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Another picture to share of Steve's bright smile! : )
Steve Shue
September 27, 2017
jennifer shue
August 17, 2014
i love the pictures, thank you so much! i miss him. thank you guys for thinking of us all.
Ellen Carlton
August 16, 2014
I forgot to attach the other Steve and Petey (singing) picture. Here it is:
Steve, age 13.
Ellen Carlton
August 16, 2014
This was within the first year that I met Steve. He was 13 years old in this picture.
Body wave perm. Around 1986.
Ellen Carlton
August 16, 2014
This one still makes me laugh. He got a "body wave" perm, and was feeling proud.
Ellen Carlton
August 16, 2014
Here is another Steve and Petey picture. They were singing together.
August 16, 2014
This picture of Steve and Petey does not have his eyes re-touched. It's more natural.
Steve and Louie, around 1991-1992
August 16, 2014
Happy Birthday, Steve.
Steve and Petey, around 1992
Ellen Carlton
August 16, 2014
August 16, 2014
Happy birthday, Steve. It's hard to believe you would have been 49 years old and harder still to think you have been gone almost 8 years. I think of you often. I keep Jenn and Stevie in my prayer always. Since you have gone, I pray for God to keep his hand on your loved ones. I love you and miss you as only a mother can. I give you another hug from my heart.
Jennifer Shue
July 26, 2014
I still miss you so much, imagine that. I'm online looking for the video of your child-adult pictures and I'm not finding it. I paid for it to be online forever so it better be up here somewhere. If anyone knows, please email me at jennifer dot shue 002 at gmail dot com. Thanks. Always thinking of you Steve. Steven turned 18 yesterday and is doing very good in school, although it is summer right now. He's in ROTC and loves it. We miss you so much. Those pictures/video better be online somewhere. Hope you're sleeping well. Until you wake again .... Your Wife, Jennifer
Ellen Carlton
August 16, 2012
Happy Birthday Steve. I still think of you often. What an impact you had on my life! I'll raise a glass in your memory this evening.
Debbie McKnight
November 9, 2011
Debbie McKnight
November 9, 2011
As I was looking through my photos I came across this one of Steven that you were kind enough to send me. I am adding to the guest book photos so others may enjoy remembering him.
Catharine Smith Wood
August 19, 2011
Although I've thought of you often over the years and had unexplained things happen,I haven't written in this book, but an amazing thing just happened to me and I wanted to share with others that have loved you!... I can see that smirky smile right about now as you already know the punch line! lol On Aug 16th I found myself in a McDonald's drive through ordering a Big Mac and then putting ketchup on it. McDonalds hasn't been on my menu in several years and I really didn't want it, so I ate the pickles off of it and tossed it. Then on the 17th, I found myself craving and buying bologna for the first time in 15 years. I put it in the fridge knowing I should probably not eat it, but kept craving it in a Peanut Butter, Jelly and bologna sandwich. I just gave in to my craving a moment ago and I as was making this unique snack, I started to wonder why I would be having such cravings.... I couldn't be pregnant! LOL I started to reach for the Strawberry jelly (which I don't like)I then went for the grape and the jar fell from my hand and out of no where .... you popped into my mind!! I began to think of how you like these items I'd been craving and wondered how odd it was that I was thinking of you and craving these things I've only known you to eat and then all of a sudden it hit me .... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Sorry I forgot! :(... first year ever ... only for a moment though! Won't let that happen again! ... my waistline can't take it! lol Now I'm going to go eat my PB, "Grape" Jelly and Bologna sandwich! :)Lovin' you and thinking of you! Pooh! To everyone ... The mind is amazing and powerful! :)
TOMMY SEARLS
January 22, 2011
I JUST FOUND OUT TODAY ABOUT LOUIE AND STEVE ABOUT FIVE YEARS LATER .IT BROKE MINE AND SAMANTHAS HEARTS TO HERE SUCH NEWS.THANKS ELLEN FOR LETTING US KNOW.THEM TWO WOULD COME UP TO SEE ME AND MY FAMILY UP IN LOXAHATCHEE . WE WHOULD HAVE SOME LAUGHS,COLD ONES ETC. LOL. I THOUGHT THIER LIVES WERE GOOD,WORKED TOGETHER ,PLAYED TOGRTHER. I ALWAYS WONDERED WHAT HAPPENED TO THEM WHEN THEY STOPPED COMING UP TO SEE US.NO ONE TOLDED ME TILL TODAY. WE'LL MISS THEM .I'LL MISS MY O' FISHING BUDDIES .... TOMMY AND SAMANTHA
Leanne deluca
August 17, 2010
Happy B day bro!!!! Holy does time go by. I soooooo miss you. Your son looks just like you. Hope you are at peace and hey keep looking out for us down here. Love you and miss you!!! Your little sister Leanne
Ellen C.
August 16, 2010
For you Steve.
Ellen C.
August 16, 2010
Happy Birthday, Steve! After this year I will probably just say it to the heavens above every year rather than writing it here. I do believe that you hear me. I will never forget your birthday, or you.
August 19, 2009
I thought of you Sunday. I find it hard to believe you have been gone almost three years. Your birthday is marked forever in my heart. I was there for your birth and have kept this day close to me for the last 44 years. I loved you then, I loved you when I found you and I love you still now that you are gone. I now have your son, Stevie, in my heart, right next to you. I have yet to make the trip down to Florida, but I will go. I need to visit you at your place of rest. I need to see Jenn and Stevie and hopefully we can ease each other's pain of loss. I miss you Steven, as I have for most of your life, but now the emptiness feels more empty, because the hope I had for all those years of seeing you has been taken away. I hope you are warm. Everytime you came to see me, you were always so cold. We laughed that it was so much colder here than in Florida. I love and miss you so much.
Debbie McKnight - Your first mother
Ellen Carlton
August 16, 2009
Just thinking of you on your birthday and holding your memory close today.
Lots of Love,
Ellen
Jennifer Shue
May 1, 2009
I still think about you everyday, you were such a wonderful person and its really upsetting you had to be taken from so early in our journey in life together. Even though I am not in the habit of writing "to" you everyday I still think about you EVEY SINGLE DAY. I was just told I was obssessing and was made to stop going to this site everyday. Steven is getting to be that age you couldnt wait for and I know how much he misses you. When hes a bit older I will of course give him the opportunity to write some things but right now its still so raw for me even though its been 2 and a half years. I love you so much and always wonder how the day will go when I pass and get to see you, if thats how it works. But i know in some way or another we will be reunited - until then please know how much we miss you and we think about you every day. Not a day goes by that you dont run through my head several times. Its hard to have the same lust for life without you but I just try to focus on our son. We love you and miss you!
Ellen Carlton
November 12, 2008
Hi Steve,
I really have no idea why I'm writing this today, out of the blue. I think of you and Louie often. I talk to you both quite a bit too, because I believe that you can hear me. I just wanted to say that my happiest memories of you are those of the big bonfires we used to build frequently down at the end of Coral Ridge Drive in the woods. This was something we all did for at least three years, on almost every night when the temperature dropped below 60. It was a huge social event most of the time. Sometimes there were as many as 60 or so people there. You had to eventually expand the fire pit to a much wider and deeper size to accomodate all of the people who started to show up regulary. I usually tended the fire and brought a radio to play. At some point you would always break out the guitar and start singing. Many of us would sing along. Pink Floyd, The Beatles, The Eagles, and so many other great band's music floated on the cool night wind as we all celebrated life and the spirit of sharing. Louie often accompanied your music by playing his harmonica. Sometimes we brought food which we cooked over the fire on a huge grate. Usually hot dogs since there were a lot of people and not a lot of cash to buy food. There was always beer too, of course. We were always very responsible for cleaning up after ourselves. We respected the forest and made sure we kept it clean and safe. The fire department used to fly by every time we were there in their helicopter. They would shine their spotlight down on us to make sure all was well and safe. Once they saw that it was us (again) they would fly away. They never made us leave because we were very responsible with our special, sacred place in the woods. They saw that and trusted us enough not to intervene. I can't imagine that happening in this day and time. I am so grateful that we had those years of seasonal bonfires. I personally never saw you look more at peace than during those events. Of course I lost contact with you before you met Jennifer. I'm sorry I never got to see you as a husband and a dad. I'm happy and proud of you because you got to be those things. I just wanted to honor those relatively carefree nights that so many were lucky enough to share with you. When I think of you and Louie, that is the way I choose to remember you both. Happily singing and playing your favorite instruments around the warm fire in the cold night air. I wouldn't trade those memories for anything in the world. Since they mean so much to me and others who were there, I just wanted to share them with all of the many people who love you. Shine on.
Love,
Ell
Jennifer Shue
September 10, 2007
Please note the Guest Book will no longer expire, as it is written on the right of the page where the expiration date used to be.
Please come back often and remember Steve. Please write any memory you ever think of ...
Jennifer Shue
September 10, 2007
I also wasn't able to make it in time to get an entry in on Father's Day. Little Steven got you a card and wrote, "To My Dad, whereever you are." He is such a cool kid.
Melissa can't get over how much Little Steven looks like you. Actually, he is getting bigger and bigger. He is in Sixth Grade now and doing well. You would be proud of him and his questions about girls (oh you don't want to know, but you would smile and say, "That's my boy!").
You were always so proud of him and how he will carry on your name, "the first Shue in 30 years," you would say. Little Steven is up to my nose in height now.
I am still slacking on the family contact, but I will make that better. It's just hard for me - All I want to say is "I miss Steve." Leanne called so I need to call her back and also get Little Steven on the phone with her. I want to get up to NY (still haven't made it) so she can see him and also Granny Mac could probably use a visit. Things are tight, but I will make it happen one way or another, probably in the summer - or wait - maybe in the winter with the snow! You know how much I love the snow.
Well I better go now, as I'm looking pretty silly at the library right now.
Love,
Your Wife
Jennifer Shue
August 27, 2007
I was not able to get to the computer on your birthday, but I told everybody about it. Steven and I had Ice Cream cake in your honor. We still miss you and love you very much and think about you all time. We do our best to stay in contact with the family, but I could do a loy better. I will try for you because I know how important that was for you.
I am at the library and the PC is shutting down in 1 minute so I must go. I will write to you soon.
Love,
Marsha Giles
August 17, 2007
I just wanted to say Happy Birthday Steve I know that you and Louie are celebrating together. We all miss you Steve. Love, Marsha
Ellen Carlton
August 16, 2007
Happy Birthday Steve. I will never forget to say that to you on your birthday. I hope you and Louie are celebrating your special day together.
Lots of Love,
Ell
Jennifer Shue
May 13, 2007
I miss you so much. I can only think of all the good times we had and how I wish there were time for more. Little Steven loves you and we think about you all the time. You never go away. I love that.
Today is Mother's Day. I know exactly what you would be doing right now, at this very moment. You would have made me breakfast in bed and done everything to make my day perfect. You would have gotton so much joy from calling your sister and other relatives to wish them a happy Mother's Day.
I miss you so much on this day, even more than the other days. You mean so much to me and that will never go away. I miss you so much. Your soft touch and caressing of my face and hair and the nice things you would say to me.
I can only picture you at peace, sleeping softly to awake one day to a happy reunion, with all your family and your heart full. No pain and no anguish, just happy, light thoughts, that's what I wish.
John De Luca
March 26, 2007
Hey Uncle Steve I'm sorry that it had to end this way. When i first heard the news I was hysterical and in a state of awe and disbelief. It wasnt fair that a great man like u had to go at such a young age with so so many things unfinished. You were one of my role models. You dont know how many essays i wrot with the title My Uncle Steve. It rele sucks that your gone and weel never be able to go camping again or get to hang out on another cool summer day. But it brings me strength to know your in heaven smiling down and watching down on me and all of the others youve touched by your presence. If you added up all the money in the world it wouldnt be enough to even compare to the amount you meant to me. I love you. And I will keep on loving you till the day i die. Youll stay in my heart forever and ill never forget you.
Love,
your nephew John
Deborah McKnight
February 25, 2007
How strange I felt this morning as I was reading the new entries in your Guest Book. Jenn wrote about little things you used to say. When I read how you used to say Go Scratch to people who would bother or annoy you, a funny feeling ran down my spine. Whenever someone irritates the heck out of me and I can take it no longer I tell them to Go Scratch Themselves. I guess we were more alike than I realized. I miss your quirky sense of humor. (Guess where you got that from) When we would talk we would always know what the other one was talking about. I miss your phone calls. I miss you.
"My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." Psalm 73:26 I have to hang on to that. I hope others, too, can take comfort that if God brings you to it, He'll get you through it. I will love you forever.
Jennifer Shue
February 24, 2007
I have to move and I will miss this place and all of the memories I have with you in it. It is hard to let go, but at the same time I feel I need to. We had planned on moving out at the end of this month to a house in pompano so the lease is expiring.
You would have had so much fun "working" on the house we were going to move to and being productive - it would have made you happy. You always spoke about "when we get a house" because we have been in this apartment for so long and you really looked forward to a house with a yard and items that you could fix up.
You said you would pay a million dollars for the house your parents used to live off of on 110th if it went on the market and sometimes drove by it for the memories. Jeff was just telling me he does the same thing now. I thought that was a really genuine way to express his missing of you.
It's going to be hard for me to leave, but it is just about that time to go - I wish you were here with me.
Oh - another "saying" you frequently used, "go scratch". Basically if someone was bothering you or being not so nice, you would tell them to "go scratch". I used it the other day and realized where I got it from.
You will never leave my thoughts or my heart,
Jennifer Shue
February 22, 2007
It missed one of my emtries, but I'll edit it and add it again.
I just remembered something else Steve used to do that was funny to me.
He used to whisper, "Sweet Nothings" in my ear. No, literally, he would whisper the words "SWEET NOTHINGS" in my ear to be cute and romantic. Isn't that cute? He had so many good quaalities. That's all for now, just remembered it!
Love always,
Jennifer Shue
February 14, 2007
Happy Valentine's Day. I'll be thinking of you all day.
Love,
Jennifer Shue
February 13, 2007
Little Steven was telling me the other day about the "ride" you guys took in your orange race car you loved so much (you owned it some years back).
We were driving down the street and saw a Viper (one of his favorites, which reminded him). He said, "Man, remember my Dad's race car? He let me drive it, that was so awesome!"
Hmm..... that was like how many years ago? Ok, lol, so he said he got to steer and then push the peddle, but not both at the same time because he couldn't reach (he was on your lap also). Uh huh, how old was he?
Anyways, I thought that was so cute that he remembered that with such enthusiasm and clarity. It's something he'll never forget.
I miss you every day, every minute and wish you could come home,
Your Family Jennifer and Little Steve Shue
February 12, 2007
I miss you. My birthday wasn't the same without waking up to your smiling face with you "making my day special", as you would always try your best to do.
I miss you so much and can't believe you are never coming home. I miss you.
Love Always,
Jimi Henderson
February 10, 2007
Steve,
My brother, My best friend, my partner in music and an inspiration to me.
I was 15 years old when we met. We began creating music soon after and became the best of friends. 22 years later im still here and your now gone. Louie is gone to. You were both my best friends and you knew it. We all had the gift of music to share with each other. Beyond that we shared many many great times and these i will cherish in my memories forever.
I could write a novel but it would still not be enough to say about the times we shared.
Through our music, our friendship and in our lifes... we touched the sky and fell back to the ground.
But somewhere in between something beautiful happened. You are and will always be my best friend. Love you bro.
One small excerpt from a song Steve Lou and I wrote a long time ago that transcends time in my opinion.
"YOu can change your world around, start it out with salvation. Put you right on solid ground.....For YOur Ownself............
Jimi Henderson
Jennifer Shue
February 7, 2007
"No good deed goes unpunished."
Now, as my husband didn't invent this saying, it is his quote. I found myself hearing him say this to me in my head today at work.
We frequently helped people, so he was full of good deeds, as was I, however, it was always those "small" favors that turned out to be the hardest and when that quote would find it's way to the surface.
I am in the PC industry and it was always those "quick looks" that turned to be jobs that were hours long. And when I would call my husband on the phone to tell him where I was or as I was talking about my day and it would come about that I was doing a "quick" favor for someone that would take a long time, he would always reply with, "No good deed goes unpunished."
I am glad I got to think of something else to write about him today. Today I feel strong and I feel him cheering me on, clenching his fist and raising his arm, saying, "Yeah, I got my Jen back!"
I feel this "strength" from G-d and it has made me feel closesr to my husband, even though we are worlds apart.
Thank you for being with me,
Jennifer Shue
February 6, 2007
Wow, do I miss you, more than you could ever know. I was hit with a real bad wave of missing you and here is a letter I wrote kinda trying to explain the emptiness I feel inside:
The pain I feel right now is deeper than you can even imagine on your dreariest of days. Please do not read on unless you want to damper your day. No, seriously, this journey is one with very "not so happy" endings, and it will at least wake you up a little to the realities of life.
Picture yourself on the beach: wind blowing, sun warming, sand in your toes, salt in the air, surf rolling in, lots of people playing volleyball, catch, and just having fun. What happy, young, naive thoughts - perhaps equating to childhood.
Then out of nowhere, a dark shadow is cast and a swimmer is suddenly devoured by a shark that dips out and back in the cold, blue water. A huge wave swallows everyone on the beach except for you. The shadow lifts and the sun returns, but the warmth isn't really there anymore.
You are expected to continue as normal and be happy, even though the happiness is gone. The shadow lurks in the layers of the sky above you, so you still have to maintain most of your "beach play" or the shadow will come out, show its face, and either take you away or haunt you with the occurance of every bad thing you could ever think of.
The beach is gone, but the scene is the same. Those shiney, happy people are forever deflated and will never be back. You are very deep and the pain runs through every river and deep valley in your bodily existance. It just circulates around and around with every heartbeat. Any new sorrows are not just sorrows anymore - they are rips in your flesh with only fresh alcohol to pour on them to try to heal the wounds.
Pain? That word doesn't seem to fit anymore; it is not powerful enough. Deep, deep hurt brews and will be simmering for some time. Only G-d knows when it will end; who knows - that may be never. That's how it feels now. How did I let myself fall this far? How was that love so good that there is nothing to repair it? Why was it taken from me? There is no substitute and it's wrath is no joke.
The happy, default smile on my face is now unknowingly replaced with a frown and a head bent down. G-d himself describes this as hideous cruelty in the Bible and it is supposed to end upon his return.
People say that I am the strongest person they know. What they don't know is that it was my heart that made me that way, it was even stronger, but now it is broken - I am broken. No one knows how to fix me. Perhaps another human with such great love could fix me. Only there is nobody and who wants to be a patch? No one knows how to fix me.
You were such a valuable existance in my life and as strong as I try to be, I think I just need to be weak for a while, absorb the truth and realize, for now, my hopes, dreams, and future for us is gone forever and it will always be that way.
I place no blame on you and never will. That one part of grief will never exist for me, as I truly understood exactly what you were going through. This world is dog eat dog and not everyone is made for it. You are in a safe place, where you belong. You are shielded from hurt and mis-judgement, as you deserve to be. I should be happy for your lack of suffering; it is just so hard because you were so great.
No one understands and I don't expect them to. They weren't there to see the whole story between us. They look at a glimpse of a situation and think they have the answer for everyone, yet they can't figure out their own lives. You were beautiful and in my mind always will be.
I have to say goodbye, as much as I have been trying not to. I will still update memories as they come, but I must do what I have promised, keep your honor and be happy, and take good care of OUR son. We will miss you, but please rest assured we will never forget you and no one will ever be able to take your place.
This world will not change, so I will stop trying to change it. Even surrounding myself with the "way it should be" does not seem to be the answer, as I become extremely disappointed in others when they do not live up to my expectations. I will be happier that way, and you are gone so it is what I will have to do to keep myself happy (you were the one for me that lived up to those expectations - not an easy thing to accomplish - it takes an extra special person for that). I will lean on myself for my stress, even though you were so good at aleviating it.
I just can't wait until I can get Steven back in to the extracurricular activites so I can occupy our time with fun and not dewll on what I don't have anymore.
With much love because I miss you forever and more,
Jennifer Shue
February 3, 2007
Well Super Bowl Sunday is here and guess what? We had a tradition for that, too. Steve, as creative as he was, took me to Home Depot (his favorite store) and bought that green stuff people put on their back porch sometimes (you know, the grassy stuff). Astroturf? I don't know, anyways, we cut it to fit all of the tables in our house and painted football fields on it. We painted each team's logo each year and stuck it in the end zone.
You didn't even like football, but, hey, it was a beer day. I always liked the sports. It was a fun day though because I would fill the table up with snacks and we would have family over (my family is very large). You would have guests and provide some entertainment and I would cater to the fam.
I would make you these mini chesseburgers and wings like Hooters and all kinds of stuff.
Bye,
Jennifer Shue
February 3, 2007
Thank you for your comments and G-d bless you if he separates you the way he has me.
I appreciate your input and your sense to get the importance of what I am saying. Writing all the memories helps me keep him alive. Thank you so much for your story because it is a piece of him and I want all of those I can have.
Thank you so much,
Linda Earls
February 2, 2007
Dear Jennifer,
I knew Steven years ago through Ellen. I did not have the occasion to be actual friends, but we were acquaintences because we hung out with the same people. When I found out about Steve I was quite shocked and saddened. I was telling Ellen that the only time I ever had the occasion to hang out with them was one time when we all skipped school together. I had remembered this vaguely but Ellen told me that I was reluctant to go because of my strict parents. So Steve called in to school for me and pretended to be my dad! And it actually worked! I laughed and laughed when I heard this because it would be something only he would get away with.
I am so sorry for your loss and I admire the memories you have for your husband and best friend. I, too, feel like I married my soul-mate and reading what you've written has inspired me to make as many good times as I can, because we don't know how long we have with each other. Thank you Jennifer. I did not know Steve that well when he was alive, but I'm so glad to have the opportunity to read and get to know him in these pages. You were truly blessed by and very lucky to have each other. I wish the best for you.
Ellen Carlton
February 2, 2007
Steve,
I don't think I can possibly express adequately what is in my heart as I think of you. I met you when I was a painfully insecure 11 year old. You were 13. We had so much in common. We understood each other when few others understood us. We bonded tightly and you taught me everything you knew or thought you knew about life. You left an indelible mark on my soul. I would not be the person that I am today if I hadn't known you. Thank you. I miss you. I never stopped missing you. You felt almost like a brother to me after so many years as friends. I wish that either you or I would have at least made a phone call during all of those years. I miss hanging with you two. I miss the bonfires and the music and the long conversations you and I used to have. You influenced my life so profoundly. You introduced me to books, and music, and so many things that I couldn't even begin to try to name them all. I have a deep love of campfire building, Styx, turtles, and comedians because you introduced me to those things. My warped sense of humor was definitely and permanently influenced by yours. God, we had a lot of fun! You were loved and valued by so many people. I hope you see that clearly now. You were one of the best friends I ever had, back when I didn't have many friends. That was a priceless gift and I will always be grateful. I'm so glad that you and Jennifer had many wonderful years together, and that you got to experience being a father. Little Steven is adorable! I wish I had gotten to watch you interact with your family. I would have enjoyed that so much. I'm so sorry that I missed out on that. Wish you were here.
Lots of Love,
Ellen
Jennifer Shue
February 1, 2007
These entries are for my son and I to have a memory book to remember my husband by .....
Another favorite .....
Grilled Cheese (Double Cheese - One Swiss and One American) dipped in campbell's Tomato Soup - sometimes touched with his special spices (Garlic and Onion Powder, sometimes salt and pepper, and maybe a little basil).
Also, I can't count the times we had pulled over on the side of the road to take a turtle crossing the busy 6 lane street to move it way in to the woods to keep it of of danger (usually on Lyons. Rd.). That was how much my husband loved creatures of all kinds and how caring he was.
Jennifer Shue
January 31, 2007
Wow - I don't even know what to say. Let's just put it this way. For anyone that didn't have the type of relationship I had with Steve, they have no idea what a unique, wonderful person he really was. I do not believe there is anybody else in this world capable of loving and caring the way he was. Not even just caring for me - just anybody - even a stranger on the street.
There is no price that can pay for that, no action that can compete with that, and no mental game that can compare with that. He was the best and that's all there is to it. If you missed out on that, I say sorry to you.
There are so few people like him in this world that most are not capable of even understanding what I am talking about. I am lucky to come from one of those few families with most able to understand, because it is such a rarity and a privilege to be around - I am very lucky to have had the time I did to experience what he had to offer.
He would never take advantage just because he could (when he was hardened from this world he could, but once that was broken, it was easy to understand why he initially had to put up such thick shields).
No one can take his place and I am just sorry for this world for #1 - him not being here and #2 - those who weren't capable of understanding, because they are really missing out on something special - perhaps the true reason for their existance.
There is a time for that in everyone's lives; we are not born knowing it all. Just maybe one day a higher percentage of people will catch on to what is really important and get to his level. I feel sorry for the ones that didn't appreciate you when you were here because I can tell you right now, there is no substitute, nothing that even comes close to the love we shared.
In a State of Eternal Loving,
Jennifer Shue
January 29, 2007
Steve, you did caress my face, that's just not what I meant in that description. And what I said about Leanne somehow was messed up. I can't remember what I said, but you always said she was your little sister and you would always protect her and you liked talking to her all the time. Also you called John your "Cool Dude". (mistakes from previous posts) I love you.
Miss You VERY Much,
Jennifer Shue
January 28, 2007
"Tables are for glasses, not ...."
You have to fill in the blank. Just another quote from you if someone were to sit on your table.
Little Steven just sat on the kitchen table and guess what he got? The same quote, just like his daddy would say. We miss him so much and know G-d needed him for probably the most important job in heaven.
Amen.
Jennifer Shue
January 27, 2007
Steve was very Patriotic and we never missed an Air & Sea Show. That is held on Fort Lauderdale beach every year and basically each branch of the Service would come out and show off their stuff.
The B-2 would fly by (my favorite), the F-16 Eagle (Steve's favorite), parachuters would drop in the water, bombers would bomb watermelons in the ocean, troops would storm the beach, flight teams would show their fancy moves, and more.
They would stay for Saturday and Sunday and over 3 million people would come out. We would get there at about 8-9:00 in the morning, usually on Saturday, bring out wagon full of stuff and park at the Galleria mall. Then we would walk across the bridge to the beach and find a spot on the beach. We would swim in the beach and watch or sit in the chairs or on the towels we brought. It was an all-day event so we would pack a cooler with snacks, drinks, and more.We would stay until 3-5:00.
We would usually run in to people we knew and get sunburned (the lotion wears off easy with all the sweat and water). All kinds of vendors would have stands out and give away free items to promote their products. This usually happened the first weekend of May. It was so much fun and I am really going to miss it this year.
Steve would show such respect to the troops there and really enjoyed it. I can't imagine going without him. It was like a birthday for us or something. Probably our favorite event of the year.
Just more info about Steve and his life.
Much Love and Respect,
Jennifer Shue
January 27, 2007
Wow, after all this time, I just realized there is so much more about you I have forgotton. I am so caught up in me and you that I have forgotton about relationships that were really important to you and I haven't even mentioned them. Wait .... Is this book about me or you? Sorry ......
First of all, I never got a chance to meet your mother, but you always wished I had so she could see that you got a good woman with a head on her shoulders that had standards. Also you were so proud of all of the sports Little Steve got to join and she would have been proud.
Now you also (I think I mentioned before) used to love how your father was so full of jokes all the time. You loved the time he said "Huh" in a "duh" voice to my brother because he was acting out of it.
You played a joke on your Dad so bad one time and you could barely breathe from laughing so hard when you spoke of it. Your father always played the lotto. Well one time you bought him a lotto ticket with thr previous week's numbers on it. Then you switched his Sunday paper and rigged it so it looked like he hit all of the winning numbers. He was like, "Ar, AAr. AArdith, bu, bu, bu" stumbling over his words because he couldn't believe he had "won" the lottery. You laughed hysterically at him and then told him you rigged it and boy was he ready to go after you!
Also I spoke of how you treasured speaking to Leanne on the phone all the time and how you loved her and her family so much.
You missed Johnny so much and you called him your "Little Bud". You always spoke so highly of him and how he was smart like you and got great grades. You missed him so much when he moved away. Any time you talked to him on the phone you told me about it. You would be so happy and tell me, "I spoke to Johnny today. He is getting so much older, I can't believe it!" When he lived in Florida, he was like the son you never had because, again, you NEVER expected to have any children. You liked it that I used to take him to Chuck E Cheese and spend time with your family - it's a big reason you fell in love with me and what kept you happy.
You were also so proud of Anthony. He was also adorable and very close in age to Little Steve. They used to play on the little tykes playground Leanne had at her house before they moved. You always thought it was so funny because neither of them slid down the slide like most children their age (what were they, 3?). No, they both would climb the stairs to the top and jump! You were like, "Yeah, they're cool!" I have a pic from a Christmas over there that shows Little Steve in a Superman outfir (like underoos with a cape) and you reaching toward Little Steven who was opening a gift, I was sitting with my legs croosed on the chair (all you can really see is my black Puma shoe) and Anthony standing in the background. Just as you were proud about Johnny with his grades, you were always proud about how good Anthony was at sports. You would brag to everyone about the boys.
Then came along Vincent while Leanne was in NY. We never got a chance to meet him until a few summer's ago. See how everything happens for a reason? You got to meet your last nephew. (Is it the last?) You couldn't get over how good-looking he was and how funny the pack was. They were all "great kids" is all you would tell everybody.
You loved them so much and if we could have, we would have sent each of them a christmas gift for the holidays. Our holidays in Florida were so expensive that we usually didn't even eat in January (ok, maybe that's a slight exaggeration, but not too much!) I wish you would have had the opportunity to pick something individual out for each of them. We did always have their Christmas picture of the 3 of them right there next to us when we opened our gifts and spent time for the holidays.
We had plans to make it up there for next Christmas and that would have been the best. We waited so long, so I regret that we didn't make it up in time, but I am also glad you did get to see every one of your nephews at least somewhat recently - that's important. You talked about them to anyone and everyone that would listen. They were your pride and joy along with Steven.
You were also happy your sister found Joey and that he was taking care of her, as she did their family, and that she thought the world of him and he was "cool" and responsible, too.
Well, I just remembered this important stuff so I needed to write it down before I forgot again, but I still miss you and I don't think that will ever change. Thank you for taking care of all your friends and family up there and keeping them laughing, I know you are.
Love,
Jennifer Shue
January 26, 2007
You loved the way my hair fell and "caressed" my face. You didn't caress my face, you said my hair fell just right to frame my face perfect. You smiled at me in my sleep - not really smiling - there was a smile on your face, but you were really just looking at me with love. Pure love. I would wake up once in a while and see you and ask what you were doing and you would just tell me you were looking at how pretty I was and then you would tell me how much you loved my hair.
Your pants would fall to your feet sometimes if you weren't wearing a belt. That was funny - I was just remembering that because I am wearing a pair of your black jeans. I never used to fit in them because I gained weight gradually after having Steven and never would have fit in your pants. You always told me you loved me just the way I was, but if I wanted to lose weight for my own self that you would support me. You were so nice. Just like Andrew said, you had a knack for making people feel special whether they were doing something correctly or not. And that's because you really meant it, not because it was the thing to say.
It's funny with me writing all this nicey-nice stuff because you were a rough and tumble-type guy and if I were reading all this about someone else I would think they were the pansy-type. But you weren't, not even a little bit. You were just yourself and not afraid to be yourself. I have a feeling the world would be a happier place if more people played less head games and just tried to take care of business and have fun, not destroy each other and try to gain some mental advantages
With Love,
Jennifer Shue
January 26, 2007
One time something was "stolen". It was the remote control to the TV. You couldn't just get up and change the channel, you had to look and look and look for the remote before you finally declared it stolen. I told you it cannot be stolen, retrace your steps. You said you did that.
Well, I stepped in and retraced your steps for you. You had gone to the bathroom, had a cigarette, called Leanne, played with Little Steven, made a hamburger, called me on the phone at work, laid down on the bed (or sat) and then BAM! the remote was stolen. So I decided to retrace for you. I thought about it for a second and then walked to the freezer, pulled the remote out, and handed it to you. Your jaw dropped so far your tongue almost rolled off on to the floor and out the door.
I laughed and poked fun at you for putting the remote control in the freezer. I had a feeling that's where it was because you looked everywhere else and it was silly to think it was stolen.
From that point on whenever you were missing something, of course I quipped, "Oh, it's in the freezer". You would just laugh and we would giggle with each other, remembering that funny moment.
Did I mention how you were always there for me and no matter how stressed or down I was, you always made me feel better and balanced me out? I miss you so much. You would stroke my hair and as Andrew said, you always knew exactly what to say to someone to stay positive and make them feel good. You always reminded me that G-d has always taken care of us and he would this time too. I miss you wonderful. I lost contact with #1 and could never settle for a number 2.
I Love You,
Andrew
January 26, 2007
Always gonna miss having someone to play guitar with and teach me guitar. he was the best motivation for it, he always knew exactly what to say no matter if I was doing bad or good. He had a way of making everything and everyone feel welcome
Jennifer Shue
January 26, 2007
I'm not sure if I mentioned your favorite books, but one of them was a book by Remy Charlip. I think it was called "After You". That might not be the name, but there is a section of it where there are all these people and one after another are saying, "After you," "No, after you" and so on. It described our relationship very much and was a wonderful book. It was more like a children's book. We had it for the longest and then it disappeared. I saw one on Amazon, believe or not.
Also you loved anything Stephen King. You loved his dark, mysterious side and his uncanny ability to write and capture his audience. You admired his creativty. I think you read every single book, including the last book you ever checked out at the Library, Skeleton Crew.
You were so proud when our English teacher (we took some college classes together) said you were like the next Ernest Hemingway and he loved your style of writing. You were SO proud of that, as he was another of your favorites.
You were so smart and knew so much about so many different subjects. There was this one quiz-type game show on TV where you challenge the "TV Geek", "Star Trek Geek", "Movie Geek", etc. There were 4 types of these guys. Well, no matter which the contestant on the show chose, you almost always knew the answer. I think the last geek was one called the "Music Geek". These guys were known for knowing the littlest of details about those specific subjects. I could never even get one answer. You knew so many random things, that's why I say you would have ruled Jeopardy, because you knew so many topics and very specific information. You would remember things so well when you were clear-minded.
I love you and I will see you when you awake. Until then, sleep well and I will carry on with life and remember you always.
Love,
Jennifer Shue
January 25, 2007
It is so cold out tonight, all I can picture is you standing in your blue sweatshirt with it covering your head and your hands in your pockets and you would be shivering so bad, complaining of how cold it was. Then I could snuggle you and warm us both up. And you always wondered why I liked the cold so much.
You were so handsome and cute, both inside and out. I am going to go back outside to freeze and think of you. Even though I will be freezing, my heart will feel the warmth of your memory.
Love,
Jennifer Shue
January 23, 2007
It's Girl Scout cookie time.
Steve loved Thin Mints.
Buy some in his honor and help support the Girl Scouts. It's a good cause.
Jennifer Shue
January 22, 2007
Steve always was intrigued by this guy who built this very heavy door (actually it was a castle) by himself (He was only 5 Feet, 100 lbs). The building of this door was attributed to using the same logic the egyptians used for making the pyramids (a mystery at this time). The door is so heavy but you can open it with your pinky. The man kept the building style a secret to his death. It is called coral castle and I wish we could have made it there - Steve really wanted to go. It's in Honestead, Florida.
(If they blank out the address, search on Coral Castle, Homestead, FL.)
Steve loved mysteries and Histories. It was his kind of place and wanted to travel the states when we retired.
I still miss you a lot,
Jennifer Shue
January 22, 2007
Thank you for the photo add. I had to wait until this Thurs. to add photos. This 1st pic is from the summer when we were at his "friend's" house who wasn't who he seemed to be.
They were hanging and having a good time and Steve was, of course, playing some Pink Floyd and really enjoying himself. The jeans were a little ripped, but he loved that ripped look with a proper Polo shirt to go with it! he was so funny!
Anyways, his face is a little red from straining from singing so much and from sitting in the hot, summer sun singing and having a good time all day.
I like this pic because it is recent and it shows him playing guitar and just being "Steve". Thanks for the add.
Love,
Sandra Stone
January 21, 2007
A photo has been added to this book.
Steve
January 21, 2007
January 21, 2007
Steve was the kind of guy who:
cooked a turkey in the heat under the sand.....
would drink and play guitar and sing songs.....
loved camping and braving the outdoors......
always had an interesting story to tell...about something he had done..
loved eating fish and fishing....
Steve is the type of guy you wish you could've gotten to know better and spent more time with him.....
the kind of good hearted guy that it just doesn't seem fair that he is gone...fair to us....fair to him.................................I wish Steve, that you will be remembered always, in our family, in our hearts, that you will be with Jennifer in her dreams...and promise to return to her quickly as she wakes...and when she does, show her the way...may she smile as she lays down to sleep...may her days be filled with laughter and happiness and as you are with her in her nights and bless her in her days...be with Steven as he grows, whisper in his ears, let him hear your voice, your words, let him grow up knowing you, seeing you in him at all times....don't be forgotten....Steve, live on...be seen by all in heaven and on earth...may you be blessed always and in comfort in your surroundings...peace to Steven Paul Shue I.
Final Phrase:
"...for I know the end must be near, I cannot take much more...you have taken my family and turned them to ash...treated my life as if it were not your own...if there is a God, I am, surely, in a Final Daze."
Jennifer Shue
January 20, 2007
I am so glad for all the times we had in orlando - twice a year usually. I will never forget all the fun times we had and I am so glad you got to live life a little. We did have a lot of fun around town and out of town. That makes me somewhat satisfied, but I miss you so much.
Love,
Jennifer Shue
January 19, 2007
You loved puzzles and brain teasers. You also loved murder-mystery shows. Some more I remembered. History channel was among your favorites as well.
I love you,
Jennifer Shue
January 19, 2007
You liked Beavis and Butthead, Family Guy, The Simpson's (you always liked to read what Bart was writing on the chalkboard during the opening credits because it always said something different and funny), King of the Hill, Star Trek (Next Generation only), Monk, King of Queens, and there are others. Those are just some of what I remember at the moment.
You were always in to video games where you had to slay monsters (otherwise known as Role-Playing-Games). You were the first one on your block with Atari and even played dragon-slaying games then.
You liked hanging with friends and family, smokin marlboro's and drinking Budweisers. I would push on your belly to make sure you exhaled all of the smoke. That irritated you in one way, complimented you in another.
Another quote (if I were giving directions and told someone to go straight), you would say, "Always forward, never straight".
I wish I may I wish I might
If I could have one wish, you would be here tonight.
You are gone but you are here,
No matter what you'll always be near.
If I could have one wish you'd be here with me,
No sorrow or angst, just happiness and we.
One thing you never got to do which I wish we could have done for you: You wanted to dress up like Alex in Clockwork orange for Halloween. We used to dress up in these crazy get-ups on halloween, but never did that one. Things just never came together for you to do that, as much as I wish they would have. It would have made you so happy. Maybe next lifetime, eh?
Did I mention your love for Honey BBQ Fritos?
You always mentioned how it would be funny if one day you were watching cops and then you saw your living room on the television and the cops were in your house. You would think that was funny. Also, you went through a phase where you loved watching Cops so much that I would get "Not now Dear, Cops is on." So we made a joke of that for a while (because most guys would say the same thing except about football).
You also used to joke that you would like to be buried at Wal-mart so that your wife would visit you often. There was also this funny internet message that went around that said funny things to do in Wal-mart so we used to do them just for kicks (some of them). Like when the voice came over the loudspeaker we would say "There are all those voices in my head again!" and other stuff like that.
You loved looking up game cheats, guitar tabs and lyrics, and girly pics on the internet. You loved funny jokes and gamesites, too. You even started a Runescape account with me and Steven. I gave you a bunch of free armor and money.
You took a lot of pride in your family. You tried all you could to provide for and help out your family and even any stranger who needed it. You became a great benefit to society in that way.
You liked comedy albums back in the 80's such as Bill Cosby and George Carlin. You used a lot of classic one liners from these two because no one even remembered them so sometimes you would pass them as your own (unless someone knew it - then you guys would laugh about that person's comedy). You ALWAYS wanted to make people laugh.
You loved word play. Anything you could say or do in an artistic manner to make a play on words was something you loved. You were pretty well-educated and knew so many random facts I swear you should have been on jeopardy. Wheel of Fortune was always my gig. This probably stemmed from having to read the encyclopedia for punishment as you were a kid. Then you grew to love reading so much that you learned a LOT from it. It would be funny because you would use these words in sentences properly, but pronounce them wrong. I would be like, " you mean xxxx," talking about a specific word. You would apologize because you were so used to reading and never actually had the words pronounced so you knew the words and their meanings but the pronunciations would be cute.
We loved being a family and sometimes would hug or slowdance in the kitchen. Little Steven would push inbetween and say, "Hey, That's my mom!" And you would say," That's my wife." And then Little Steven would squeeze between us and we would call him jealous boy and cherish each other. I'm so glad we did and wish i had more time to.
We had so much fun at the water park in orlando and got to get in the front of the line on everything when a quick storm came in, cleared the park, and the sun came back out. We rode everything for hours and hours with no line and floated down the lazy river together and went on so many fun rides. That is ine of my fondest memories - and camping in Disney. You loved camping and we were on Disney property so we had so much fun seeing the sights and shopping in the Disney plaza and at the Lego Store. We had fun.
You were so cute inside and out. I just wish you could have seen the same and the people that weren't so nice could've waited to see a whole picture before forming judgements and devastating people's lives.
Steve understood me and valued me for who i was as I did him. And he was very valuable. "Lest you judge, for you shall then also be judged."
The end of Wiles Rd. was your favorite spot. We went there many times to watch sunsets, play guitar, have adventures, and more. Part of you will live on in that spot, where you always wanted to be.
I am just so glad you had the opportunity to find yourself with the aid of my love and guidance and your honesty and perserverance. I miss you so much, more than that word actually even means, to the bottom of my soul.
Jennifer Shue
January 17, 2007
I miss you.
I can't let go,
I don't want to let go.
The waves left in your wake are big,
I am lucky I am buoyant.
Sometimes I feel like
I just want to duck under and relax,
but I must fight for what is mine.
I will see you when it is time.
Tara Weissbach
January 15, 2007
Sitting here alone with my thoughts
As the rest of the world falls apart
With a loss for words
And a loss of emotion
Like the river dies when it meets the ocean
Unsure of what will come next
Not knowing when my mind will rest
When my heart can settle
And I come to the end of this riddle
So many different questions
That have so many different answers
Life's pain eating at me like a cancer
There is no truth and there are no lies
I walk through this life wearing this disguise
Playing this hand that to me was delt
In this cold war where nothing is felt
With God above and Satain below
They sent me here without a purpose or goal
They sent me here...
An anonymous soul
..............Jen all these feelings will pass, so keep your head up, Little Steven I hope you grow up to be the great man your father was(never forget where you came from) and, Steve watch over them from heaven as you always did down here on earth, especially Jen she needs you most right now, I love you guys.
Love Always, Tara
Jennifer Shue
January 15, 2007
"Yah, mule, yah!" When we were at the mall, you would get bored so you would pick up the back of my hair and repeat this over and over whenever we would walk near someone. You were so funny. You would pull on my hair as if it were reigns. My dad has that same sense of humor. "Yah, mule, yah", you got such a kick out of it.
Just another thing I remembered. Love,
Jennifer Shue
January 14, 2007
Fire, heh heh heh, fire. You loved fire and camping. Even the cubmaster mentioned how he knew if we were camping that the kids were safe from the fire because you would be tending to it.
I was speaking to Ellen and she said when she smells fire she thinks of you and I responded that it is the same for me as well as smelling any kind of wood.
Love you and ALWAYS think of you,
Jennifer Shue
January 11, 2007
You always loved to put Hershey's chocolate and sugar in your coffee and you were always so proud that I always had your breakfast and lunch made for you before you went to work.
Breakfast was always the same: a bacon, egg, and cheese sandwich. Lunch would either be leftovers (the only time you would eat them) or a hamburger I made for you that morning. If possible, I would throw you money for a hot lunch if we could afford it. Even if you did have money for a hot lunch, you still liked me to pack your lunch because it showed that I cared about you. Your friends would get envious and you would feel special.
Jennifer Shue
January 11, 2007
I remember how you ate (and finished) the 1 Pounder at Cheeburger Cheeburger and Andrew never could - although he tried so hard. You were so proud to be the Burger Champ and they took your picture.
I did a survey for Mars last night where they give you a free meal from a popular restaurant and you critique it and they pay you for it. You used to love that whole idea and all I could think of was you. You would love to tell me what you thought, and I would too, because I was so opinionated and you thought it was funny someone actually paid me to hear my opinion.
On the way home from the mall, Little Steven wanted to hear the radio so we turned it on and the very first note of Wish You Were Here was on. Did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts? Hot ashes for trees? How I wish you were here. That was my favorite song you would play me and it's how I feel now. I listened to the song so loud and the last note played as I pulled in to my parents driveway.
I know you would want me happy and only want to help and not have anything negative come of this - it's just so hard because I lived every day for you and my son - and my son will be off to college in 8 years - so it was going to be me and you and that's what I worked so hard for. Everything I ever did was for you and my carpet has been slipped from under my feet. I am trying to get it together because you would not want anything negative; I just miss you so much.
As I passed a stand that had individualized items in the mall, I showed and explained to Steven how you showed me how to put his painted, wooden, letters forming his name on the wall so they would have a cool shadow effect and you wouldn't be able to see the nail. He thought that was cool.
Did I mention you used to like to tease me all the time? Not in a bad way, just in a practical-joking, make-you-want-to-have-a-heart-atttack way. That's how your dad was and you had the same sense of humor. You missed him so much and ached for him and your mother. I hope you are all together and resting in peace.
That's all I have for now.
Love,
Jen Shue
January 10, 2007
You were a 'Good 'Ol Boy, and if it weren't for fellas like you and Lou, this would be the type of country to turn out like Iraq. "Praise the Lord and pass the ammnuition," was another quote you liked to say.
Steve was just so happy that he could be there for a friend about his dad. I miss him so much, I can't seem to get over it.
I never thought Steve wouldn't be there for me - He was so caring and misunderstood. He hid his real emotions by laughing and making jokes because of how he was feeling inside. I want to hug him and never let go and circle around the earth like superman and rewind time so I can then hug him and never let go.
Steve told me before he was so happy that his friend spoke to him about what he bottled up to everyone else - it made him so happy. It was very redeeming and rewarding for him that he could be that friend. He became so thoughtful of others.
There are flooring guys outside and they remind me of you. You were so prideful of your profession, even though it pained you so much.
Little Steven is eating BBQ Corn Fritos, not the healthiest, but another one of your favorite snacks, when I would let you have it (you did what you wanted, but I always liked to be aware of your cholesterol).
Just some more things I remembered about you. I dream every night of you holding me and Little Steve said I was smiling in my sleep the other night. I told you my dreams are so real. You could make me smile like no other.
Love Always,
Jennifer Shue
January 9, 2007
A couple of other things I wanted to note about you that I don't want to forget (even though they are just small things, it is important to me):
You always wore your keys on a hanging keychain hooked on your beltloop and then took that
and put it in your pocket (sometimes you would let it hang). You loved "rock 'n roll", guitar, Doors, Pink Floyd, camping, and your family - you lived
for those things. You also loved your work as a professional flooring installer and took a
lot of pride in it. You were very meticulous in your work and did a great job. Even if it
caused you a loss, you were always there for your customer because you just enjoyed it.
You would always have your cigarettes or keys or wallet "stolen", even though it was you
putting it somewhere you couldn't remember. It was funny because you would say, "Oh, someone
stole my cigarettes," and I would say, "No they didn't, they're on the dresser." You would
say "Oh, cool. How did you know that, you always know where everything is." So cute.
You used colgate shaving cream or the gel kind, preferred disposable razors, and didn't like
toothpaste. You would use that Gilette Blue after shave, because your Dad did. You loved Tag
or whatever body spray and took pride in smelling and looking good for me.
These may be silly things, but I never want to forget. You were a "Good 'Ol Boy" and another saying of yours was, "Praise the Lord and pass the ammunition" (as a joke).
There are other things that I am drawing a blank on right now, but I want to remember every
single detail I can.
You were always helpful and only wished you could help your family more. You had trust in
those you loved and faith in the Lord. You always liked to talk about religion and you were
very spiritual.
You always liked to watch the news and were very interested in politics (you were a pretty
strict Republican and proud of it) and whatever happenings were going on. I am glad Leanne
mentioned that because as you did with her, any time something was happening on the news,
you would call me at work also, and like to discuss what was happening.
I must go "work" now, I love you and you will forever be in our hearts. I trust in the Lord
that your are in His hands now and he is taking good care of you, as you would if the roles
were reversed. You had so much good in you; You were so genuine and caring. I love you
husband.
Jennifer Shue
January 8, 2007
When you were really excited and talking about something, you would bounce off your heels, smile as you spoke because you were excited, and you would lift up your arms and flip the back of your hair - lift it up and down a couple of times. It was so cute.
You would also lift your arms up in a similar manner when you were trying to tease me about something - like making something up - you would lift your arms in that same way, but instead of flipping your hair, you would rub your eyes with the back of your hand and almost yawn, but without the actual mouth movement of a yawn.
I wish I had you here - I could say it over and over again, but it won't make any difference. What's important is that I don't forget you and that I got to experience you and your love. And I have a piece of you that you left with me to always remember you by (Little Steven).
What we had was so rare that I thought it would never end. I am shocked that it did, but it may be what might have changed your life and made it last longer. TLA -
Jennifer Shue
January 5, 2007
Leanne, this will make you laugh. Do you remember telling me how you talked your brother in to getting this perm in his hair because it was "cool" at the time? Or did he tell me about that?
Well .... guess what ..... Ellen gave me a pic with him with that hair! I always wondered what in the heck it would look like. Your brother was one of a kind!
I will upload the picture as soon as I get paid because it is priceless. I will upload some others as well. After next Thursday (or maybe on next Thursday), look at the link on the right that says "View the Photo Album" and I will put a lot of pics up. They are $2.95 ea., but it's worth it, even for the "Perm" pic. Can you believe I have that? You need to thank Ellen for that because it is priceless and puts a smile on my face. She will be posting soon and have her contact info up.
Talk to you later,
Jennifer Shue
January 5, 2007
So the new story I learned (I basically knew most of everything else your friend had to say) was when you met Ellen when you were 13.
You guys were in a gifted class together. You were going on a field trip and you were sitting in a seat alone. She was getting on the bus and no one would usually sit with her, but she asked you if she could sit down. You said, "Sure". That surprised her as she was not used to that.
So she sits down and a minute or so later you say, "Hey, wanna see something?" She said, "OK". So you flipped your sock down and there it was, a little, tiny turtle.
So you guys were playing with the turtle and set it on the bus floor to let it crawl around. Next thing you know, it was getting too far away so you guys were crawling around on the bus floor trying to get the turtle. You got it, but the administrators (teacher, etc.) saw that you had a turtle. They sent you off the bus to let it go.
So you go around the corner of the school and come back on the bus and finally the bus leaves to go to the field trip. The field trip was a play.
So you get to the play and everyone gets seated and you and Ellen sat next to each other again. So you look at her and say, "Guess what?" Then you pull the turtle out of your sock again.
You guys are playing with the turtle and it is pooping and peeing on your hands so it gets put on the floor for a minute. It, again, gets away. So you guys are both crawling on the floor at theplay, bumping and running into everyone's legs and just crawling all over the floor getting that turtle.
You finally got it, but I believe you got busted by the school again. That story is just so you, as I said before about bringing home creatures to your mom and pulling them out of your pockets.
Kids can be mean so you found little creatures as intriguing and you always loved them. We even went through 3 turtles and an iguana while we were married.
This story also reminds me how you were so uniquely different and full of surprises. That was you - there is no one else like you. You are so special.
I am glad I got at least one more memory of you, especially one I can picture in my head so well. You and Ellen remained very close friends for several years, until her and Louie broke up (you met Louie through her and bonded with him).
I love you always and I hope this story put a smile on someone's face as it did mine.
Love Always,
Jennifer Shue
January 4, 2007
Wow - I took this gov. job because I thought I would be treated with respect. I just got majorly fussed at for leaving the van with all these empty boxes and other garbage when none of it was mine.
This was a day when all I would look forward to was 5 so I could get out of here and come home to you.
I don't understand why that guy was so mean to me. I have enough to deal with and I have been cleaning up after these people since I started here. The entire place is cleaned - you knew because I told you all about it. I don't understand how someone could "fuss" at me for that. I have been picking up after them since. I'm not the secretary and I'm not the janitor. And the others just stand around like, "It's not mine", "It's not mine", when yes, it is theirs.
Whatever. I just am going to have a hard day because I don't have you to lean on. I will get adjusted to this - sounds like me and Leanne would both need you today. You were so important.
Love you and miss you,
Jennifer Shue
January 4, 2007
I love you Leanne, just like a sister, and anytime you feel like talking, like you always did with your brother and I, please feel free to call.....ANYtime. I consider you my family - I hope that doesn't skeeve you!
You were very good at making Steve feel special and he loved his (almost) daily conversations with you. He loved you so much. And he liked that you were proud of him (I told him how you told me that - you probably may have told him, too).
You were always there for him and he felt that special bond with you - I know he is looking down on you with the rest of your family and they are your angels. And I KNOW your brother is mine, I have received several "signs". I'm not kidding.
I will talk to you after work and keep your chin up - Steve loved you and you loved him and your family will always be in your heart. Trust me, I KNOW this is not easy for you (it is not easy for me and it is probably even worse for you due to your family being gone). Embrace Joey's family and never lose contact with me - we love you so much.
I spoke with Ellen for a very long time. She was friends with your brother from when he was 13. It was almost like I had another opportunity to sit down with your brother and hear and extra story or two.
She told me about a field trip where he snuck a turtle on the bus in his sock and she was sitting next to him and how when they got to their play (or whatever the field trip was), the turtle got away and they were crawling aroung chasing the turtle that got away. They found him adn he was told he had to go let it go. He said ok, went outside and came back. Then a few minutes later he said, "Guess what?" He opened his sock again and there was the little turtle!
Your brother was so funny and we have to remember all that stuff o keep the smiles on our faces. Your brother is not suffering and no one else in your family is. They are happy and take joy in watching you and your youngins (they are so cute).
Please call anytime.
Love,
leanne shue
January 3, 2007
It feels like forever that your gone. Steve you will always be in my heart. Its so amazing to me that we meaning mom, dad, you & me were all put together as a family like we wewe picked by G-d to be a family and now you guys are all gone. I try so hard to think of it as if you were all supposed to be looking down on me for a reason however I would do anything to have all of you
here with me. There is so much going on in the world and of corse I would always call you to have you explain to me what this meant or that meant so I really miss that. There is so much I miss. Well bro you are soooooo missed and will always be remembered throuh all the great memories you left me and anyone who knew you. I love you big brother. Leanne
Jennifer Shue
January 3, 2007
I will be meeting an old friend of yours (hopefully tonight) and I hope to learn soemthing I didn't know about you. It's almost as if I get a chance to sit down with you one last time.
Also, I was at the store and I saw the 8-pack of V-8 on sale at Publix - just like I used to get for you. You always had to have your V-8 - one a day to keep you healthy. And you could see the difference in your skin when you were drinking them and when you were not.
I'm at work and must go. I love you and I am so excited about tonight, Bye babe.
Jennifer Shue
January 2, 2007
Happy New Year. Everyone says I am going to have a great new year, but I don't see how, not without you here. It's OK, I'll find a way to get by. I just miss you so much.
I got a hold of one of your old friends and I am so excited because she has some more stories about you. I can't wait.
Happy New Year Babe, I hope you are doing good up there and I will see you one day and it will be like waking up from a good dream that turns out came true.
Bye, I will write more later when I get some more info!
Love you with all my heart, and then some,
Jennifer Shue
December 29, 2006
Some random things I remembered:
You used to call me your "Nosey Rosey" because I am, and always have been, so nosey. I just had to mention that. Even when I was a little newborn I would stick my head out of the basinett if something was going on when most babies couldn't even hold up their heads yet!
I say this to everyone else, but have yet to mention it here. I am so proud of how much you grew as a person and a man while we were together. You grew more than most people do in 16 lifetimes. I am not exaggerating one bit about that, and your family should be so proud of you. I think you grew the maximum that G-d allows one to grow. You faced all of your mistakes from the past and made great strides in doing what was right. You did what you thought was good by your family and worked very hard in making contributions to the family. You kept us safe and showed mercy and compassion on others. You even helped me with some of the housework! That takes a true man! You also worked with Steven on his homework because you cared about him and his grades so much. You were a great father, business owner, and a wonderful husband. No one would ever be able to compare.
Some of your favorite ethnic foods:
Shrimp with Lobster sauce. Although I couldn't get you to eat Chinese food anymore since that one Father's Day I ordered you and your Dad chinese. It got here in 5 minues (literally) and you ended up with food poisoning - what a horrible Father's Day!
Italian: Definitely Veal Parmesean (if it were lunch) and Chicken Marsala if it were dinner (my parents took me to eat at Carraba's last night and I was looking at that thinking that's what you would order if you were there).
If you went to fast food (the times you could get me to get it for you - not very often - so it was a treat for you), you would order a Big Mac and a Quarter Pounder with Cheese (no pickles and extra onion, of course. You would only eat one at time, but you could never make your mind up between the two. Actually, you would always eat very small meals, but eat 2-5 times a day (depending on if you were working labor or if your appetite was enhanced or if you had a slow day).
If we got Mexican (not one of your favorites), you would ALWAYS get a soft taco. Actually, you never liked mexican restaurants, but you would love it when I made soft tacos at home.
Again you put ketchup on almost everything but fries (which you would rarely order), but you also loved your Lea & Perrins BBQ sauce and you LOVED honey mustard sauce.
When you were a kid, you were so picky you didn't even like pizza! You lived off of PB&J sandwiches.
Also you used to talk about how when you were a kid, you would end up at the dinner table all night because you would never eat. You weren't allowed up until you finished and many nights you sat at that table ALL night! Then if bedtime came, your next meals, breakfast, lunch, etc., would be your leftover dinner until it was all gone. Aww, poor picky Steve.
Your all-time favorite food (besides hamburgers) would probably be lobster. You always tried to get me to eat it and I never would. You would say I was a cheap date and "More for me!" I did eat one shrimp as a tribute to you after your passing - it sounds silly, but I know you would be greatly honored.
You loved reading and almost anything science-fiction. You had the entire Hardy Boys book collection. Sometimes, you would have to read the encyclopedia. For restriction you had to go to your room and you were only allowed to read so you LOVED reading.
You would usually like to drink water, otherwise it was Coke or Budweiser (Natural Ice if funds were tight).
You were such a fun guy and I miss you so much. I feel you in my heart and I will never let you go, not until I get to see you again (then I still won't let you go). You are worth it - one in 400 billion (at least).
Oh - I almost forgot to mention how honest you were. You would never, ever steal (it would never even cross your mind), and even if you did something you weren't supposed to, you would end up telling me. You couldn't help it, honesty was in your nature.
That reminds me, how one Christmas we were outside of the Coral Square mall. You found $400 cash floating around the parking lot as we were walking and approached the mall (we were going through the Sears entrance). We walked around for a little bit to see if we saw anyone looking around for anything. We searched and searched for like 30 minutes, even though we were in a little bit of a hurry. We couldn't turn cash in to the security guard because he would keep it. No one reported any lost money to Lost and Found so we ended up keeping it, but that's how honest you were. Actually, we spent the money on buying things for other people. You were so nice and thoughtful.
Oh, you also loved BBQ chips (but you liked Sweet BBQ flavor) and Sweet 'N Hot Beef jerky (it was always hard to find - mostly in gas stations).
You loved my meatloaf and roast and my Chicken Macaroni dish. Also you loved my Catalina Chicken and my Spaghetti. You loved inviting your friends over for dinner so you could show me off. You loved me so much and I loved you. I will miss you always.
Love,
Deborah McKnight
December 28, 2006
Dear One, I cannot believe that you are gone. It seems I only just found you. The first time I layed eyes on you, you were in a hospital nursery. So tiny and had the darkest hair of all the babies in there with you. The next time I saw you it was 32 years later and you had the longest hair that I had seen on a man since the late sixties. But you looked so good to me. I will always have that image of you standing at the bus station with your guitar and suitcase, I just wanted to stop my car and sit there and stare at you. You could never know how beautiful you were to me. Your brother, Scott, always wanted a brother, but a younger one. But he never held it against you or me that you were the older brother. Lisa just accepted that she had another brother. Dana had a harder time of it. I don't know how Stacie felt. She was in the same boat as you, being offered up for adoption. She kept so much inside. Bless your heart, you were very open about how you felt. Your whole life, I prayed to God that I would find and meet my children before I left this world. I never dreamed that he would take you first. Nine years was not enough. How could we cram a lifetime into nine short years? I loved you from the first time I saw you. I miss you now, but God willing, I will see you when I leave this earth. I promise I will do my best to help Jenn and Stevie. They are my family, too. I love you.
Love Mom
Jennifer Shue
December 28, 2006
Falling Down - another movie you loved starring Michael Douglas.
The guy loses his job and gets fed up with the daily bs. He orders a cheeseburger from a fast food restaurant and it is all smushed and typical-looking, really. He's like, "How come it doesn't look like the picture?" And demands a burger that looks like the picture.
Basically in the movie the guy gets fed up with the way things are and takes a stand and he is treated like he's crazy and then finally he says, "Wait a minute, I'm the bad guy?"
You were very patriotic about that movie. You loved it. It was from the 80's, I believe.
I just remembered that so I wanted to mention it - it's just another part of you. I am afraid of forgetting the small stuff so I want to write it down so that it never happens. I love you and I always want to remember EVERYthing.
Jennifer Shue
December 28, 2006
A little about you, physically:
You were 5'11 and 3/4 (I would tease you that you weren't 6')! and about 165-180 lbs. (it fluctuated depending on if I was able to cook or not - isn't that funny? - you only would eat if I made something homemade, unless it was a burger)
You had thick brown hair (although it was blond when you were younger)and loved that it was never going to fall out. It grew so fast I couldn't even keep up with it. You had two of those little circles on the top of your head (just like your son!), so if your hair was short, you had a cowlick like no tomorrow. You always wanted your hair long so you could put it in a rubber band, but sometimes you would cut it short and you looked so hot. Your hair had just gotton passed that inbetween stage and was grown out very nicely. It looked cool. You had a couple grays, but not many.
You had very unique toes - the only one in the world with toes like that you would always say - You could not bend your big toes. Then you met your biological mother and guess what - toes explained! You had nice feet, but always wanted to walk around barefoot - you were so cute.
When you walked, you bounced and mostly walked on the balls of your feet - your heels didn't touch the ground much. Your toes pointed slightly outward. As the years went on, your bounce decreased some, but that was your unique walk.
You wore a 34 waist and 32 length pants. You always had to have a belt or your pants would fall right off! You had a tall and skinny physique, but you were not lanky - you were very well proportioned. Little Steven has your same build. You had a little beer belly, but on some nights if you drank too much, your belly would poke out more and it was so cute.
You had a little hairy butt patch and your son has the same one! It is not very noticable and is just peach fuzz, but there was one little spot at the bottom of your low back where the peach fuzz hair was a little circle.
You had beautiful teeth. They were aligned perfectly and had a nice white color to them.
Your lips were full, but thin at the same time. They were perfect. You were such a good-looking guy.
Your skin was a nice color with slightly reddish-orange undertones. It seems almost like it was freckly, but you had no freckles.
Your eyes - I could go on for days about your eyes and how they glittered. They were the most beautiful eyes I have ever looked in to. Looking in to your eyes was like looking in to the crystal blue waters of a well-maintained pool with blue lining at the bottom on a summer day with the sun shining brightly so as to give off a lot of reflection. They were bright blue with a lot of lines in the color, which gave them that crystal-ly look. They were amazing - you were amazing. I could get lost for days looking in to your eyes.
Your fingers were long - hint hint. That was just a joke. You always kept your thumbnail long for when you played guitar. Your nails were so thick and strong that sometimes you would use wire cutters to trim them! Your toe nails especially! That was so funny - they weren't freaky-looking or anything, actually they were very nice-looking, but very strong. You had little dimples above your knuckles.
Did I mention your smile? You had so many different smiles.
Like the one where you just said a smart-alek joke and would try to hug me and act like you were sincere. You would raise your eyebrows and have a smile/smirk on your face with this innocent look. Yeah right.
Or the one where you were truly happy and your eyes would light up the whole room and your dimples would show.
Or the one as if to say, "Yeah, right," and you would give a look and turn your head to the left to continue doing whatever you were doing.
Or the smile that would slowly emerge as you were listening to a story and waiting for the punch line.
Or the smile where you wanted to look cute for a picture or something - you know, like a Jim Morrison-type smile with the eyes squinted a little.
Or the uncontrollable laugh smile, where you would start coughing because you were laughing so hard. Those were the best because I knew you were truly enjoying life. We had a lot of those moments - we cracked on everything we could to get a good laugh, but we would never hurt feelings because we were sensitive to people. (aren't we nice?)
You had nice legs and a nice derriere (a word you used to use). The hair on your legs was a real dark brown, actually it was black which didn't match the rest of your hair colors (arms, head, etc.). You said it was because you shaved your legs one time for the swim team and it grew back dark. I don't know if that is right because your bely hair was dark, too. You had the perfect happy trail, by the way, just like I like it.
You were old-fashioned and I liked that about you. You used to always love to "attack" me when I was in the kitchen cooking. There was something about me cooking for you that got you all excited. I had to shoo you out so I could cook, but I was flattered and you knew it, but you still had to get out of the chef's way. You said if you could, and it were up to you, "I would have you barefoot, pregnant, and in the kitchen."
You would usually wear jeans and a polo shirt or a T-shirt with something funny on it or a band name.
Oh, remember Jealous Boy? We would be standing in the kitchen or something hugging and Little Steven would come push his way inbetween us and try to have me all to himself or he would join us. And we would say, "Awww, we're such a happy family, we love each other."
I hope I am not making anyone sick by all of this, but these things you think you'll remember forever, but next thing you know you forget. I never want to forget these precious memories, so as I think about them, I will write them, to keep forever in my memory book I am going to order from this site.
I miss you Steve.
Jennifer Shue
December 28, 2006
Well I was listening to Big 105.9 (Ft. Lauderdale FM Radio Circuit) this morning and Bobby Flay, the BBQ master was on getting interviewed. They asked him if he could only BBQ one thing, what would it be. He said "A Ribeye steak", without hesitation. That's a Delmonico, your favorite cut! See, I told you that you were the master BBQ'er!
Also, on Christmas, (my mom said I left this out and I should mention it) I had your picture next to my Grandmothers' with flowers in the middle and candles burning for you and my grandmother, just like you used to burn candles for your parents. Like I said, you are in our hearts so strong and we will never forget about you. We love you so much because you were such a great person.
Jennifer Shue
December 27, 2006
"I'm gettin bet-tah", as Monty Python would say (another one of your all-time favorites).
I still miss you so bad and just want to give you a hug and never let go, but at least I'm starting to get a little bit bet-tah. I know you would want me happy, so I am trying really hard for you. It's not easy - I love you so much. Say "Hi" to G-d for me.
Jennifer Shue
December 27, 2006
Steve was smart so he had these neat little tricks he used to get information all the time. Here is one below.
A trick you used to use to see if a girl or someone else was looking at you in school: you would yawn. If that person (or girl) yawned, you knew she was interested (or at least was looking at you). Yawns are contagious you know.
Jennifer Shue
December 27, 2006
Another thing - Steve located his biological mother some years back and also found he was an older brother to more siblings. Leanne was always his sister, but it was neat to him to find out he had a YOUNGER half brother and some other half sisters. Again, he was always in to family and it meant a lot to him, so it should to anyone that loved him. No one could replace his family he grew up with, but he loved his biological family as well so, please, all feel free to post comments.
Jennifer Shue
December 27, 2006
Oh I forgot to mention -
Marsha wanted so bad to get down here for your service. You meant so much to her - after all, you were married to her best friend and she saw how much you really loved me.
She was able to make it down just after, for Thanksgiving. I am so glad she did because I needed her so bad. She comforted me as I was dealing with some tough issues about missing you and your family. She wrote such a nice comment about how she loved the long conversations you guys used to have when she would call for me and I wasn't home. She said you would make her laugh so much and brighten her day. That's how you were - always trying to make people laugh and smile.
We will miss you always. My Aunt and Uncle also came all the way from Maryland and told everyone how fond they were of you and what a nice person you were. You would be so proud.
Jennifer Shue
December 27, 2006
Another quote from you:
"Common sense isn't so common."
You were also very fond of your family ..... your cousins, Stacy, Melissa, and the rest. Your Aunts and Uncles, Benita, Cheryl, Fred, and the rest. You loved my family and my parents. You loved my nephew as a son. You were very happy and excited to meet your biological mom and truley understanding about the entire situation. You loved your real parents more than anything. You loved your mom and you were so close to your dad - you guys were like buds, but you had a great respect for him and your mom. You were a family person and loved all family, no matter what. Unconditional love was nothing you had to think about, it was just native to you.
It made you so happy that I had a job I loved where the people were nice to me. That made YOU happy. You were so caring.
You were the most unmaterialistic man I have ever met and that is just one of the reasons I fell in love with you.
I forgot to mention Tim - I am sure you are up there playing guitar with Tim and Louie is playing along with his harmonica and Petey (Lou's BB King Bird) is playing the leads.
Petey was so cool. This bird was so smart and would pick a lead (he would sound just like an electric guitar) to match the music, even when you changed the tune. He would ignore you unless you had Taco Bell, then it was, "Helllllloooooooo" in a seductive voice. Ooh that bird knew how to get just what he wanted. He would sit up on your shoulder and tap you until you started playing guitar. He was so cool and you loved him.
I hope you are doing well and we miss you so much down here. Lots of Love ....... From your soulmate.
Jennifer Shue
December 27, 2006
Full Metal Jacket was one of your favorite movies - you like Gomer Pyle, who was Vincent D'onofrio of Law and Order CI (you also liked Law and Order SVU).
You LOVED the original Heavy Metal (movie), but the 2000 verion wasn't very good. Heavy Metal - the original movie (NOT 2000) - I was your Queen Bee and a lot of your favorite bands had songs in there - Nose Dive!
You loved Apocalypse Now and Robert Duvall's character was your favorite. "I love the smell of fresh Nepalm in the morning!" You thought it was so funny when he made the surfer hit the waves with bullets spraying everywhere.
You also liked to go Scuba Diving and you couldn't believe you got a ticket for diving without a license one time. You always thought they should focus more on criminals and not people appreciating the World's beauty.
Oh - by the way - I still have the ruler and I told Leanne so. I told her she could never have it back, it was my ruler! You guys used to snatch it back and forth as kids because you thought it was neat. It was a little power struggle between the two of you and you always thought it was funny when you had the ruler.
You used to get in a rubber tube and float down the "crick" in Tennessee. You would float for miles, all the way to the river! Then you had to walk miles back to your house. To get there quicker, you would cut through the farm fields and have to dodge the rock salt being shot at you from the farmers!
Those are just some more facts about you. I think you are so cool and I always have. You were that little, bright reflection of light in my eye like everyone has. Mine was all you and always will be. I hope I get to see you again someday.
Love Always, your wife and son.
Jennifer Shue
December 27, 2006
I was in the shower getting ready for work this morning and thinking of you. I was singing a little. You said you liked it when you heard me singing in the shower because you knew I was happy.
I also stuck out my lower lip as I was thinking how I missed you. You called that my Pouty Face because you used to call me "My Little Brat". I never realized I made that face until you pointed it out. It came out when I was sad or wanted to get my way and couldn't.
Ahhhh - I will never stop thinking about you and I feel as if you are with me in some weird way - and I hope you are - maybe as my angel, like your sister said. Talk to you later - Love, your soulmate.
Wait, that reminds me - you used to always say how we were soulmates and talk about how you would be in school and just wondering what your soulmate was doing at the time. Then when you met me, you said that I would have been in diapers as you were thinking that and you would have never guessed! (You were 10 and a half years older than me) Isn't that funny?
Well, at work, must go. Miss you, miss you, miss you - always.
Jennifer Shue
December 26, 2006
For Thanksgiving you would have piled up on the Stuffing as usual (half a plate full!), and would have had turkey (leftovers in the grinder of course) on a roll, ham, and that was mostly it. It was hard to get you to eat your veggies, even on a holiday!
You used to even try to put ketchup on my delicious, homemade mashed potatoes - how dare you! LOL ... anyways, you put ketchup on everything but french fries - I could never figure that one out. And bologna on your peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. Ewww I thought at first, but they weren't that bad.
Well, we all missed you for the holidays, but your pictures were right there with us and I sat right next to you. We all looked at the pictures over and over again and missed you greatly.
Love you always, will never forget.
Jennifer Shue
December 26, 2006
You were the BBQ master. You loved cooking on the grill, especially during the summer weekends and for my Aunt and Uncle from Maryland. You know they enjoyed it so much.
Only one rule though - never say the b word or p word - you know - BBQ or Picnic. If so, it would be sure to rain (that was passed on from your father)!
You would soak your wood chips and cooks ribs, chicken, fish, hamburgers, hot dogs, corn, potatoes, and anything else you could fit on there. And then you would find a special BBQ sauce you would like and slop it on top. You were the best (hey, even people from Maryland would travel all the way to Florida for your BBQ'ing)!
We were never hungry during a hurricane and all the neighbors wanted to come over for our hurricane feasts! (the electric stoves wouldn't work, but you would BBQ and it was Dee-licious) I still have your hurricane documentary, by the way.
In fact, you should have done more with your video editing - you were such a natural at putting short movies / film together. You were very creative. I will eventually make a web site and post them up there where they deserve to be so everyone can see your creativity.
I'm at work so I have to go. It took quite a long time for me to get used to seeing my voicemail light on and realizing it wasn't you leaving me a message. You used to leave me voicemails at work all the time and I loved that. Well, better go - still love ya lots and always will. By the way - your boy is very protective of me and won't let any men near me so don't worry - he is taking care of me. Hope all is good - RIP.
Jeffrey Goldberg c/o Jennifer Shue
December 26, 2006
To my knowledge I was the last person who had a conversation with Steve. Through a lot of reflection since that time, I strongly feel that this is what Steve has to say to his family, friends and supporters.
First, I want to talk about Steve from my point of view. He was the one who was there for us when the hurricanes threatened. He would rush over and put up our shutters. You could tell he got quite a bit of satisfaction from doing the work and making us more secure.
Then there was Steve the barbeque chef. He made the best hamburgers in the world and again got a lot of satisfaction out of offering his service. He didn’t worry about himself eating until everyone got theirs exactly the way they wanted it.
Steve was generous and had a good heart. He and his wife Jennifer allowed all kinds of people into their home time and time again who were suffering some of life’s misfortunes. It seemed that many times the people they tried to help out ended up costing them money and hardships which they really couldn’t afford. But Steve and Jen kept on bringing in another burdened soul again and again, only to suffer the same outcome. I couldn't understand it, but now I see that it wasn’t the outcome that they focused on, but lending a helping hand to someone in need, showing their unconditional love for G-d and humans.
What these repeated acts represents to me is the real definition of Love. Its not looking at what the person has done to put themselves in their situation, but that the person was hurting and suffering. Steve and Jen would always try to contribute to the people's needs and pain and give them a second chance, or fresh start. To me that’s what the true human spirit is all about.
In G-d's eyes, Love is the most important of all attributes. Not judging, but doing the opposite; Loving and understanding. Love covers a multitude of sins. Thank goodness because everyone sins. Love speaks louder than words just like actions do.
Steve cared about humanity so much so he had a hard time with overcoming emotions, dependencies and the cares of life. He had a helpmate and wife, Jennifer, who brought him a long way down the road, as he helped her grow in many ways as well. Together they had a stable home, family life, beautiful Son and most important their rare, but TRUE Love. Steve told me on many occasions the Love he had for Jennifer and his son Steven.
In conclusion from my observations and reflection, Steve loved being an asset but found it hard to overcome life’s challenges. From all this reflection, I feel Steve would want to impart this message to his friends and family: Love is the most important element of life. Loving people and being understanding, not judging people, will make this world a wonderful place. Everyone has obstacles, challenges, hardships and cares to contend with in their lives and should never be judged.
Steve took so much pride when he was contributing and this message is just another way he has made such a big contribution to humanity.
Steve has went on to another place. He has Love in his heart. He is fine and everything will turn out fine in the end and that’s all that really counts. Love is more important than anything. It’s life’s real foundation.
Furthermore, Steve would like his departure from this earth to be an asset, not a liability to all those he loved. Please let him accomplish this. To his wife Jennifer; May you always keep the love and understanding in your heart that you have for all people. May you go forward not backwards, find peace, pick up the pieces, overcome the obstacles that are and that come into your life and trade them in for hopes and plans for the future. May you continue in caring for people but be wise in all decisions. May you seek and find G-dly people to associate with to benefit yourself and Steven. May you bring up Steven to enjoy life’s blessings, not suffering its shortcomings, and teach him to overcome challenges, emotions and be truly successful in the things that really count.
To everyone: Head in a positive direction one step at a time. Rid yourself of any dependencies as they can be your downfall, overcome all obstacles, don’t let emotions rule you but use wisdom and sound judgment in all things, and learn patience. Find and do the things that are right and good. Choose G-D to be your dependency and lean on Him who will lead you to all good. Trust in Him and fear not. By standing on His foundation you cannot fail. Find peace, love and provide a solid, prosperous, decent and productive future for yourself and your family from this day forward.
Steve, thank you so very much for caring for me and about me and my family. May G-D be with you and bless you. All my love always.
I hope we may be an asset and a good example to all those we come in contact with, as G-D leads us to all good things. Let Steve be the asset that he wanted. Then the life that he spent on this earth would be extremely worthwhile.
I believe this is Steve’s message to all of us. Let’s go forward starting now, not backwards, AMEN.
Jennifer Shue
December 25, 2006
Merry Christmas, Babe. I miss you. I know you were needed upstairs because you're so special. I have been thinking and talking about you all day, as well as the rest of my family. I can't wait until we are all reunited one day. Bless you and your Merry soul and may your parents see how successful you are by looking down from above. With all my Love, your wife and child.
Jennifer Shue
December 22, 2006
Stargate SG-1 was your favorite show - that's another you would love to watch - especially on Monday's when they'd show the new episodes.
You loved nature and always brought home all kinds of snakes and other animals that would freak out your mom.
You were fond of anything of the earth - such as certain rocks - you gave my sister a healing rock when she found out she was sick and you made her feel so special. We found a rock to send to your cousin Melissa because you knew that was her major in college and you thought the rock was so cool. And you wanted to send her some of the geodes you got from salvador. I found a very special rock by the bed, I believe you put it there as a reminder of you. I miss you.
Another quote you would always say "Don't make an ace of yourself" or "Don't be an ash". You loved botching words, phrases, and songs to give them your special, usually funny, twist.
I must go again, but will be adding more as I get time. Wish you were here .....
Jennifer Shue
December 18, 2006
Speaking of antics - how about the time you rode your bike off of your roof? (A Johnny Knoxville member b4 that show)
Also, bad cop, no donut - another Jason story. We used to have fun going to watch him race his dirt bike.
Your friend, Tom Sawyer, drove the car off of a 75 ft. overpass and that's how you hurt your back. At least you got your nine lives, although I wish it were 10. They said you would never walk again and you ripped out the life support tube and got up off the table. You shocked everyone. You were so strong.
You loved nature and when a gator bled all over your van, a new employee the next day got out and ran! That was another funny story.
You will still always live on - the finaldaze myspace made me cry. Love Always - Peace out dude.
Jennifer Shue
December 18, 2006
You liked fishing also and when Little Steven was like 2 or so, you took him fishing and he caught his 1st fish ever - a catfish.
It didn't even take him a minute just as you were explaining to him fishing takes patience! He had to run home and show his Mommy so your first fishing trip with Little Steve was very short! You always thought that was cute.
Jennifer Shue
December 18, 2006
You liked Blondie, ABBA, any rocker chick (Joan Jett, etc), Pink Floyd (above all else), Doors, and basically anything on the classic rock station, Big 105.9.
You always liked to call the radio station and one time you won a copy of the Muppets on DVD - you were so proud! Also you won a notebook, but said, "Oh, no thanks, I don't need a notebook." Only to find out from your "techie" wife that a notebook is close to a laptop computer!!! Oops!
You had a unique, deep voice and you sang so nicely. (By the way, I still have to say I was glad when the CD player ate the ABBA cd!) You were like a walking jukebox when you had your guitar (uuhhh - which was like always).
I always made you play "Puff the Magic Dragon" for the kids, just like my Dad used to. And of course my favorite, "American Pie" by Don McLean. My favorite Pink Floyd songs you would always play me were "Mother" and "Wish You Were Here". Those were OUR songs.
We had so many fun camping trips and you were so proud of me on my first one because we were visiting Jason in Gainesville and went to see one of the Springs. It was raining and pouring and you said I handled the camping like a pro, even though it was my first time.
I'm still going to write more about you as I think of it, but this is all for the moment. I am going to check out myspace
My brother put the page up for you because that was always your band's name and the words were tatooed right under the guitar on your left shoulder. I'm sorry I never wanted you getting more tatoos - you loved that one that you had and always wanted more. I hope the page is good and anyone is welcome to check it out.
Jennifer Shue
December 18, 2006
Oh - I forgot to mention ....
You were always telling jokes and making everyone laugh. You knew every joke, rhyme, and limerick - no, really, EVERY one. You taught a lot of them to Little Steven - Got a mosquito on my blahblah knock it off ..... That will be sorely missed. You also loved to "butcher" every song to make it funny. I needed that in my life.
You and I were like 2 kids together, always laughing, jumping fences, having adventures, and just hanging. We enjoyed each other just like 2 best friends should. I miss ya - I just wanted everyone to know you were always laughing and telling jokes - that was your normal demeanor.
Also you had a really large bladder, so every time you went to the bathroom, it would take like 5 minutes. Well that 5 minutes alone would give you time to think and you would always come out of the bathroom with the funniest story or tidbit of information.
Again, I must go, but I hope you are laughing in heaven with Lou and your family - I love you.
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