pick me up and take me to her house for a few days. She and David are getting ready to go to Florida for a three months, so I am looking forward to spending time with her, Dani and Lexi.

Seems like we skipped fall this year. The weather went from warm to cold and windy. They did forecast hazardous weather conditions for the holiday, but fortunately turned out to be not as bad.

I just finished my holiday shopping. I did most of it online as I really dislike dealing with the mall crowds and parking conditions. I cannot believe that Thanksgiving and Chanukah came out the same day this year.

You are always with me.

Love you, MOM

November 28, 2013

Nanny and PaPa George

September 25, 2013

Nanny and Jeff

September 25, 2013

Nicole, Eric, Eliza & Ethan

September 25, 2013

Sean, Susie and Corinne

September 25, 2013

Nanny and Alyse

September 25, 2013

Aunt Elayne and Dani

September 25, 2013

Jason and Nanny

Robbie Rubin

September 25, 2013

Dear Jason,

Wanted to post to this message the "Two people I love with all my heart and will never stop missing". This is my favorite possession. Thank you Dani for this photo which is so precious to me.

Love you, MOM

Adorable Corinne (1 year)

Robbie Rubin

September 25, 2013

Dear Jason,

Larry and I decided to take the next step in our relationship. We have now been happily together for over eight years and are looking forward to getting married October 2014. We will probably look for a home in Florida to escape the cold weather.

This past Sunday Larry and I were invited to Sean and Susie's new home in Demarest, N.J. We enjoyed their warm hospitality and a lovely dinner. I was so grateful to also have the opportunity to bond with Corinne, who was named after Nanny. They are also expecting a baby boy in November who they named Drew. Larry and Sean got along so well and I loved playing with Corinne. She is so cute and smart and hilarious when she mimics Sean's expressions.

Eliza's Bat Mitzvah is approaching so quickly. It is a week from this Saturday and Dani will be staying over Friday night. Cousin Eileen and Don will be at our table, which is great as we all get along very well. In fact, they may be going to Austria with us October 2014.

As you know, my big "70th" birthday is coming up and Larry bought me a 23" all in one HP computer. The one I have now is so antiquated, extremely slow and I am constantly having problems. In addition, the larger monitor will be easier on my eyes. Larry's daughter, who teaches computer programming, is going to set it up and backload my information.

Cousin Barbara and Roy are coming up for a wedding, so we plan to get together. The wedding is the same weekend as the Bat Mitzvah, but they are flying in a week earlier.

I think of you often and treasure all the beautiful memories. The picture of you and Nanny, which I posted to your gallery, is my favorite. I enlarged, framed and hung it on my bedroom wall along with other family pictures portrayed throughout my home.

Goodby for now my sweet Jason,

Love, MOM

Brett, Kim, Ryder and Reese

September 25, 2013

Mom with Sean and family

September 25, 2013

Jason and Nanny

September 25, 2013

Sean and family

September 25, 2013

Robbie Rubin

August 28, 2013

My Dear Jason,

Just celebrated Larry's 72nd birthday at Caesars in Atlantic City. We were fortunate to have beautiful weather and upgraded to a lovely room in the newer section. The only machine I really play is the Wheel of Fortune and although I did not win, I enjoyed the thrill. Larry always matches my bets or gives me extra money to gamble as he enjoys watching me have fun on the machines.

Sean and Susie purchased a home in Demarest. Corinne, who is named after Nanny, looks exactly like Sean and they are looking forward to the birth of their son, Drew, in November. It will be nice having the children so close.

It is unfortunate that things did not work out with me and dad, as I know it did have a strong effect on you. I would have loved for you to have siblings. Although I wanted you to have a better life, I often have regret about allowing you to go to Florida. Unfortunately, I was not in a position to give you what you needed and everything I did was out of love.

Eliza's Bat Mitzvah is coming up October 5th. The reception will be at Dimora Ristorante in Norwood. The children have grown into beautiful young adults. Ethan is into sports and Eliza is very artistic just like her mom.

Eliza's Bat Mitzvah project is to raise and train a golden lab, Beulah, for the blind. She is so adorable and although for a good cause, they unfortunately they will have to give her back at the end of the year.

I have reached the acceptance stage of the loss of you and mom. Even thugh I am passed the crying stage, I miss you both and think of you every day. The emptiness will always be there, but hopefully some day we will all be together.

When I purchased my co-op, I insisted on two bedrooms mainly for you and nanny. Most of the time this room stays empty, but in my heart will always belong to my loved ones.

Love always, MOM

Robbie Rubin

June 30, 2013

My Dear Jason,

Larry and I had a great time in France. I especially enjoyed Nice. The towns are so quaint with cobble stone streets, flowered balconies and intricate stone work. The only disadvantage was that there was a cold front and it was very windy. Being we toured the last week of May, we brought only summer clothes.

All renovations on my home are completed. I changed the wood flooring more to my liking, upgraded all molding, replaced all carpeting, etc. Wish you could be hers to enjoy my home with me.

As I mentined on several occasions, time was not really easing my pain. I think because I am still having difficulty reaching the acceptance stage. I am putting forth a lot of effort to concentrate on the happy times and realize that my loved onces are now in a better place. When I can accept this, I can then proceed to live my life to it fullest.

Everyone is well. I do not get to see Aunt Elayne often, but I try to speak to her daily. I also try to keep in touch with Dani, Sean, Brett and Alyse. Nicole does include us during the Jewish holiday and special occasions. Larry and I started socializing occasionally with Cousin Eileen and Don. Family is so special to me, so I try to keep a close relationship.

I see Larry's children on special occasions, but wish we had a closer relationship. Maybe if I had met them at a much younger age, things would have been different. They were already adults when their mom passed and I know it was vey difficult for them, especiaslly Larry, Jr. They are happy for Larry and me and from what Larry says they like me very much.

Of course I will always miss my family and hopefully someday we will all be together. I have been so blessed and am grateful for such a loving family.

Love and kisses, MOM

Robbie Rubin

May 18, 2013

Dear Jason,

Just completed my home renovations. Although I was extremely upset at the time of the damage, the insurance money gave me the opportunity to update my place. Even though it was a great inconvenience, I am extremely pleased with the finished results. I chose darker wood floors, replaced carpet in both bedrooms and upgraded moldings throughout my place. In addition, I had moldings, doors and window frames repainted white and against the darker wood floors, it looks great.

Thursday Larry and I will be leaving for France and Barcelona. I am excited and nervous at the same time. I have always been apprehensive about flying. Every year we plan one big trip. Next year cousin Eileen will be joining us on our tour of Austria.

I miss you and Nanny every day and Mother's Day was very difficult for me. Although they say time helps heal, in my case it does not seem to apply. Thankfully, Larry helps to motivate me on those days I am so overwhelmed with the loss of my loved ones.

Love always,

MOM

ROBBIE RUBIN

March 9, 2013

Dearest Jason,

Could not let this day pass without wishing you a "Happy 41st Birthday". Special dates like today make your loss even more difficult. Hopefully some day I will be celebrating special occasions with all my loved ones.

I try to keep a close relationship with your cousins, but they all have their busy lives. I was upset when Aunt Elayne moved, so unfortunately I do not get to see her very often. I am fortunate to be close with Dani; in fact, she stayed overnight a few weeks ago when in the area for a doctor's appointment. I am also blessed to have great friends and everything is great with Larry. We are looking forward to our France and Barcelona vacation in May.

Love and miss you more than words can express.

MOM

ROBBIE RUBIN

February 28, 2013

Dear Jason,

The years seem to fly by and you are now approaching your 41st birthday. Cannot believe you have already been gone seven years. I joined Facebook, but to be honest, although I applaud friends and family who brag about their children and grandchildren, it makes me miss you even more. As much as I try, nothing compensates for that empty feeling. Although I cannot hold and shower you with love, please be reassured you will forever hold a special place in my heart and many fond pictures of you adorn my home. Although way to brief, I am blessed that I experienced motherhood and was left with many happy memories.

The past few weeks have been quite hectic. The pipe to my icemaker busted and flooded most of my home. I was busy getting estimates and just settled with the insurance company. All my wood floors, carpet in second bedroom, wainscoating in kitchen and all moldings have to be replaced.

On the positive side, Larry and I just booked our May vacation to France and Barcelona. If everything goes well, next year We are looking forward to touring Austria and maybe Switzerland. I really do enjoy traveling, but am not very fond of flying. A few drinks prior to boarding helps to relieve the fear.

Please look after Nanny and Pa Pa George and, of course, do not forget Oliver.

Love and miss you, MOM

Robbie Rubin

December 8, 2012

Dear Jason,

Happy Hanukkah. Once again the holidays have approached and although I try to concentrate on happy memories, sadly the loss of my loved ones still weigh heavily on my heart.

For your friend that left a little note in your Guestbook Dec. 5th, I would like to thank you for keeping my dear son in your heart and thoughts.

I recently joined Facebook and have already reconnected with many friends I added you, Nanny and Pa Pa George to my timeline(in memory of my loved ones) and included several meaningful pictures. Jon now has a couple of children and Darlene is constantly downlading pictures of them. What a proud grandmother.

Everything is going well with Larry and me. We plan on traveling to France or Austria in April or May. Cousin Eileen and Don expressed a desire to join us. I love traveling abroad as the history is mesmerizing.

Wish you were here so that I could shower you with love. Hope you are resting in peace with Nanny and Pa Pa George.

I love you with all my heart.

MOM

December 5, 2012

i miss you rube, i hope you are in a better place now.

ROBBIE RUBIN

October 16, 2012

Dearest Jason,

Yesterday my friend Sharon and I visited Aunt Elaine and Cousin Dani. Dani gave me a beautiful picture of Nanny and you. Today I enlarged the photo and put it in a lovely frame which hangs in my bedroom. You are so handsome and Nanny looks beautiful as usual. I could not believe the resemblance between her and me. I also have the picture displayed on the face of my cell phone. It is now one of my most treasured possessions.

Alyse sent me a picture of Susie and Sean's baby girl. She is so adorable.

It has been over six years since you passed and I often think that if you were still here, I would have made every effort to make up for our lost time apart. I realize it is not healthy to dwell on the past, but losing you still weights heavily on my heart.

Retirement is not great without the opportunity to share it with you and Nanny. My weekends and holidays are occupied with Larry and during the week I share with friends, attend to household responsibilities, enjoy time alone and love shopping and decorating my home.

Rest in peace my dear son and remember you will always hold a warm precious place in my heart.

Love always,
MOM

ROBBIE RUBIN

August 8, 2012

Dearest Jason,

Last weekend Cousin Eileen and Don invited us to spend the weekend at her country home. Larry and Don get along extremely well and it gave us the opportunity to bond. We went to dinner with a few other couples and then to a show in their community. Sunday we went to a museum and then took the boat out on the lake. The weather was not that great, but we still had a lovely weekend.

This weekend we will be spending the weekend with Larry's daughter, Robin, and her husband Todd. We usually stop off at Peddler's Village and the outlets on the ride to Pennsylvania. Robin and I will probably do some shopping and antiquing while the men work around the house. We will return home early Sunday, as Elayne and Dani will be staying over Sunday night, as they both have doctor appointments on Monday.

June 16th is Larry's birthday and we will celebrate by spending a few days in Atlantic City. I am not a big gambler, but I do enjoy occasionally playing the slots. Larry looks forward to the buffets.

A few months ago, I reconnected with my childhood friend, Mary. We attended college together, but unfortunately lost contact. She recently sold her house in Paramus and moved upstate. A few weeks ago I stayed at her new home and helped her paint and enjoyed some antiquing in New Paltz, N.Y. Although it has been fifty years since we resumed our friendship, it feels like just yesterday.

September Cousin Sean and his wife Susie are expecting a baby girl. I am grateful that they are naming her Corinne after Nanny. My thoughts always drift into memories of you, Nanny and Pa Pa George. Don't think I will ever feel whole.

You will forever be in my heart and thoughts. Words can never express how much I miss you and my family.

Take care my sweet Jason.

Love, MOM

ROBBIE RUBIN

June 30, 2012

My dear Jason,

Larry and I just returned from our Bahama cruise. We had priority accommodations which entitled us to many upgrades including: large cabin and huge outside deck; restaurant upgrades; special invitations by the captain; daily room appetizers; precedence in boarding and departing ship; etc. The weather was great, food superb and shows fantastic. Unfortuantely,I caught a bad cold a few days out, but we still had a wonderful and rememberable vacation.

Wednesday we are invited to a July 4th party by Larry's daughter Robin's in-laws. We also went last yeat and had an enjoyable time.

Aunt Elayne and Danielle will be coming up in August for doctor appointments and will stay overnight. I am sure we will stop at Nicole's to see Eliza and Ethan. They have gotton so big and I always enjoy sharing time with them. I would love for Dani to bring Lexi, but unfortunately my co-op does not allow any dogs.

July 3rd is Nanny's birthday and Sunday I plan to go to the cemetery. How I wish you could have been buried with our family, especially because that will also be my resting place. I still miss my family more than words can express and know my heart will never heal completely.

In life we take so many things for granted. I always anticipated my retirement would be filled with numerous pleasurable times with you and Nanny. It saddens me that I was robbed of that experience.

You are always in my heart and thoughts, especially when I see mothers with their children and grandchildren. I will always cherish our happy memories.

All my love, MOM

ROBBIE RUBIN

April 8, 2012

Dear Jason,

I spent Passover again this year at Nicole and Eric's home. Although we do not get together very often, I feel a special bond and adore her family. I really admire and respect their good family values and always look forward to sharing time with Eliza and Ethan. The other day we had a heart-to-heart conversation; it was so enlightening. She encouraged me that it is unhealthy to continually hold on to the past, so I will attempt to let go of the negative and harbor only the beautiful memories. Of course, I always look forward to bonding with Aunt Elayne. When she moved from Hillsdale, especially with the loss of Nanny, I missed her terribly. Every year I look forward to my weekly visit.

Everything is well with Larry and me. I cannot believe that June 16th will be our 7th year anniversary. We are planning a Bahama cruise in celebration of this happy event.

Hope you, Nanny, Pa Pa George are all well and Oliver is not hogging the bed.

Love,Mom

ROBBIE RUBIN

March 2, 2012

Dearest Jason,

March 9th is your 40th birthday and how I wish I could be celebrating this big day with you. This time of year is always very difficult for me.

Aunt Elayne and Danielle are coming for an overnight visit next week. I am really excited about sharing time, especially since, unfortunately, I do not have any relationship with Aunt Terri's family. Nicole is busy working and very involved in Ethan's and Eliza's activities, but she does include me during the holidays. I would love to have a relationship with all my nieces and nephews and have made many gestures.

Everything is going well with Larry and me. I can't believe that June 16th will be our seven year anniversary. I am so happy that you had the opportunity to meet him and the family dinner at Il Mulino's was a real highlight for me.

I am very fond of Larry's children, but during family gatherings, the loss of you weighs heavier on my heart. I love and will always miss you.

Love, Mom

ROBBIE RUBIN

January 19, 2012

My Dear Jason,

It seems like just yesterday the holidays were here and now it is already mid-February. Yesterday I finally took down my little Hanukkah tree, which was surrounded with pictures of family. Of course the holidays are not the same, but I did enjoy myself with Larry's family and New Years Eve had an enjoyable evening with friends.

Aunt Elayne invited Larry and me to her home on Christmas day, but after a busy day and late night at Larry's home, he was not up to the drive.

Right now Aunt Elayne and Uncle David are vacationing in Florida for a month, but I still speak to my loving sister almost daily. Danny is amazing; inspite of her illness, she has more energy than I and besides working is always rennovating her home.

I also enjoy decorating my home. I have so many beautiful memories. I always looked forward to Nanny spending the weekends during her visits north and reminisce about your brief visits. The important thing is that I know we really loved one another.

The weather has been very cold and Saturday they predict snow. Hope the winter passes quickly as I tend to hibernate this time of year and that is when I tend to dwell on my family losses.

You will always hold a dear place in my heart and I miss and love you very much.

Love always, MOM

ROBBIE RUBIN

December 3, 2011

Dear Jason,

I cannot believe Hanukkah and Christmas will be here in a few weeks. I find this time of the year a little depressing since the holidays cannot be shared with you and Nanny, who passed away around this time of the year. I constantly pray for a vision, but to no avail. Hopefully this wish will come true when least expected. This gift and having you rest in piece with our family would be my utmost wishes.

I wish I could let go of the guilt and lonliness. I do have a lot to be thankful for, but there will be a part of my heart that is forever at a loss.

Tomorrow Aunt Elaine will pick me up to share our annual visit. She and I are very close and we speak daily. Uncle David is away so she and I have the opportunity to bond. I also get time to share with Aunt Danny. Danny has a dog named Lexie, who is so adorable and they look after one another.

Everything is going well with Larry and me. We will be spending Christmas Eve at his house with his family and New Year's Eve with friends.

You are always with me.

Love and kisses,

MOM

ROBBIE RUBIN

October 27, 2011

My Dear Jason,

Spain and Portugal were lovely, but alway nice to return home. Saturday I will be celebrating my birthday with Larry, but as usual will be missing your and Nanny's "Happy Birthday Call".

During my trips to Europe, whenever I saw mothers and their children traveling together, I would think of you. I know it was difficult growing up without me and dad, but I was looking forward to bond with you after retirement. I still get angry that I was robbed of this opportunity.

We will always be together. I miss and love you with all my heart.

Love, MON

ROBBIE RUBIN

September 28, 2011

Dearest Jason,

Hope you and the rest of my precious family are looking after one another. You all will forever live on in my heart and not a day passes without thoughts of my loved ones.

Friday Larry and I will be leaving for Madrid, Spain. It seems like months ago when we were planning our trip. I am very excited about our vacation, especially since we will be traveling with good friends.

As I mentioned on several occasions,I feel so blessed to have Larry, but as hard as I try, am often pulled down with the loss of you and Nanny. It is a constant thorn in my heart. They say time heals, but in my case nothing can ever alleviate my pain.

Last week I and my friend Mary visited with Aunt Elayne. I really wish she lived nearer and miss my short drive to Hillsdale and being greeted at the door by Oliver. If only my co-op allowed animals.

Family will always be my priority and although we are no longer together, I harbor enough love in my heart to last a lifetime.

Love you forever, MOM

ROBBIE RUBIN

September 2, 2011

Dearest Jason,

I cannot believe that this is Labor Day weekend and the summer is already over. Larry and I plan to spend a quiet holiday weekend at home. I am very excited about our Spain and Portugal trip, which is only four weeks away.

If I wrote everytime I thought of you, I could probably fill an encyclopedia.
When the loss of you and Nanny become overwhelming, I find it takes all the strength I can muster to get out. Larry is a good influence, as he always encourages me to get moving. All the time in the world will never completely heal my pain. You and Nanny are the two people I will always hold dearest to my heart.

When you and Nanny were here, I was really looking forward to retirement. Of course it is nice not having to get up at 6:00 a.m., but I do miss the comradery. I try to meet my close friends from work at least a few times a month. We always look forward to BLT sandwiches. The job market is not very good, but eventually I would like to work part-time or maybe do volunteer work.

Hope you, Nanny and Pa Pa George are taking care of one another and Oliver is a good companion.

Love and miss you more than words can express.

MOM

ROBBIE RUBIN

July 21, 2011

Dear Jason,

Hope you, Nanny and Pa Pa George are looking after one another. If I had one wish, it would be to have a vision of my loved ones, but so far all I have are happy memories.

Saturday was Sean's wedding and he and Susie seemed so happy. The affair was lovely the food was superb. They are now on their honeymoon on a European cruise.

I am looking forward to our European vacation. In my heart you, Nanny, Pa Pa George will be sharing this trip with me. I still feel very empty and my most valuable possessions are my famiy pictures and one of Nanny's pastels.

We are having such a heat wave. I have not left my home in a few days. The heat is unbearable.

This year Larry, Aunt Elayne, David and Uncle Steve will all turn "70". Where does the time go? We tend to take things for granted; if only I retired a few years earlier, so that I could be the mom you deserved and spend more precious time with Nanny.

Thankfully I have a very close relationship with Aunt Elayne and we speak daily. She now lives over an hour away, so we do not see each other very often. Every year Uncle Dave is away the end of November for a week, so Aunt Elayne and I have an opportunity to share precious time and I also get a chance to bond with Danielle.

Please take care of one another. I love you with all my heart.

Love, MOM

ROBBIE RUBIN

June 8, 2011

My Dear Jason,

June 16th will be Larry and my sixth year anniversary. We will be celebrating in Atlantic City and Hershey, Pennsylvania. In September we are planning a trip to Spain and Portugal with another couple. We usually do not travel, but try to arrange at least one nice trip a year. No matter where I am or what I am doing, thoughts of you are alway in my heart. I only hope that my family is together and happy.

July 16th, Sean will be getting married. I only met his fiancee once; she is a nurse and Sean is very happy. Alyse and Chris are no longer together. I am not aware of the details, but know Alyse must be under a lot of stress and hope to see her at Sean's wedding.

I feel very fortunate that I have Larry and that his children and I have a good relationship. Larry has a close family and we often get together for family gatherings.

I feel fortunate to have a nice circle of friends. I try to meet with some of the girls from work every few weeks. I have a dear friend Sharon, who lives in my building. I recently reconnected with a friend from grammar school and college. Larry and I occasionally go out with couples, but most of the time keep to ourselves.

I have updated my kitchen and bathrooms; in addition to enlarging the closet. I really love my place and am a real homebody. The second bedroom was mainly meant for you and Nanny, so for now it just remains empty.

You and my family will forever hold a dear place in my heart.

Love, Mom